Hey to all my fellow LBers,
I have a confession that I must get off my chest. I had my surgery this past Monday, the 28th. Everything went well with the exception of having to have a catheter after surgery because I could not eliminate on my own. I was released early Tuesday afternoon after eating my small coat of SF Sherbet and Lemonade. After getting home, I rested for a while and then started my dilemma....
All I wanted was solid foods, anything but the liquid that I was supposed to be on for 2 weeks. I found myself so scared by the 2 week pre-op diet of only liquids, that I knew I wouldn't be able to do it again.
So Tuesday night I had a scrambled egg. It seemed to go down well, as I took very small bites and chewed to a liquid consistency. I have continued to do the same thing until this afternoon when I ate a good portion of a small pizza from Chuck 'e' cheese to realize what I have been doing is wrong. Luckily, I have not had any vomiting or sliming experience, only a tightness in my chest. I am so very ashamed and feel like I am already failing! I know that I can't continue to go on like this but I am also scared that I do not have enough strength and willpower to continue for another week and a half.
It shocks me that I am in this situation when everyone else has done such a great job of sticking to their Doctor's orders. I am very aware of the repercussions of my actions with a slipped band or detached flipped port and am scarred something like this happened. I have failed in this aspect of my life. Not only did these types of habits get me where I am today, they are also trying to enter into my new banded life and I won't let that happen!
Any feedback would be greatly appreciated, but most of all I just want to thank all of you for listening:blush: