waitingtiljan

Well..after waiting what seemed like forever, I had my consultation yesterday and he scheduled me for surgery Jan 30th. Woohoo!!:clap2: I can't believe it! I'm on my first day of 13 days of Optifast. So far so good, but I just know it's going to get worse as the day goes by. I will do it though. I was surprised he started me on Optifast and schedule me so soon!! No last meal for me..I guess my last meal was cheese and crackers. LOL!!! Jeez...I would have never picked that!! I can deal with it though..I've had 38 years to eat whatever I've wanted...now it's time to stop all those bad habits!! I'm ready to start playing with my kids for a change. I love this board and look forward to getting to know you guys!!

:think :think :think :think :think I am just so upset! Why is it so hard for my husband to understand what it feels like to live as an overweight person? Why does he keep trying to talk me out of this surgery???? I've already registered for the manditory seminar which is in a few days. I'm self pay and have been approved for financing. I am so exstatic that I'm going to have this done. My life will finally start to change FOR THE BETTER! I feel like I've been living just day to day for everyone else. Get the kids to school, take care of my 3 year old, pick the kids up, make dinner. Oh..and take a nap so the day goes by a little faster!! Start over the next day. It's pathetic, but I'm so unhappy being fat. SO UNHAPPY! I hate seeing myself, I hate other people seeing me. I dread that someone will notice me or even want to talk to me. I have lost so many friends because I just don't want to go out in public because I have to buy ugly, old lady, Walmart clothes!! I don't feel worthy of a friend, I don't feel like I could fit in with any women my age because I'm LESS of a person. My husband watched Oprah with me yesterday adn told me .."why can't you lose weight like Dr. Oz says?" "Hire a personal trainer" "Just stop eating, eat diet meals" Then when I tell him..I've tried all of that!!! I've done every diet for the last 25 years! I lose a little and gain it back. I just feel like he thinks me getting this surgery means that I'm a failure. That I am taking the easy way out. I know I could lose weight if I quit eating, but it's just so hard to stick to a diet. I'm 38 and weigh 275. He knows I try, but still he wants me to keep trying and failing. He thinks I need to go talk to "someone" because being so miserable from being fat isn't normal. Being so mad about being fat isn't normal. "Who cares if you are overweight?" he says. Just live your life and be happy. Ughhh!:angry There is nothing worse than not having your husband of all people on your side. Especially when I have no friends to call. I can't even talk to my family or even my sister because they are TOTALLY against it!! My mom told me over Thanksgiving that she wants to talk me out of it before she goes home. I feel so alone and it just stinks! I want this done, I will have it done, but how do I get him to understand that he will have a much happier wife as a result. How can I make him get it??:help: Thanks for listening!!

I so totally agree! I want myself back more than anything!!!!! I feel sometimes like I'm not really this person I've become. Does that make sense?? I'm so fun and outgoing and love sports and all that crazy stuff. I love swimming, running and jumping off a dock into the lake...and in a bathing suit instead of some big oversized tee that MUST be the color black to disguise all the weight..LOL!! My husband and my family will be so happy when I'm my old self. This weight is dragging me down and I hate it!! As for the vacation from my parents!! I'll still be the same weight when I get back. The whole time I'll be mad because I won't have anything nice to wear that looks at all good. I'll dread an airplane...oh I remember how hard i tried to buckle that seatbelt before anyone came and got in the seat next to me..I tried soooo hard and I knew if someone sat down, I'd never be able to do it because they'd see me struggling...and then the embarrassment!! I just laid it on my lap and put my shirt over it...flew unbuckled. No way would I have asked for an extension. I've decided not to mention it to anyone again. They are all just as overweight as I am...I don't get it. My husband seems to be a little more understanding. He actually sat and talked to me tonight about the surgery. He seemed genuinely interested and even if he wasn't...I told him thank you for talking to me. He just smiled. I love him...even though he is a little stubborn at times. The seminar is on Wednesday..I can't wait until we go so he can understand it a little more.

OMG! I just can't understand my family! My parents just offered me a free vacation if I'd NOT do the surgery. I'm 38 years old...please!!! I guess the best thing to do is just not ever mention it again or I'll never be at peace with my decision. Isn't that just too much? I know they care and are worried, but they just "KNOW" I'll be miserable. Ughhhh Fun fun!

I'm so excited about going to this seminar. I just want to finally get moving on having this surgery done. I can't wait until my dh learns what I've learned about the surgery. I'm hoping it will make him feel more comfortable with me having it done. I don't know if he's worried or just doesn't want to spend the money. Either way, hopefully one day he'll realize how this will change my life. I know that this will help me lose weight and keep it off, but it's really so hard to believe. It's so hard to imagine myself actually making it out of the 200's!!! I guess I'll believe it when I see it happening. I hope I'll be able to deal with the food changes and lack of. I keep telling myself that I'd do anything to lose weight and to feel better about myself. So I'm know that when I start losing..I'll be too happy to even care what foods I'm missing. I'll just find something else to fill the food gap.

I've been thinking of what I would do when I'm thin...here are just some of them. It's sad to think that I have been putting my entire life on hold until I'm not fat, but that's me... 1. sit on the beach and build a sandcastle with my kids without looking like a beached whale 2. stop watching my kids play and play with them! 3. ride every ride at busch gardens and have that bar not pinch my flab!!! 4. ride the gocarts at the grand prix with the rest of my family 5. go camping more 6. go to all the parties we are usually invited to and know that my hubby is proud of me and who he's with..i know he's already proud...but i'll feel proud 7. go to the park with my son, make friends with other moms 8. stop emailing my best friend and actually go do something with her 9. shop in the cool stores 10. finally feel GOOD!

I've been thinking of what I would do when I'm thin...here are just some of them. It's sad to think that I have been putting my entire life on hold until I'm not fat, but that's me... 1. sit on the beach and build a sandcastle with my kids without looking like a beached whale 2. stop watching my kids play and play with them! 3. ride every ride at busch gardens and have that bar not pinch my flab!!! 4. ride the gocarts at the grand prix with the rest of my family 5. go camping more 6. go to all the parties we are usually invited to and know that my hubby is proud of me and who he's with..i know he's already proud...but i'll feel proud 7. go to the park with my son, make friends with other moms 8. stop emailing my best friend and actually go do something with her 9. shop in the cool stores 10. finally feel GOOD!

I'm so excited about going to this seminar. I just want to finally get moving on having this surgery done. I can't wait until my dh learns what I've learned about the surgery. I'm hoping it will make him feel more comfortable with me having it done. I don't know if he's worried or just doesn't want to spend the money. Either way, hopefully one day he'll realize how this will change my life. I know that this will help me lose weight and keep it off, but it's really so hard to believe. It's so hard to imagine myself actually making it out of the 200's!!! I guess I'll believe it when I see it happening. I hope I'll be able to deal with the food changes and lack of. I keep telling myself that I'd do anything to lose weight and to feel better about myself. So I'm know that when I start losing..I'll be too happy to even care what foods I'm missing. I'll just find something else to fill the food gap.

OMG! Thank you all for being so nice! I appreciate every word of encouragement. It's so nice to know that I'm not alone and I can come here and vent. I've been talking to my husband about this surgery for over a year. At first I only mentioned it in a jokingly way because I never dreamed I would do it. But after all the research I've done..I finally said to myself. Why not have it done. I always thought...no insurance, no way. But I never knew it would be so affordable. NOW I do think he is scared. He does love me and he really isn't a jerk. He just doesn't understand how I can feel so miserable being me. I want him to be proud of me..no embarrassed. After I go to the seminar I'm going to start going to the support groups. I do think that would help me. I have a lot of weight related issues ..I know i do. Having some support would mean so much to me and if I can find it in a group..that would be wonderful. My husband does support everything I do, he really just doesn't want to talk about this surgery with me. He thinks I should be able to do it without surgery. For me, this surgery won't cure me, but it will REALLY help me out!! Thanks everyone for responding to my message..it's nice to know I can talk to you.

I'm trying to decide between 2 different doctors. How do I determine which one is best? If one uses staples and one doesn't..then is that a strange way to pick? I DON'T want staples! I really wish it were easier! Any good questions I should ask both of them? I'm scheduled to go to a seminar for one of the doctors. Should I base my choice on if I like this first doctor? Sorry..I'm just so nervous, but desperately want this done. Thanks!!!

SCHEDULED MY SEMINAR! Yay...I'm finally on my way to having this done. I called today to reserve my spot at Dr. Grossbards seminar. Dh is going to go with me. I've had such a hard time convincing him how much I really really want this done. He just doesn't "get" how I feel being fat. He has no worries about his own body or what other people think. I have a hard time being in this body...always thinking that people see me as less, not being able to have a conversation because I feel like other people dont' think I count. I'm sure it's all in my head, but I'm constantly thinking about my weight. It's really no fun at all. I've reached my limit though...I can't stand my weight or how I look. Lately I don't even care how I look. I'm just fed up. I'm 274 today. My highest was 283. I really just want to be comfortable in my own body. I want friends! I want to do things with my kids instead of sitting down and watching them have all the fun. I want to hike, run, build a sandcastle without looking like a beached whale! LOL It all boils down to me losing the weight, getting some confindence, and finally living! I'm so excited because I know that this is going to help me!!! :clap2:

SCHEDULED MY SEMINAR! Yay...I'm finally on my way to having this done. I called today to reserve my spot at Dr. Grossbards seminar. Dh is going to go with me. I've had such a hard time convincing him how much I really really want this done. He just doesn't "get" how I feel being fat. He has no worries about his own body or what other people think. I have a hard time being in this body...always thinking that people see me as less, not being able to have a conversation because I feel like other people dont' think I count. I'm sure it's all in my head, but I'm constantly thinking about my weight. It's really no fun at all. I've reached my limit though...I can't stand my weight or how I look. Lately I don't even care how I look. I'm just fed up. I'm 274 today. My highest was 283. I really just want to be comfortable in my own body. I want friends! I want to do things with my kids instead of sitting down and watching them have all the fun. I want to hike, run, build a sandcastle without looking like a beached whale! LOL It all boils down to me losing the weight, getting some confindence, and finally living! I'm so excited because I know that this is going to help me!!! :clap2:

Does anyone know if you can use this financing for surgery in Mexico? Does Dr. Ortiz accept this? Thanks!