Courtney, I lost my only sibling 3 years ago, my little brother. Yesterday would have been his 30th birthday. I so empathize with your pain. When I lost my brother, I didn't really turn to food - I drank myself into oblivion that whole summer. Finally, about 7 months later I had enough and started to really tap into the grief. The loss of your brother is sooooo fresh and so raw right now, it's probably super hard to concentrate and focus on what (in normal circumstances) is a tough road (weight loss). Allow yourself time to grieve. Tackle it day by day, DO NOT beat yourself up over not losing weight. Not now. There will be a time when the smoke clears a little bit and you'll feel like a human being again and you'll recognize what you need to do. I promise.
Best of luck to you, sooo sorry for your loss...I totally empathize with you. If you ever need to talk, send me a message. Or find me on facebook.
:HUGS:
Me and my brother