Largerthanlife

Wow, I don't know where to begin.   I am a 47 yr old wife and mother.   I have four nearly grown sons.   In 1998 I was diagnosed Bipolar 1 with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.   My real issues started when I was a child.   I was sexually abused from a young age until teenage years.   I have ALWAYS used food as a barrier between me an other people.   I was average size for most of my childhood, but began packing on weight after my first son was born in 1983.   When I faced my past in therapy and psyche meds were introduced, I began gaining more and more.   Over the years I have tried weight loss programs and exercise programs and was not able to sustain a loss with any of them.   I am now diabetic and have high blood pressure.   I also have mild sleep apnea.