lawgirlD

I am here because, at 26 yoa, I am a fairly successful Attorney, I feel like I am not taken as seriously, thou part of that might be my age.  I have completed 2 half marathons I play on various sport leagues, yet I am too big and I am tired of being to slow,fat one.   I have had two boyfriends my whole life (neither of which loved me) one who cheated on me and another that I was planning to but I caught it before he could.  I have awesome friends who are love me for who I am, I love them for that, but; the flip side of that is that I have some awesome guy friends, who see me as a "sister" because I am the "coolest" girl in the world but the are not attracted to me.I have tried to Diet, watch what I eat, WW's, everything including changing to no meat, all organic ect.  My problem is that I cannot stop eating cause I am never full its like the part of my brain does not work.  I even sneak and eat food when know one is looking because I know no one else is eating but I am still craving food and i try not to but i just get anxious and irritated that I cant have food, so I give in.  I really hate that about myself.  I am ready to change. I need to for health reasons, becuase I want to run, like run run, I want to be the best on my sports team.....