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Okay Kay......Your butt looks GREAT!!!!!! My butt looks like I have two large spiral hams sitting on my hips!!!!! Not a pretty site at all!!!! Okay the scale thinge..... I really had to give up the scale.....I was weighing like two or three times a day, and then depending on what the scale says ....good or bad.....well, good mood or bad depressed mood if you get my drift. Having my husband hide the scale is the only way I don't go all crazy on the scale thing. Nathalie...I had no idea you were so controversial!!!! What a little rebel you are! lol....I stopped reading the other thread about a week ago....just could not keep up. I have a great mushie recipe....I microwave refried Beans...fat free, then melt some cheese on top and then put fat free sour cream and salsa.....mmmmmm tastes like a burrito.... really yummy and easy. Okay I am going to bed now too....have a great day tomorrow.....

Yeah the kids are in bed!!!! NSV.....I put on a pair of pajamas that I have not been able to wear in about 2 years!!!! That made me feel really good!! Nathalie....potty training is quite the process....but basically the past two days we have been camping out in the play room, (mostly because I have wood floors in there!), and I strip her down from the waist. Her "special" potty is there...and her "special" treats in a bowl. I explained what we were going to do, that the daipers have gone bye bye, and we were not going to use them anymore. If she messed on the floor she cleaned it up, with a little help, and then I told her if you need to go pee or poo you must use your potty. It really only took a couple of accidents, and then she pretty much was using the potty! When they do go on the potty you praise like crazy! We do a potty dance then ceremoniously take the stuff in the bathroom, and she emptys it into the toilet and she flushes, and then we high five and she gets her treat! Tomorrow we go to get pretty princess panties, because she went poo today in her potty! It takes about six weeks for them not to have accidents....so you get those thick underwear that absorbs really well. The most crucial thing is to not go back to daipers because then they know if they keep messing in their pants that they will get their daipers back. My Belle cried twice that she wanted her daipers, and that she could not do the potty, it wasn't fun! I just told her I knew that she could do it, and I was there to help her...rah rah rah....and it is hard for them but they can do it....that is the most important thing to remember.....anyway.....I didn't think this would be so long....I would have emailed you privately....but I don't think I am going to rewrite this!!! I wonder how many calories you burn by typing really fast!!!!! lol

Sweet hot don't worry too much.....I had a french toast episode that sounds exactly like you are feeling. Go back to liquids for the rest of today and maybe tomorrow....the feeling should go away......and probably the problem was not chewing well enough.....the pouch cannot only dialates with repeated over eating....and if your were super stuck it would have come back up!

okay I really didn't want this to post twice.....sorry

Hey everybody this was a good idea.....I got so confused with so many people I kind of gave up! I go in for my first fill on the Tuesday and am very excited! I haven't weighed myself either, so waiting for the doc visit...I am hoping and praying for good news. I ate fudge and fruit cake over the holidays....so don't feel bad bevers, and Steph!!! So many bad habits are not going to go away overnight for sure. Natalie you sound like you are doing so well! I really have to get the excercise thing going....I need to find some outside alternatives since it is freezing and snowing like crazy....but I have such a hard time with indoor activities....any suggestions anybody? Am doing the potty training thing the last couple of days with my two year old.....and I am tired and cranky!!!!! Hope I survive......(she is actually doing better than I expected...but still challenging!) anyway hi to everybody....and hope you all still remember me! Keep me abreast of any changes like the yahoo thing.....sometimes it is hard for me to get the time to post everyday with the little rug rats....but I will do my best!

Hey everybody this was a good idea.....I got so confused with so many people I kind of gave up! I go in for my first fill on the Tuesday and am very excited! I haven't weighed myself either, so waiting for the doc visit...I am hoping and praying for good news. I ate fudge and fruit cake over the holidays....so don't feel bad bevers, and Steph!!! So many bad habits are not going to go away overnight for sure. Natalie you sound like you are doing so well! I really have to get the excercise thing going....I need to find some outside alternatives since it is freezing and snowing like crazy....but I have such a hard time with indoor activities....any suggestions anybody? Am doing the potty training thing the last couple of days with my two year old.....and I am tired and cranky!!!!! Hope I survive......(she is actually doing better than I expected...but still challenging!) anyway hi to everybody....and hope you all still remember me! Keep me abreast of any changes like the yahoo thing.....sometimes it is hard for me to get the time to post everyday with the little rug rats....but I will do my best!

I go in for my first fill january 9th! On Tuesday!!!! Thank goodness.....I really need it...I feel like I could eat just about anything....but I tried bread and that didn't work out so well.....so I guess I can't eat anything...lol....but am looking forward to more restriction, I feel hungry alot. Let us know how your fill went today. I haven't weighed since I had surgery. I sure hope I am in for a good surprise. However I don't want to get my hopes up too much.

glad everyone is doing so well. I keep dreaming about food....last night it was donuts....and I was dreaming several times about thanksgiving dinner, and no one would let me eat!!!!! Okay, I must be feeling deprived. I think I am still losing weight tho....my clothes are looser and feeling better....I don't want to weigh myself until I go to the doctor.....I get too weird with the scale....starts dictating my moods and self esteem...not good. Well, hopefully bandster hell with soon be behind all of us....and we will hit that sweet spot with restriction! Take care....and Happy new Year!

Sandra how was the fill experience?? How much restriction do you have??? I will get my first one on the ninth of Jan. Woo hoo! I had a great Christmas....and I did cheat a little....should still be on mushies.....but had a little homemade fruit cake.....i know most people hate it.....but mmmmmm it was soooooo good!

Sweet hot that is so completely barbaric!!!! Okay all my sterotypes of Germans must be true!!!! lol......anyway hope you heal okay from the staples and won't be too scared....emotionallly or physically!

I am with Elisabeth. You were a witness to the verbal abuse and you should report it.....maybe social services can get this guy some counseling.....as well as the whole family!

You are brave and taking a powerful step in taking control of your life!!! When people were negative to me about the band, and taking the "easy" way out.....I just discussed how I had lost the pounds twice before and put it all back on plus more!!! The band is a tool that is going to help me keep this weight off. Also you do not have to tell anyone that you don't want to. This is a lifestyle change but not such a huge one that people would notice.....just let them think what they want when the pounds start to gradually come off...maybe they will start asking you for diet/excercising advice

I just have to tell everyone that I am so totally proud of myself!!!!!!!!!! After my binge yesterday morning I decided to go on clear liquids again to help my stomach recover.....isopure, water and broth......and I did it! I have never in my life binged and not kept going.....I woke up feeling so powerful like I think I can really do this!!!! I know that this is just one of a series of battles I am going to encounter in this war with food....but like Jack says it is about today, about the choices that I have the power to make!!!! I am not a slave to food! I will not be a slave anymore. This thread really helped me yesterday...so thank you all. ps Jack my two year old really likes your dancing bannanas!

Steph I just read your post and I gotta tell you what happened yesterday....I was too embarrassed to post it here....but did post it on a compulsive eating thread! Anyway, got up with renewed vigor to really stick to the mushies and eat only 4 oz etc etc. So I take my son to school, and it takes us a good 20 minutes with traffic. I stop to get him breakfast at my favorite bakery. I get him his usual crossaint (sp) and got my daughter some of the best french toast I have ever in my life eaten. well, she only wanted a half.....they are two huge thick pieces.....then she just licked the whipped cream off the top anyway....but I decided to eat the other half that she didn't. So I ate slow chewed really well....because I was afraid it might get stuck...it is bread after all, the soft doughy kind! So I felt very satisfied. Not hungry and not stuffed. So I was proud of myself! Still one piece left, and I was not going to touch it....so my son decided he wanted it....great, now I won't even be tempted! When we pulled up to school.....there was 3/4 of the piece left....he was full. So there I sit in front of the school scarfing down this french toast....eating like there is no tomorrow. All the way home I start feeling fuller and fuller and my stomach is hurting. I was just so depressed how could I do this? How could I go through major surgery, and risk everything, for nothing.....so mad at myself. Then I got on this site and started reading about pouch dialation and esophogus problems all from over eating and even some slips can cause this. I was so upset I decided I had to go back on clear liquids to see if I could get my stomach to shrink back and feel better. Thinking I could have really messed up my body did something to me. The rest of the day I did great! Water and isopure and broth for dinner. Honestly I think I was so full of food I did not even feel hungry till I went to bed! It really made me feel powerful that I could bounce back from a binge...usually I would just keep going. I know that I will mess up again....it is so hard to be perfect always.....and making meals for my kids that I don't get to eat really sucks!!!! But the band is around my stomach and not my head....and I am going to have to figure out why I compulsively eat and figure out a way to prevent it! This is going to be a hard journey....but I am sure we can all do it!

Bever.....good luck tomorrow!!!! Wish you all the best you are gonna do great!!!!!

hey lap happy I am with you on the weight loss.....only ten pounds down starting from the pre op diet.....it seems like I stopped losing as soon as I started mushies. It was getting me discouraged so I have put away the stupid scale, and I am going to wait until I go to the doctors office! I just can't risk getting the scale obssession/depression....because I am getting hungry!!!!! Cathy.....I felt like hell.....the shoulder pain and gas pains were the worst....but after a week you really start perking up....just try to take it easy which is hard right before Christmas! Steph.....congrats on the t-shirt.....that is so cool and such a great feeling....I can't wait to feel that way again!!!! Tired of feeling dumpy in my stained huge gray sweats....but I refuse to buy more clothes at this size!!!! Ddee.....good luck at doctor today....hope the scales bring you hope, happiness, and renewed vigor to fight the good fight.....it is hard to lose your best friend...I too am dealing with that and what do I do with myself when the munchies sets in....I think it will get easier the more we resist the more powerful we will feel!

When I got really sick of it all I did apple cider with cinnammon for a treat!

fat free jello???? Apple juice.....anything you can see through you can have for this period.

Thanks Jack.....I am not gonna let it whip me! it sucks tho.....

I am frustrated because I was banded on the eigth of this month and am ALREADY overeating! I cannot believe I even did it. I am sad that I am hungry....and I am afraid that I have stretched out my pouch. I am going back on the full liquid diet for a few days and see if I can get control of myself. I did not go through all this pain and suffering for nothing!!! I refuse to be a slave to food....I just have to find a way to liberate myself!!!

Seet hot.....gas is definitely the worst part of surgery, and I think some of us get it worse than others. One thing that helped me a little is to sit or lie down, put your hands behind your head like you are going to do a sit up, and then deep breathe as much as you can......I hope you do better.....good luck! I sure hope you can go to the recital.

Hey steph, the pain wasn't due to overeating it was in the middle of the night, right where the port is. I will just have to keep an eye on it....and see if I get it anymore and call doc. My hubby is supportive......he works out of town and everytime he calls home he asks me if I have lost weight and if I am eating sweets.......that really bugs me, I don't know why? It kind of makes me feel rebellious like someone is checking up on me or something.....I am going to tell him just not to say anything unless I say something. I can do that, right? I don't want to blow this.....and have this morning after the waffle.....but I am going to do liquids rest of the day to try and make up for it. I really need to find something other than food to nurture my soul!!!! Oh I was going to tell you about the stuck thing...you will know. I have been mildly stuck twice so far....felt like a golf ball was in my chest., but was better after a few minutes. I am sure it will be ten time worse after a good fill. Does anyone have any ideas about non food nurturer (sp)....especially when exhauted and kids have gone to bed.....maybe herbal tea????? I have got to get some better habits!

Hey everybody have not posted in a while my two little ones really keeps me busy. Steph how are you feeling? Are you having any port pain. I had a really bad sharp pain right where the port was last night.....it felt like something was ripping!!!! Not fun. I am not sure if I just moved wrong or what....or picking up my six month old....(she is only 12 pounds though_but anyway just a little sore today, but hope I didn't do someting real bad! I had such a tough night last night.....my baby Rose woke up like four times. I felt so bad for myself, and tired in the morning that I had popped a chocolate in my mouth before I even thought about it.....then I ate a waffle that I had made for my kids!!!! (I only ate 1/2)......but still....where is the protien!!!! I am also feeling bad because as soon as I started to eat mushies/solids my weight loss stalled. I am still at a ten pound loss. I am discouraged....am I going to have to stay on liquids my whole life to be at a healthy weight? I think that we truly do not understand how little food we really need in order to be thin and healthy. I am sad....I think I am a little depressed about it all....and reading the boards a lot of people are emotional after the surgery.........is it the drugs.....or what is going on? I am so tired all the time.....maybe I should just go back to the liquids for a few days to get more protien in ......I am already looking forward to my first fill....Jan 9th!!!!!!! Beversman.....about your family and the easy way out......nothing about the band is easy.....remind them about that.....and would they like to see you sustain the weightloss????? My mother in law was like that.....well why can't you just diet now....and then I tell her I have lost over a hundred pounds twice and always manage to gain it back and I never want that to happen again. Remind them that does it really matter what you do as long as you get healthy???? Would they like to have you around for a long time living without pain, or diabetes or heart problems???? If they persist....just ignore....not worth the negativity....but man sure is annoying and a bummer.....but I bet once you start losing real good and see it stays off they will get more supportive! Hope all the recent bandsters are doing well.....the gas problem is painful....but does resolve itself after about a week!

Hi steph.....I am feeling much better, everyday seems a little easier, but I had a horrific headache yesterday. I got to start mushies to day and I think that is really helping my energy level! I was so darned excited last night thinking I could have oatmeal in the morning I had a hard time sleeping!!!!! I have had like a weird feeling after I have eaten food that need to be chewed like it is a ball sitting in my chest, not for very long....it goes away.....but a little uncomfortable.....maybe not chewing enough.....let me know how you do when you start food! Takes me a little while to respond sometimes....Time thing but I will try to check in more often! Take care

Natalie in Michigan....Good luck.....it is very exciting going in for the surgery...I am sure you will do wonderful!!!!