kelking

I am supposed to start the pre-op diet on Wednesday, but I am going to start tomorrow. That gives me 2 days to adjust instead of going cold turkey. I have not been overly cautious the past few days. As a matter of fact, I have been enjoying some things that I haven't had in a while. I don't want to call it my "Last Supper" or whatever other names it goes by, but I took my daughter school shopping and we went to an all you can eat buffet for lunch. I know it was the wrong choice. I went for a 2nd plate and I had 2 cookies. Tonight I am making a skillet brownie. Another bad decision. I just don't see myself as being able to ever eat these things again. I think I want this to be my "closure" if that makes any sense. Like a farewell to these things that have been so dear to me. Gosh I sound nuts. I wish food wasn't my friend.