sweetpeetee

I had never had a surgery done so I was afraid,I really didn't know what to expect.All I knew was I could not stop eating.I hated being heavy but I loved food and the way it made me feel.I had my surgery April 20th.I had no choice,diet's didn't work for me anymore.After my last diet and losing 20 pound's I gained that and 15 more.I was now over 300 pound's and in a food frenzy.I have lost 30 pound;s so far but it has not been easy,as a matter of fact I woke up depressed and shed a few tear's today.I go through emotional low's since my surgery.I am working with a thearpist because of my relationship with food.I guess when I got a surgery to lose weight I expected it just to fall off.It take's constant mental work for me.I just lost the extra weight I gained from the diet and 15 plus so now I feel like I am getting somewhere.But I have day's where I feel like I have a intruder in me and day's where I feel angry I let this happen to me{gaining all this weight}I am also a all or nothing person so it make's thing's difficult.I just no if I didn't have my Lap Band I would have already been back to eating after reality set in.I I just need to give everything ,including myself,a chance.