buttonsmommy

I've been considering surgery for almost 5 years now. Twice I started the process but decided I should be able to do it on my own.  I've had 2 knee replacements and one revision. I need hip replacement but dr. will not operate until I get at least under 40bmi.  These last 2 years I've experienced continued decreased ability and energy to just do life. Can't believe it's taken me 5 years to come to this final decision, but I've beendependent on food for 50 years of my life as my go-to self-medication for anxiety, depression, anger, etc. The quality of the rest of whatever my length of life on earth is going to be is very much in my control (not totally, but very much).  I want to be healthy, I want to lose weight, I want to do things that have slowly slipped away from my life because of my weight and pain.    I am not only an emotional eater, I self-medicate with food. This started in high school (mid to late 60s) and continues to this day. But I have hope, that with my surgeon, the nutritionist, my  counselor, and some close friends, and my faith, I will be able to overcome this lifelong pattern. I have finally decided on gastric bypass. I'd hoped for the sleeve but I have an extremely large hiatal hernia and my surgeon, whom I trust, believes the hernia, even if he can fully repair it, will cause me greater heartburn than I already have. I look forward to learning from all of you here -- I've looked at many of you already and been very encouraged.