asteenho

I don't even know where to begin.  I've been overweight, or morbidly obese, since the second grade.  My mom thought it was something that would be cured with puberty, but instead it was steady incline.  I've been addicted to food since I can remember.  I have three older brothers, of whom all are overweight.  We come from a "big boned" family.  My mom is the only petite one.  My dad wasn't morbidly obese, but he definitely had a gut, and also had high blood pressure and high cholesterol.  He had is first heart attack at the age of 39, and died from his second at the age of 47.   He died when I was 17.  I always knew how bad it was to be overweight, but I just recently began to understand it.  I'm a nurse, and have learned the cons and health problems of being overweight, but more than that I feel out of place in my own body.  I want to be more active, but tire easily.  I shouldn't feel these knee pains and hip pains at 25.  I want to be in shape.  More than that, I've wanted to be healthy.  I don't want the same story that my dad has.  I want to be with my kids, when I have them someday.  I see the lap band as a tool that will help me achieve my weight goal.  It will help me eat an appropriate size and help me not eat when I'm not hungry.  I'm hoping it will help me feel more comfortable in my own skin.  I want to be active and have energy, and am excited to see how the lap band will help aid me.