poohhoneybear6

It all started after I had my second baby. I gained lots of weight while i was pregnant I gained 60 pounds and could not drop the weight after I had my daughter. I was also on depo shot for 9 months by the time i had got off of that stuff I had weighed 180 pounds. I could not lose the weight when i married my husband i got down to 175 in 2000. I really never could get back down. By this time i had three children after I married my husband I had three more children one in 2002 , 2004, and 2006 so I gained weight after each child and now I am up too 264 pounds and here it is in the year of 2010 I am so sick and tired of being over weight and and tired of being tired. I can not play with my kids I get out of breath. I went to knotts berry farm with my children and had to get off of a ride because i was too big i wanted to cry i felt so bad. I have such a hard time exercising. I want to feel good and look good and be proud of the way i look and feel about me. I have to say I have been very depressed and unhappy with me. I want my family to be proud to go places with me and say yea thats my mom and she looks good.  I want to put on a sexy bathing suite and like the way i look in it. I do not want to die early like my mother did. I am very sad by that and i do not want to be the same way. I want to change it and be so healthy and for my kids to be healthy.