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It's now in the hands of my insurance company. There's not much more that I can do to hurry the process along. I hope that can get scheduled quickly. Another lady (who just got banded) in my office told me that when she called our insurance company she found out that the usual response time is 48 hours. I hope that it's true!

It's now in the hands of my insurance company. There's not much more that I can do to hurry the process along. I hope that can get scheduled quickly. Another lady (who just got banded) in my office told me that when she called our insurance company she found out that the usual response time is 48 hours. I hope that it's true!

Okay, tonight I said my good-bye to PIE! :Bunny It was warm blueberry with whipped cream. I am satisfied that pie is no longer a regular part of my life. :cheer2: I am travelling for business right now (in MN). Pretty cold up here.

The pie went in my belly!

Saturday night I ate at Buca di Beppo.....Do you have any IDEA what that place is like??? :hungry: :hungry: :hungry: I was pretty good (compared to my normal self). I will be glad to get home. The best thing about this business trip is that I got to see snow.

Well, I am going to confess (even if I'm the Lone Ranger here). I was a "Mean Girl" (like the movie) in high school. I was very fit, very curvy and very endowed. The boys chased me and the girls wanted to be me. That may sound conceited to some of you but that's how it was... Fast forward a couple of years from high school to a very tough pregnancy. I lost over 20 lbs in the first four months of pregnancy and the doctors were extremely concerned. I was put on a 4000 calorie per day diet. Do you know how hard it is to consume 4000 calories per day when you only weight 120 lbs? Well, as time went on it became easier. In fact, I was on that 4000 calorie diet until about 5 years ago. My child is now 16 years old - YIKES!!!! The weight is stuck and this led me to the lap band decision. Yes, I was mean. Yes, I was judgemental. Yes, I made fun of everyone. Yes, I'm now fat. And yes, I feel horrible about all of those things. I am moving forward and I will not (can't) continue to punish myself because of things I said and did as a kid. I deserve a fresh start because everyone does - at least once.

1. What is your occupation? Director of Marketing, Mom 2. What color are your socks right now? Navy blue paisley 3. What are you listening to right now? The news 4. What was the last thing that you ate? Pizza (veggie) 5. Can you drive a stick shift? YES!! I have a CDL (that means I can drive a "big rig" - which I did for a while) 6. Favorite Color: Pink (pink phone, pink purse, pink briefcase, pink gloves-the list goes on and on...):cheer2: 7. Music Preference: 80's - Love it! Fav Band - Cheap Trick 8. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Bob 9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? She seems nice on the internet. 10. What song do you want played at your funeral? No funeral. Have a disco party in my honor. 11. Favorite drink? Pineapple juice and coconut rum 12. What is your favorite sport to watch? Hockey 13. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes. 14. Do you wear contacts or glasses? Nope 15. Pets? My darling Midibaby (3 lb poodle) 16. What will you stay home to watch? Grey's Anatomy - can't get enough of McDreamy 17. What is the best movie you have seen? Pretty in Pink (do you see a theme here?) 18. What is your favorite day of the year? the day after Thanksgiving - It's the beginning of Christmas 19. What do you do to vent your anger? Yell, clean, rearrange furniture, sulk 20. What was your favorite toy as a child? Board games 21. Fall or spring? Fall 22. Hugs or kisses? Hugs - cause everbody's good at it. 23. Vanilla or Chocolate? chocolate - it this really a question? 24. Do you want your friends to email you back?? Yes 25. Who is most likely to respond? Cha Cha 26. Who is least likely to respond? Wally 27. Living arrangements? My house in Dallas, TX (suburb) 28. When was the last time you cried? Yesterday - reading a book (I'm such a sap!) 29. What is on the floor of your closet? Carpet 30. Who is the friend you have had the longest? ChaCha 31. What did you do last night? Read in my hotel room. 32. Favorite smell(s)? Yankee Candle "Lemon Zest" and my husband's neck 33. What inspires you? Success of others, my son, my husband and my friends 34. What are you afraid of? Snakes 35. Favorite food? Italian 36. Favorite car? Lexus RX Hybrid 38. Least favorite person right now? Coworker - SH (he know's who he is) 39. How many years at your current job? 12 40. Favorite day of the week? Monday 41. Where you WANT to live? St Thomas - we are looking.

Saturday night I ate at Buca di Beppo.....Do you have any IDEA what that place is like??? :hungry: :hungry: :hungry: I was pretty good (compared to my normal self). I will be glad to get home. The best thing about this business trip is that I got to see snow.

You can do it, ChaCha!!!

I can totally relate! Yesterday I had my pyschological evaluation (required by my insurance). One of the questions that was asked was, "Why now? What was the tipping point for you?" My answer sounds very much like where you are coming from... I had a very tough time admitting to myself that I needed help. I am a very controlling person. Admitting that I have no control in this area of my life has been very tough for me. In addition to finally admitting that I need help, I also had to face the fact that I have reached a point where this is severe enough for surgical intervention. I have never had surgery for anything. I felt extremely weak during the period when I made my decision. I have to say that making a decision and moving forward has been the very best thing for me. I am no longer punishing myself for getting into this situation. I am taking control and moving forward. I am excited about getting my surgery date and starting the next phase to a brand new me. I also find myself less interested in food.

I am currently a size 20 and my goal is to be a size 8.

Okay, tonight I said my good-bye to PIE! :Bunny It was warm blueberry with whipped cream. I am satisfied that pie is no longer a regular part of my life. :cheer2: I am travelling for business right now (in MN). Pretty cold up here.

Yesterday's visit to the psychiatrist went well. Some of the questions made me think and some made me laugh. Follow up and nutrition is next Wednesday. Then I am all set. I'll just need the date - we are shooting for the week after Thanksgiving. I am sure that the liquid diet is rapidly approaching.

Yesterday's visit to the psychiatrist went well. Some of the questions made me think and some made me laugh. Follow up and nutrition is next Wednesday. Then I am all set. I'll just need the date - we are shooting for the week after Thanksgiving. I am sure that the liquid diet is rapidly approaching.

Also a binge eater. I have finally determined that I eat to feel ... NOTHING! food is my anesthesia. I feel no pain, anxiety, fear, remorse or happiness. I eat to feel emotionless. It's so crazy because I don't even taste food anymore. I have always said, "oh, I just love food." It's not true. If I did love it, I would savor it more. I would go to places where the food is actually good. Instead, I opt for quantity - large portions and lot's of variety. I am looking forward to the band so that I can have a little extra help controlling my self medication. :hungry:

I LOOOOOVVVVVEEEEDDDD Dr. Jay's staff. :kiss2: :kiss2: Dr. Cha is the best. She is funny and sincere. I feel completely comfortable with this doctor helping me on this great adventure to a brand new me. I got my bloodwork completed, my medical records released and my pysch eval is scheduled for Wednesday. I am pumped. I agree with my BF - once you decide it has to be NOW! I love my Cha Cha! :scared: We will be beautiful (we are now but just more) and live as BF until we are very, very old (and skinny). I am scared of surgery but I will not let my fear keep me from having the life and body that I want. The part that really freaks me out is the thought of having a tube down my throat. It's a small price to pay for the chance to feel confident, successful and in control of my life.:clap2:

I LOOOOOVVVVVEEEEDDDD Dr. Jay's staff. :kiss2: :kiss2: Dr. Cha is the best. She is funny and sincere. I feel completely comfortable with this doctor helping me on this great adventure to a brand new me. I got my bloodwork completed, my medical records released and my pysch eval is scheduled for Wednesday. I am pumped. I agree with my BF - once you decide it has to be NOW! I love my Cha Cha! We will be beautiful (we are now but just more) and live as BF until we are very, very old (and skinny).:mad: I am scared of surgery but I will not let my fear keep me from having the life and body that I want. The part that really freaks me out is the thought of having a tube down my throat. It's a small price to pay for the chance to feel confident, successful and in control of my life.:clap2:

I won't have to hold my breath to tie my shoes.:faint: My pants won't roll down my belly - making me completely paranoid that my fat is exposed!!!:scared: I will be able to shop for clothes at any store in the mall. I will be able to wear cordurory without fear of my thighs starting a friction fire! :biggrin1: I will be able to fly without "oozing" into the seats of my fellow passengers. I will be able to sit down at the movies and my hips won't touch the sides of the seat. I will break free of the cycle of self loathing and emotional eating and will be able to view my self as an attractive human being again .

I had my first appointment last Wednesday. It was a disappointment. I won't mention the doctor's name because there are many people in this forum that have had good experiences with him. Actually, I didn't see the doctor. I went to his appointed lab to begin medical clearance. I think the lab is a scam. I am 36 years old, 5'8" and weigh 250lbs. My medical problems beyond obesity are almost non-existent. I have very strong family history to indicate that it is only a matter of time until I do have medical problems. For me, this is a preventative measure. I have good insurance with no exclusions. Several women in my office have had gastric bypass or lap band. None of those women used this doctor. Back to the lab... After a very brief examination, the testing that would be required was pysch eval (standard for my insurance), stress test (how could the necessity of that be determined without so much as an EKG??) and sleep study. :scared: The sleep study confused me the most. I questioned the PA about it. I didn't believe that this would be covered by my insurance (long story on my husband who had multiple sleep studies before having the sleep apnea surgery). She flipped through my chart and said "oh yes, your insurance will cover it". That made me feel strange! I'm not stupid. The doctor has financial interest in the lab. The lab does all of the medical testing and is, incidentally, a sleep disorder clinic. Yeah, right! I hope my Monday appointment with Dr. Jay goes much better. I did verify that he doesn't own a lab before making my appointment.

I had my first appointment last Wednesday. It was a disappointment. I won't mention the doctor's name because there are many people in this forum that have had good experiences with him. Actually, I didn't see the doctor. I went to his appointed lab to begin medical clearance. I think the lab is a scam. I am 36 years old, 5'8" and weigh 250lbs. My medical problems beyond obesity are almost non-existent. I have very strong family history to indicate that it is only a matter of time until I do have medical problems. For me, this is a preventative measure. I have good insurance with no exclusions. Several women in my office have had gastric bypass or lap band. None of those women used this doctor. Back to the lab... After a very brief examination, the testing that would be required was pysch eval (standard for my insurance), stress test (how could the necessity of that be determined without so much as an EKG??) and sleep study. The sleep study confused me the most. I questioned the PA about it. I didn't believe that this would be covered by my insurance (long story on my husband who had multiple sleep studies before having the sleep apnea surgery). She flipped through my chart and said "oh yes, your insurance will cover it". That made me feel strange! I'm not stupid. The doctor has financial interest in the lab. The lab does all of the medical testing and is, incidentally, a sleep disorder clinic. Yeah, right! I hope my Monday appointment with Dr. Jay goes much better. I did verify that he doesn't own a lab before making my appointment. :mad:

I won't have to hold my breath to tie my shoes.:faint: My pants won't roll down my belly - making me completely paranoid that my fat is exposed!!! I will be able to shop for clothes at any store in the mall. I will be able to wear cordurory without fear of my thighs starting a friction fire! :biggrin1: I will be able to fly without "oozing" into the seats of my fellow passengers. I will be able to sit down at the movies and my hips won't touch the sides of the seat. I will break free of the cycle of self loathing and emotional eating and will be able to view my self as an attractive human being again .:mad: