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OMG momma's! just saw the yahoo photos! Bannannie! you look amazing! great job girl! Put that hot mamma in YOUR little hot car and i can totally see why you are stopping traffic. I put the two pics from the mirror up next to each other. The change is dramatic girl! i am so impressed with what you've accomplished! Nat! WOW :cool: I can totally see the difference in you arms... your BACK especially... look at the change in your posture! That booty is still fabulous even though it is TOTALLY shrinking... it is gonna still be a damn nice one even at goal! i am totally jealous of THAT. You are such a tinier version of the first picture!! Oh, and that baby boy of yours is just as cute as a button too! congrats girl. You are kicking asses and taking names! Steph! WOW girl... BIG change since the last pics! You are shrinking away too! I am so impressed! I see why you are fitting into the girls clothes. you look years younger too! I can't believe the difference. You can totally see the effort you are putting in. Booboo - my work server won't let me see your pics yet. So, i will comment on them when i get home. I am totally wanting to see what they look like though!

Aww, sweethot & nat & transformer thank you girls for the compliments :cool: but underneath all of my clothing is some interesting "stuff" -- I don't think I qualify for skinny biznitch any time soon. Maybe I should get brave and post some pics on yahoo in a bathing suit or something. Then, you all will know what Im talking about. I am not crazy I swear. It is still all there and it still looks horrible. I still have a big hanging tummy -- my inner things wibble and wobble... my arms and back still have fat there. My butt... well, i have no butt! ha. TRUST me... I just cover it all up very well. I still have a good layer all over that can come off. No "crazy head" here. It is definitely still hangin on me. I joke about the "size 4 pants" -- They are NOT REALLY a size 4... (except on the tag) No freakin' way. I am an 8 or a 10 depending on the pants. I wear large and medium tops now. I think Nat asked that. My top half has always been the problem. I looked like a damn linebacker! my shape was an upside down triangle. A great shape if your in the NFL... not so much on a young woman. ha. ----------------- ok, confession... ive been doing awesome the last week. Even lost a couple of lbs (according to the home scale) BUT on sunday, we went out to this amish town to shop. So, I'd been so good all day that I decided I would have ice cream cone with the family. No big deal right? Well, it shouldn't have been. BUT I went to my parents and they had those Reece's Penut Butter Pumpkin things... Ugh. Well, I ate one... then, i ended up eating 3 more of them before the day was over. Cute huh? just goes to show how much of this whole experience has REALLY been my willpower and not the band. i could have been doing that all along if it wasn't for my own will not to. It is almost that time of the month. I would love to blame the craving on that, but it was just me pigging out on something that tasted like freakin' heaven. Oh well, I am going to go back to being good today BUT damn I don't even want to try to enter all of that into fitday. I am liable to have a heart attack when I see how many calories I consumed. I haven't had a day like that EVER. I sure hope one day can't hurt you that much. I ate like a whale. All liquids that went right down... but I ate the hell out of them. Ugh :faint: ------------------- ok, off to check out the new yahoo pics! kick my ass for me ladies... God knows I am kicking my own today. I will have to jump on that elliptical for 2 hours tonight. or make that 3 hours... damn reece's cups! you are the DEVIL

thanks for the encouragement ladies... its been almost 3 months since I lost a damn thing. I did my same work out tonight... weights, ab works... walked a mile -- 30 min on the elliptical. UGH - im tired. it is almost 2am... must go to bed. thanks again you guys. only 30 or 40 more lbs to go!

Good luck! Dont be scared... just VERY excited! My band was the best thing that I've ever done for myself. I was a self-pay too. I will be paying my "friend" off for the next 5 years. BUT I don't regret it from one single second. My highest weight ever was 287 - I am at 177 right now! Had the sugery last December. So... 9 months? NOT too shabby. Could never have done it without the help from my band. Jump in with both feet. go all the way with it. get up and moving as soon as possible after surgery and you will be up and at them in no time at all. good luck to you and CONGRATULATIONS on the new, wonderful life!

Here are my updates... i hadn't done any in months... wish my scale would move. IT has been stuck for 2 months. I just keep sticking with it. I get so much inspiration from all of you. You look so amazing! The first pic is from July 1, 2007 and then the comparison is October 8, 2007

Legal troubles: no new news. UGH! and grrrr Tonight: 15 minute jog - 1 mile 15 - 20 minutes weight lifting and crunches 2 sets of lungs (20) reps 2 sets of squats (trying to grow a booty) 30 minutes on the elliptical calories for the day - just under 1000 Got some new pictures... so here ya all go. I wore the size 4's for you ladies I am so trying to get my scale moving the bastard is still stuck and mocking me. So, happy for all of you plastic surgery mamma's! Cant wait for my "someday" Vaband - girl, love ya. we are so much alike - ha! that job is coming girl. So glad you came back to say hello. Ive been worried about ya! Jillrn - welcome back! Kaydot! hello! Nat! so glad you're back to posting...you elliptical crazy bitch! hehe

my hiar fell out majorly in months 5,6 slowed down in 7, 8... this is my 9th month and it is falling out again. I eat well over 100 grams of Protein. I hear that zinc is also important to prevent the hair loss. My Dr. office suggests Botin... a supplement. I met a lap band patient last night who swears by it. Said it stopped her hair loss! BUT I havent tried it. I had plenty to start with though... so it isnt very noticable. Except for all of the shedding EVERYWHERE

They are disabled?? that IS strange. I always watch for her too. I sure hope she is ok. I haven't seen her on here lately either which is odd. She is usually on everyday. She has been my inspiration on LBT as well.

NAT!!!!! welcome back girlie girl! We've missed you! 'bout time you got back in here. we were going to have to send out a search party. at work, will try to write me later... just wanted to say HELLO - and give you some hell... haha Claud -- hey honey! have fun as disneyland. Steph -- Kudos on the extra cleavage... hehe -- your daughters are gonna lock you up. Mommy isn't suppsed to look like THAT... haha -- show 'em what you've got girl. Now, where did that Bannannie go? wasnt she on vacation for a few weeks or something?

Nikki! Where did your photos go? i finally got my yahoo to work and there arent any pics in your photo album! You better repost them or I am gonna kick ur butt! Sweethot! I love your pics girlie girl! The kids are so sweet I have not been able to find my "sweet spot" for months now either. I keep getting fills and I will have restriction in the morning, but in the evening.... I am like a ravenous beast. I want to get more fill, but I am at 3.2 (in a 4.0) right now... now i have myself scared that something has stretched. but I dont think I would feel the morning restriction if that was the case. (sigh) We will find that "spot" someday soon! kaydot - WOW! I see what you mean by "eye opening" you are a shadow of that former self! way to go! You don't even look like the same person girl. I am so proud of you! As far as compliments go, i do the same thing you do. I feel uncomfortable accepting them, but i try to do it just to be polite... blow it off and move on (ha) funny how we try to down play it with others... but i do the same thing. Booboo - Hope the new dress turned some heads... I am too shy to try anything to sexy and brave just yet. I have a ways to go before I try leporard print anything. nathalie! You aren't foolin me mamma! I saw you sneaking around on here yesterday! We love you and miss you. Come back and visit. We want to know how our nat is doing. Maurdan - thanks for the kind words. I certainly don't think of myself as inspiring. especially the last few months. I've been spinning my wheels big time. I think all of you are VERY inspriational. You are what keeps me going on this crazy path I;ve chose. I wish my real life was smoother too. i am trying to just suck this up and move on (again). It has been a really long rough week. I've just been going home and going to bed. No exercise. i need to get moving. Ive been so bad about doing anything lately. I've literally been laying in bed all the time. not good. Ive got to get out and get moving... Ive just been too distracted and down lately. Steph - OMG! Congrats on the 10's!! I bet that feels damn good! i remember when you didn't think you were going to get into a 10 at all. and here you are! It snuck right up on ya! hows those last few days of work comin?? hope all is well over there girl :-) bandiva - honey, you are doing so great! Im so proud of you. so glad to see you back on here again. Can't wait til i get my fill right again. I haven;t been able to get it to feel the way it did in the beginning for months and months. I am going to call my doc again soon and see what he suggests.

CTRL print screen - open and paste in paint and save the pic as a JPEG Least thats how I did it.

I have 3.2 in a 4.0 band... have "ok" restriction. Been eating crap for the past few days though. By the way... peanut butter... does NOT work for me. OMG, some of the worse sliming ever, and it would NOT come back up. It was literally stuck down in there and not moving till it disolved. You can NOT make it come up once you've got it down there. Trust me. BAD BAD BAD idea... who would have thought? shouldn't have been eating it anyway. and i WONT be eating it again anytime soon. lesson learned! thanks my band. ------------------------ I hired my lawyer that i've used before - he is from Indianapolis. He was furious when he found out what happened. The deal is: He told me that ANY prosecutor can do that. They can change the charge and officer gives you on ANY ticket. Most people dont know that because prosecutors NEVER do it. They should not have that much time on their hands. This prosecutor literally had to go through the stack of tickets by hand and look up each individual address in order to find ones that were within the zone he wanted - then, spent the day changing the charges. My lawyer told me he was going to "throw those country hicks up against the wall." THAT is my kind of lawyer. However, It will cost me from $1000 - $2000 depending on what all he has to do to accomplish this. But he believes he will get it wiped off my record completely. He is doing to demand an all-out Jury Trail and THAT would cost the county $20,000+ tax payer dollars (and they HAVE to give me one if I request it). So, basically he is going to threaten and scare the crap out of the idiots and make them remember not to mess with people like this in the future. It is wrong. Most prosectuors have better things to do... like solve real crimes like murder, rape, and burglary. This guy spent the afternoon being a money hungery ass hole. Idiot prosecutor. So, Brandi is out some serious money... all for breaking the speed limit. I am going to be a mess til it is over - but figured I would give you all the update. I HATE drama. and YET it follows me whereever I go. GGrrrr

I have a fear of being left behind... or abandoned by those around me. If I allow it to happen, it can even lead to serious anxiety attacks. Generally, though I keep my wits about me and just feel ill. Ironically enough... is a big reason I'd rather be by myself. The actual fear isn't of being alone... just of being left or abandoned. I don;t have that fear when there is no one around to leave me. Mine is somewhat rational however... but obviously, still somewhat irrational. ------------------- Also, a fear of deep Water... not seeing what is below me when i am in it. I imagine the most grotesque things lurking beneath me. Again, I can control it sometimes. But not always.

Quote: Originally Posted by Boo Boo Kitty Brandi--where are you at? DO you know if you have a pre paid legal representative in your area? It is like $16 a month and girl they will go to court for you for FREE as long as you weren't drunk driving. I have used them MANY MANY times, they work great! TRUST ME! Want me to find you one? They can take on this case now and it will cost you no more than the $16 or so a month! NO JOKE! You get a real attorney! Booboo - if you can find something like that here, it would be awesome. BUT I have my doubts that it is around here -- I've called 7 attorneys this morning, and can't even find one that i would PAY who will represent me in the county which i am charged. They all flat out said no. becuase they wouldnt travel that far...(??) I can use all the help I can get. I will PM you my exact location and see if you cant find anything. :-) I am (as usual) on my own down here.

ok ladies... you know how I have the worst luck. well, the speeding ticket that I got... apparently the prosecutors office has picked it up and is trying to charge me with Reckless Driving! up to $1000 fine and max of 8 years in jail... um, yes, I said JAIL. for speeding. I sent in my payment and THANK GOD copied my ticket I recieved. This is NOT what the policeman marked on the ticket and is NOT what he told me to pay or how this would be handled. Now, I don't know what to do. I've been trying to get ahold of lawyers all morning. My life is one bad thing after the next... it never ends. I paid the damn speeding ticket the monday after I recieved it. Was that enough? no. now... they want to take me to court for something the policeofficer didn't even charge me for!?!? how does that work? i hate my life. I ate crap all weekend... I didnt get off the couch. I don't want to be at work. I can't concentrate. Is life ever going to give me a break? I never leave my house and the one weekend that i do.... I honestly hate my life. None of you happen to be lawyers do you? (sigh) Pray for me. --Brandi

Nikki - thank you so much, im just being a silly cow... haha I tend to do that from time to time. thank you for saying such nice things. you ARE right. we have all come a long way. We've lost soooo much. I just hate that my head doesn;t always see that. I've just had a couple weeks where it feels like I did it for nothing. I know that isn't true, but lonely me think so. Wish you were a hit man... you're acutally in the right country to do something about my ex who ran away. I hate NOT being over him. No matter how far i come he is still right there. I can't get away from his memory no matter how far I;ve come. he is always there. i will keep at it though. even when i am down, and i will always be here if you need a pick me up or someone to talk to! We have a band-baby on the way! our first one, steadies!! We have to stick together and get him/her here safely! dont worry about the unfill. you will be fine girl. Just remember what you've learned about eating :-) thanks again everyone for the kind words. i know you are all right. i just hate doing this alone. just a new friend to share it with would be enough. i am just very lonely here thank you all for being here for me online. you are all that i've got my steadies (new and old). love you all!

Oh yeah, good taste DerrickM minus the naked women... guess I wouldnt mind them being around, but I don't think I will have that problem to worry about in Alaska either. Unless there are some freaky B$tches up north! haha -- My odds are pretty good with the guys up that way 9so i hear) I might have to join myself up in that PolarBear club!

Again, good taste.... there will be at least one more female living in Alaska someday. THAT would be me! I would say that in about 5 years. I will be heading that direction. Hopefully, my glaciers won't be gone by then. Thanks alot energy consuming... globe warming bastards of a human race.

HAHA, I think we were seperated at birth.... my twin brother lives in Oregon! and his name is derrick!

Well, I was clickin' through as saw my name! Well, thanks DerickM :-) Didn't think I was all that interesting... haha. You made me feel all warm and fuzzy for the day...hehe :heh: thanks! I would love to meet ALL of my steadies (most of us have been together on here since last December - but there are quite a few to name them all)!! Other people I'd like to meet: JusLosinMe (luv this girl), DerickM, Jack, Neal, Jachut so, many more too!

Vaband - Brandi is NOT back on track... i am trying... trying hard... BUT it isn't working. BUT I have to admit... I dont think i am anywhere close. I've only lost 15 pounds in the past 2.5 months. It is ridiculous. I've been low carbing it till yesterday and decided to eat some of the low calorie medifast meals that I had from pre-op. They have 15 carbs in each one. So, is low calorie best... or low carb and a bit more calories. I can't F$ing tell! I am frustrated and pissed off and don't understand how I can exercise like I do... eat 800-1000 calories and lose NOTHING!? WTF? If that sounds like "on track" -- haha -- I'm in trouble. So don't worry VaBand. your not the only one. I've been struggling for months. It sucks. I only lost 4 lbs since July 31st. WITH 15 miles a day of biking and low carbs... I thought physically I would have HAD to have lost something. I hate this shit some days... i really do. ------------------------ hang in there with the job girl. I know how that can reek havoc on the mind and the body - when you are worrying about something like that. I' ll have you in my thoughts and prayers girl!

Aww steph... sorry insurance isn't going to cover it girl... :-) I know how that feels. If you want it bad enough though, you will find a way to make it happen. That's the only way I got the surgery to begin with. It sucks that they don't feel things like this are necessary. They need to walk in our shoes for awhile. But on the bright side... your husband sounds amazing. You are lucky to have him and so very lucky that he stayed around to work things out. It must be an amazing feelings to have someone with that kind of love and support there with you through this whole thing. Every step of the way I know that no matter how much weight I lose... I lost THAT love and support a year ago and it isn't coming back. You can't find a surgery to fix THAT when it is broken. He stayed by your side and you both made it through. So, relax girl and enjoy what you've worked so hard on all of these years. You deserve it. A supporting hubby and happy life :-) --------------------------------------- You know ladies, I wouldn't change what Ive done... getting my band -- but I certainly think it would be a bit sweeter if i had someone to share my journey with. A friend, a family member... anyone. It is kind of like finally solving a puzzle after hours of wracking your brain.... turning around to scream and yell @ your triumph -- only to discover YOU are the only one in the room. Celebrating seems kind of pointless when there is no one else to witness your accomplishments. I really thought losing all of this weight was going to make me happy. I am a bit happier. True. But not what I pictured. Weightloss just made me realize that the weight really wasn't the REAL problem at all. It was just the excuse I used for "why" things went wrong or "why" things weren't the way I wanted them to be. Truth is... other than me feeling better physically... it hasn't fixed or changed anything at all. It is all still exactly as it was before. That's what I get for thinking I could change 'myself' enough to change my 'situation' -- apparently, it doesn't work that way.

Ugh, I got pulled over too.... I was NOT so lucky. Apparently I was 40 feet inside a construction zone... so although I was going what was normally the speed limit... (and although I hadn't even gotten to a point where there was ANY construction being done OR any orange barrels....) it was STILL considered a work zone. that EQUALS a $141.50 speeding ticket. So, now I can't pay some of my bills that I should be paying this week. Rest of the weekend was ok. Went to see my best friend Eric. He has a huge show he was playing in Indianapolis. Was playing with 25 other national acts... big names in the professional "metal" scene. I met some incredible people and hung out with some wonderful musicians that whole day. I met some nice guys... had a man who is in the marine corps who called me today. He is shipping out to Cali tomorrow for three months. He wanted to say good bye. We'd hung out for quite a few hours Saturday afternoon. I lost track of him later that evening though. ha. that figures.! doesn't it? He was an angel. Had lost 85 lbs recently himself. (when he went in for the Corps). We had a ton in common. (not to mention he was gorgeous and very funny. He is going to make a nice friend. Which is what I am looking for right now... new friends that understand me a bit better. Too bad he is going to be on the other side of the country.... Viva la internet and cell phone... ha Boo== so sorry about the car... happy you are ok! let us know what happens. Nikki. glad your baby is doing well! dont worry about the weight... just make sure you have a healthy happy pregnancy... all will work out. my tummy looks like ive carried 5 babies and i havent had a one. :-) hope the home life is going better. so happy to hear from you! BKwall - NEW house?? congrats! hope you are doing ok... and holding up well with the other situation. so happy for you with the weightloss too!! great job honey!

Hey Claud... im ok :-) thank you for checking on me though. I've been doing a lot of thinking about heading out to California though. So, how knows, I may end up at one of your parties someday in the future! I have dreams like that too a lot -- I never know what they mean at the time, but they always end up making sense later. Ive been known to get up in the middle of the night to call people just to make sure they were ok. I did laundry and cleaned all night... went to my grandma's to watch survivor. I havent exercised yet today... UGH! I need to go to bed though. I have to be up early it is already 12:30am here. I dont have enough hours in the day :-) I still haven't got my bike fixed up with the new seat. My grandma has been in and out of the hosptial for the last week and with all of the running to take care of her... it has left little time for anything extra. Ive been on the elliptical though. I just miss riding.

OK, say what? :car: You have every Simon and Garfunkel album on vinyl? [gets down on one knee] Will you marry me?? hahahaha I've even seen them live. They are my favorite musicians. I have a severe soft spot for them. OK, well let me give you a bit more of what Brandi has in the old playlist today. This will be the other side of the spectrum. We will see just how many musicians...you know. I am pretty freakin impressed so far. But beware... I can name musicians all night! My latest find... is a black-metal band from Sweden called Eluveitie. They have a guy that plays the bag-pipes... Freakin' awesome. It is classified as "folk" "ethnic" heavy (or black) metal... I am 1 part classical performance arts, 1 part hippie... and 1 part mosh pit...on the rocks. (shaken not stirred) You will see that with this list. Opiate, Disturbed, Stone Sour, Hurt, Shadows Fall, Celtic Frost, Viviod, Lacuna Coil, Slipknot, Kittie, Eluveitie, In flames, Nothing Face, Cradle of Filth, OTEP, Anah Aevia, Three Days Grace, Breaking Benjamin, Chevelle, Phish, The Grateful Dead, String cheese, Pink Floyd, The Who, Jimi Hendrix, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Rusted Root, In Flames, A Perfect Circle, propagandhi, rancid, Hurt, from autumn to ashes, the used, strung out, coheed and cambria, atreyu, joan jett, circle jerks, black sabbath, elvis presley, misfits, sublime, Yulara, pennywise, radiohead, nine inch nails, Primus, mr bungle, nirvana, melvins, the clash, ramones, Rammstein, sum 41 (a few not all), the cure, offspring (old stuff), cypress hill, in flames, they might be giants, red hot chili peppers, janes addictiion, creedence clearwater revival, beck, sugarcult, adema, black flag, faith no more, sworn enemy, transplants, butthole surfers, mission of burma, foo fighters, green day, minutemen, anthrax, fall out boy, bas religion, less than jake, rancid, rise against, yellow card, linkin Park, Mary J Blige, Ludacris, Staind, DMX, Chevelle, Korn, Incubus, System of a Down, Red Hot Chili Peppers, P.O.D., Rage against the Machine, Tom Petty, Dave Matthews, Seether, The Cure, 311, Counting Crows... There is JUST what is in my current playlist... that doesn't count everything else in the computer harddrive... in my CD cases... and on vinyl on the shelves. See if there is anything strange in THERE that stumps ya.