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Got a job working for CITI -- the bank. Good job, good vacation, benefits from day one... they have a gym on site too. It is a 45 minute drive though, but I won't complain too much. It will get me out of my house and away from this little dump of a town. Plus, CITI has many locations in Indianapolis. So, when I want to move up there... I will have a job. Good news. I went to the DR today. I had 1CC taken OUT of my band. They are making me go get a colonoscopy as soon as I get my new insurance on the 3rd. I also may have to have an ultra sound on my gall bladder. They think I could have gall stones. I feel a ton better eating now though with the unfill. I could eat meat again. I think I was way too tight. I can enjoy my food again... but still in small portions. I wont be tempted to eat the mushier, higher calorie choices now that chicken will go down again. I will keep you all updated... this place is so quiet since they moved us... :mad: I liked our old home. love you all...

Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't been in and a BIG sorry to steph for not emailing her back. You can all kick me :tongue2: I deserve it. I am still job hunting. I've had so many ups and downs I dont know where to even begin. I am interviewing to work as a telecommunications office through the Dept of Natural Resources... working with cops... doing dispatch along with managing the Conservation Office. I've had 6 interviews this week... I;ve applied for over 70 jobs... I got one working for the Casino here... as a cage cashier... it sucks. It is night work, no holidays, i work every weekend... 10 hour days... 475.00 in licensing fees just to work for them... but it is a job and I am not to good to do it. So, I said yes for now and pray to find something that pays better that I would be happy doing. I am a mess :drool: had other bad news - my grandmother told me she doesn't want me living with her. mom said it is because of her illness and the medication she is on... that she isn't thinking clearly. It really hurt though. She just told me last week I could stay with her. Then, she just changed her mind. So... I have no where to go. I feel very unwanted and I feel like a burden. I haven't seen a sole since I left my job... .other than my mom and dad. I just apply to jobs and go to interviews and wait for the world stop spinning. Everyone please say a prayer for me. I need to find a better job soon. I need to get back to living life instead of what I am doing right now. Thank you all for thinking about me. I still come and read when I can. I miss you all. I will be back to normal some day.

I'm ok. just scrambling... have an interview for tomorrow. I am just really down and haven't been myself. I am feeling a bit better about things. I don't miss my old job. I am just trying to find something that pays enough to cover my bills. My grandmother that I lived with and took care of for months is bad again. I am thinking about giving up my apartment and moving back in with her to get her straightened out. I am tired of hearing the family argue about what to do when I could just go move in and take care of it. (sigh) I haven't even been at my house. I've camped out at my parents. I dont know why I dont want to be there. Maybe it is because it is so close to my old work. I just havent wanted to be alone. (ugh) I need to get straightened out. I haven't been able to sleep (my insomnia is back). So, i've been taking benedryl every night to go to sleep. Anyway, life could be worse. I am ok. I am not doing good, but don't worry. I will find something. I just may be losing my apartment in order to get back on financial track. I don't have a savings thanks to my surgery. I spent every penny I had on it. Thank you so much for thinking about me. I am reading and keeping up with all of you (hugs) I promise. I just dont have much time to get on here, and haven't really been in the mood to do much chatting. Love you all though! Claud have fun in Chicago hon! Hello to everyone! jill - i blend everything up... you are sooooo not any weirder than me sassy! long time no see! steph - another fill wouldnt hurt might as well since you got the band - we all forget to us it sometimes (i think) I hope you get feeling better! sweethot - watch that knee girl! i messed mine up last year and it took 8 months to heal completely... BOOBOO - (hugs) love you girl. Get professional help on this one girl. Sometimes life hands us things that are just too big for us to deal with on our own and there is nothing wrong with having someone else step in to help sort everything out. I totally understand what you mean by MORE problems now that your weight is gone. I have the same thought. It DID just uncover more issues for me too. Like everyone has said, if there is anything that I can do. just let me know. VAband - I have my fingers crossed for you. One of us has to get some good news sooner or later!! ha. So, I am hoping it is YOU! Good luck with the gentleman Nat - Im here honey :eek: so glad you are still checking in. I am just so down in the dumps. I promise to be back more once I get through this mess of a life I have right now. I will be back in full force as soon as things get sorted. I promise! faith - I totally have pureed baked beans too... ha. they were yummy - I ain't afraid to say it! looked like puke, but tasted like heaven... HAHA

They were not happy with me because I made a point of letting them know I was unhappy with my raise this year. I also asked to get licensed and the investment rep i worked for told me I was "on his turf" The woman in charge of HR was the one that was supposed to be relieving me of my old responsiblities that I was still trying to maintain while doing my whole new job. She gave them all back to me on top of what new things I was doing and with no increase in pay. I told my manager I was not happy with this. Next thing I know... I clocked in at home this morning (which I shouldnt have done) because I was on my way to a meeting and had to get things togethre for work before I even got there. Normally it takes my 5 minutes to get to work. Well, I have a rear wheel drive car... it snowed. It took me 35 minutes and I couldnt get down the hill to get to my meeting. So, I returned to my normal branch that is next to my house to continue work. Becuase I had been clocked in and was "on the road" for so long... they said my time was unaccounted for and that I was falseifying my time card and they fired me. I told them they could adjust it... that I couldnt help being unable to get to the meeting. I have never even had so much as a single warning at work. Never been late before... nothing... i didnt even miss a day last year for being sick. Now I am fired. but it is my fault... I shouldnt have clocked in at home. They just made it look like something that it wasn't and made me look and feel like some kind of horrible person. Of course this HR manager fired her own brother who missed some work becuase he was sick... with CANCER. so, i am not totally surprised. I was standing up to them... they didn't like it. They saw their out.

Hey, know how things always get better right??? Well, i got fired today. so things are "much better" :tt1: So, now i am unemployed along with the illness, court problems, and we will forget about the divorce for now. I just don't know what to do. I am a magnet for problems. It's sad and ridiculous... i don't even want anything to do with me and all my problems... i dont even want to know how bad it looks to the rest of the world... pathetic drama

I am looking for recommendations for a plastic surgeon and I would like suggestions from people who've already had prodedures done and are loving the results and work their surgeon did. Anyone within this area have someone that I should research further? I was not completely satisfied with what work I've seen from the surgeon my doctor recommended. So, I would like some suggestions from those of you who have been researching or already had PS :smile: Thank YOU!

If you are looking for us we are here Steady Losers 4ever!

I don't know WHAT they did everyone!?!? They moved our thread to some section that had nothing to do with us and locked it so we can't even access the thread or read the posts. I am getting in contact with the moderators. I am furious. There was no reason to lock it. Even if they wanted it moved. So, everyone please check in here until we get the issue resolved. I don't want to lose anyone! Brandi

Ugh, that scares me

My stomach is still not right, but it is improved. I decided not to go to the Dr. yet.... i am thinking it might have been a stomach flu and that my body just reacted differently to it due to the band. Maybe the gas irritation made my band irritated as well and caused problems that wouldnt have happened to a normal person. I don't know. I am still keeping a very close eye on it because when I laugh i have sharp pains on my left side, under my rib cage. It hurts but not as bad as it did. Other than a little chicken banquet pot pie yesterday... I havent eaten solid food since saturday. So, one would think my scale should have gone down. I am afraid to look because it probably didn't. (sigh) I hope I start feeling better so I can get back to exercising soon.

If you are looking for us we are here Steady Losers 4ever!

ugh i replied earlier and it didnt show up... i am not having a good day. :smile: Mine is all over my stomach but I have a strong pain up above my stomach where my band is located... I am wondering if I havent go it irritated from the gas pain or something. I'd taken some laxative pills the other day... because I sometimes have trouble "getting things moving" THAT was when my trouble started. Saturday evening after i took them. I got horrible gas pains and I did finally go, but not that much. I don't want to have to go to the doc, but on the chance I've irritated something I'd rather get it fixed. Everything is going down ok. But I can't hardly move because of the pain, and I am normally a pretty active girl. I feel tired and worn out from not sleeping properly because of it. I feel it all night and it keeps me awake. I called my doc and am waiting on a return call. i will see what they suggest. In the mean time, I got gas-x and pepto to see if I can't calm my tummy down on my own. the gas feels like it is trapped in the upper part of my intestines. It won't um... "come out" either up nor down... it is just causing me a ton of pain. although it has subsided since yesterday. i can stand it when something touches my stomach today which is an improvement. hopefully it will just go away...

thank you for unlocking this thread... we dont want to lose our girls!

Well, you all know how much I love ya --- even when you do just pop in from time to time. I know you are all there. I had great success at first and the past 3 months have lost relatively nothing. So, don't fret. Some other of this group started out slow and have sped right past me... so it is different for everyone :welldoneclap: I have spent the last two days feeling like someone kicked me in the stomach. I think it is gas pain, but it has me very worried. i can't even stand up straight to walk... I have put myself on fluids only and am hoping it some kind of a stomach virus. I just feel like someone beat me in the gut. Even to have someone touch my stomach anywhere... hurts terribly. It seems to be letting up tonight. I hope it goes away. My insurance doesnt cover anything to do with the band... so these things worry me a great deal. welcome faith... we told you before (on the other thread) you are more than welcome... all new comers are welcome. We just have a group that has managed to stick together for over a year now. Certainly doesn't mean we can't have more :wink: As long as you can put up with all of our drama and emotional ups and downs. :biggrin: I don't know what we would all do without one another to kick the others butt when we get down I guess we should stick to this thread now. Just keep bumping the other thread i started so if anyone like nat or kaydot come around they will be able to find us... some don't check in as often and I do NOT want to lose my girls!

yeah, i am sure he meant well... but I still dont want to lose anyone :welldoneclap: some people only check in once amonth or so... they would never find us. bump

bump, for those that need to find us....

steph, i can't believe they moved us... what the heck!? I started a thread on the lounge to direct everyone here. I don't want to lose anybody... they could have warned us or something.

ok, so I've been able to at least view the old thread now. I don't know if they are making upgrades to the site today or what, but something is screwy! Here is the new thread that steph started: http://www.lapbandtalk.com/f138/steady-losers-4ever-49208/ I will keep coming back here to bump this up so we don't lose track of anyone! I guess we've been forced to a new home.

Thanks guys love ya all

Hey everyone just wanted to check in Jill - legal troubles are still not good. This one ticket will cost me almost $3000 just in legal fees. I have a Jury trail in MAY!!! - yeah, no hurry... huh? (sigh) I just try not to think about it most days and wish it would all go away. That would have paid for almost have of my plastic surgery that I need how depressing is that?) ugh Well, today is my Bday. I only have to work 1/2 a day. I have zero friends to take me out or to throw me a party down here... so, I have to settle for my Eric calling me on the phone last night and today I am just impressed that he remembered. It sucks being so far away from everyone that knows and cares about me. My family is here though. So, I will be spending the evening with them. Hope you all have a great day.

have fun claud!!! enjoy your time with your dad!

thank you all for your words of encouragement... Wow... going to see that plastic surgeon speak was an eye opener! She had pictures of one woman that could have been me! Same height... same amount of weightloss. The before pics look just like my body... and WOW! I mean WOW! They had her looking so incredible. Ugh, it is about 7000.00 for the abdomnioplasty. And i would like a Brachioplasty along with it. My boobs aren't perfect, but they are pretty nice. I can totally deal with them. And apparently... they can really "pull up" with the tummy and correct some things that are dropping "down south" (sigh)... I could weat a bathing suit in public again. I havent done that since I was 14. I could lay on my side without 6 lbs of skin settling together on my tummy looking gross. Someday the PS said I was a perfect canidate and that just from looking at me she knew they would have fantastic results from whatever I choose to do. Gives me something to work towards I guess. Hope you are all doing well. It is going to be 70+ degrees here today. GEORGOUS! I am so pissed that I have to work today. I soooo wanted to call in to work today, but I am just not that kind of person. I got to make that money! God knows I need it. love you all!

Ugh, ladies... I am so unfocused... I ate candy last night and this morning. freaking candy! 360 calories worth this morning. I started out great yesterday... saying I was getting back on track after the holidays. Then, I went to the store and what did i pick up?? 4 different not so healthy choices of food. Carb loaded food... :woot: I havent exercises and ounce in i don't know how long. Here I sit watching all of you do so well and I feel like I am still sitting at that damn brick wall. I know it is my own fault. I stopped exercising and stopped caring for some reason. :woot: I think it is because I am just shut up alone in my own house, but that is still no excuse. I've not been doing well for 3 or more months now. I am so disappointed in myself. I could be so much further along. and what did i do this morning? ate candy. ugh, stupid fat brain.... she is still right there.

sweethot - My phone date was awesome We just talked for hours and hours... He told me that he couldn't think of a better person to ring in the New Year with -- so it was a good night. I'm so glad he cleared up my misunderstanding -- I wasn't sure about him in the beginning, but we've been talking for over 4 months now. We really connect. Bannannie - I cant see the pics cuz im at work. I will check them out as soon as I get home. I am gonna go broke, but I am going to have to get the PS. I am going to a seminar at my Band Dr. with a Plastic Surgeon on Saturday. transformer - can't wait to hear the stories! I feel like a freak sometimes with the messed up way my mind works. I am sooo not used to the men, and I feel like I know absolutely nothing some days :scales: Booboo - hope you get to feeling better. I've been having some strange pains as well. The doc told me the same thing. They are jst aches and pains from the rapid weight loss. Steph - happy new year and congrats on those size 10's

my New Year's plans = me and my dog I suck. I got invited to 2 parties, but they are both 2 hours away in Indianapolis. I just don't feel like driving that far for one night. I was just up there Friday. UGH. so lazy. I have a phone date with my marine. He will be on base and can't leave. So, he is my captive audience. haha. Sad... sad... plans huh? oh, well... Happy New Year to everyone! Have fun at your party VA!