LT1126

Things are certainly not currently going the way I had just thought they would go! I have not lossed any weight, and no matter how you look at it, that says a lot! I got my first fill on 7/28/10, I can still eat. Daily I work on eating right, sometimes I do not win, well I win my spirit does not. I am going to a therapist and psychologist. These changes in my life, I am resisting, have no idea why, so far have come up with a lifetime feeling of loneliness. I am only now starting to deal with it. I not only have binged on food, but illegal substainces as well. I am to stop that or check myself into an inpatient program. I take it day by day but have faith I will get through the next test life has for me. Very much so a ramble...this is the only public sight I feel comfortable enough to post this on. I am sharing my story because that seems to be a part in overcoming obsticles. lauren thanks for listening :thumbup:

Today I have felt crazy! I am going through so much emotionally. This journey with the lapband is really doing a number on my life. I don't doubt it is what is to be, but my emotions are once again taking over. Having a hard time dealing with this on a minute to minute basis...:smile2:

I went to a support group today, through my surgeons office. I found it, freeing a bit. I feel I need more of that to succeed. why do I push it away? This whole weight life journey of mine is all I know, and is definetly as much mental as it is physical! I know I can overcome this, I just dwell on when and what's next.

Ha! Spoke too soon! Binge it was.... UUUGGGHHH!

I had my surgery on 5/4. I had a bit of a complication with the band afterwards, and the doc took saline out. I am able to eat. Not quite like before but def feel like it's too much food. I won't get a fill for a month. I am scared that I am going to screw this whole thing up. Will it get better?

my lapband was done on 5/4. I was ok until saturday, I have now had this sharp pain in my port area. It hurts so much! I know am feeling sick...I spoke to a nurse at docs office but they said to call them if I was still experiencing pain on wed. So tomorrow is a full seven days, and my pain is getting worse. Is this normal? Is this the pain I am supposed to feel? If so, I would not have gotten this! I went from taking my deep breaths every hour to feeling as though I can hardly breath.

I spoke with the nurse and she said it's normal. Friends seem to think it's the gas, but OMG this hurts. I usually tolerate pain somewhat well. I have gone through the gas ex, any one have sugestions on something better that may help?:scared2:

I had to do three weeks of the liquid diet prior to surgery. Tomorrow will be my last week. This weekend I ate all day, Friday and Sat. I ate last night, and I want to eat today! This can't be good, and I am so worried that I am destroying this opportunity. I told myself no more eating this last week, but so far I am not doing well. If anyone can relate or give me some strong advise I would greatly appreciate it. On the plus side I have been exercising routinely. L

Do you know how this will affect the surgery I am just so worried that I am jepordizing it. I plan on spending this last week just doing the liquid diet, but am thinking about eating tonight! Why can't my brain function normally!?:thumbup:

Hey ya'll I am scheduled May 5th. I am on my 3rd week of a liquid diet, and have struggled! I spent this past weekend eating full meals. I could definetly use some help!:thumbup: