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OHHH FUNNY little post...but I gotta admit I am running to get a bottle and try it! "Be extremely careful when trimming near the Celestial Gate (the va-jay-jay proper) use manicure scissors or even nail clippers, whichever works best for you, and a magnifying mirror." That Shimma person cracked me up!

I am from Central CA? :thumbup: Between Bakersfield and Fresno...so in the middle of nowhere and nowhere LOL:tongue2:

Yay, glad you found some assistance. You are on your way. Your gonna do great.:001_unsure:

YAY! COngrats that is so awesome for you.

I think it is probably that they may have thought you lost some weight but were uncomfortable with metioning it....they may think you will then assume they identify you with your weight. It is such a sensitive topic. You are doing great, keep up the good work.

While I agree that the symptoms dont add up with the explanation I have of course done follow up research on the administration of Midazolam believe me ...many hours now plus I spoke with the ER doctor on my lovely midnight jaunt to the hospital. Here are a few links that support that Midazolam should be titrated due to the respiratory issues it can cause.... DOSAGE AND ADMINISTRATION Midazolam hydrochloride injection is a potent sedative agent that requires slow administration and individualization of dosage. Clinical experience has shown midazolam hydrochloride to be 3 to 4 times as potent per mg as diazepam. BECAUSE SERIOUS AND LIFE-THREATENING CARDIORESPIRATORY ADVERSE EVENTS HAVE BEEN REPORTED, PROVISION FOR MONITORING, DETECTION AND CORRECTION OF THESE REACTIONS MUST BE MADE FOR EVERY PATIENT T0 WHOM MIDAZOLAM HYDROCHLORIDE INJECTION IS ADMINISTERED, REGARDLESS OF AGE OR HEALTH STATUS. Excessive single doses or rapid intravenous administration may result in respiratory depression, airway obstruction and/or arrest. Midazolam (Versed ?) - Intravenous (IV) Dilution The initial intravenous dose for sedation in adult patients may be as little as 1 mg, but should not exceed 2.5 mg in a normal healthy adult. Lower doses are necessary for older (over 60 years) or debilitated patients and in patients receiving concomitant narcotics or other central nervous system (CNS) depressants. The initial dose and all subsequent doses should always be titrated slowly; administer over at least 2 minutes and allow an additional 2 or more minutes to fully evaluate the sedative effect. The use of the 1 mg/mL formulation or dilution of the 1 mg/mL or 5 mg/mL formulation is recommended to facilitate slower injection. Doses of sedative medications in pediatric patients must be calculated on a mg/kg basis, and initial doses and all subsequent doses should always be titrated slowly. The initial pediatric dose of midazolam for sedation/anxiolysis/amnesia is age, procedure, and route dependent Midazolam Injection (Midazolam) Drug Information: Uses, Side Effects, Drug Interactions and Warnings at RxList BOXED WARNING Adult and Pediatrics Intravenous midazolam has been associated with respiratory depression and respiratory arrest, especially when used for sedation in noncritical care settings. In some cases, where this was not recognized promptly and treated effectively, death or hypoxic encephalopathy has resulted. Intravenous midazolam should be used only in hospital or ambulatory care settings, including physicians? and dental offices, that provide for continuous monitoring of respiratory and cardiac function, ie, pulse oximetry. Immediate availability of resuscitative drugs and age- and size-appropriate equipment for bag/valve/mask ventilation and intubation, and personnel trained in their use and skilled in airway management should be assured. Midazolam Endoscopy Sedation (Versed?) | SedationFacts.org All that said...it doesnt explain the paralytic state and my aware state ....I am guessing it was the Succinylcholine or those types also...given to me in error. I would think if it was the midazolam it would have induced the crazy amnesia it was meant to induce. I would rather know it was the succ given at wrong time and that the medicine did what it was intended to do, not sit here and ponder if I am to fear going under for the rest of my life.

I knew my mom would have issues at first and I really wanted her there with me. She did end up going and being totally supportive of me. She doesn't agree that I should be having the surgery but she respects me enough to realize I don't need her approval but as my mom all I need is her support and love. I wish everyone could understand and respect that within family and friendships. Good luck to you and well wishes.

That is what scares me too now that when I tell an anesthesiologist this they will err on the cautious side and I wont end up totally out during surgery and experience it all! THAT is freaky.. To everyone that read this and my other post thank you and I sincerely apologize if I offended anyone. I was a horrible emotional mess and am making great strides. I should never have expressed myself in such a sissy/needy manner though I think most people understood I was just reaching out to those who had faced the same surgery, had the same expectations and could understand my disapointment in not having the surgery and going through my hellish experience. I obviously was not addressing anyone who had not read the initial post...that would be asanine lol. Even I wasn't that traumatized. I have a great support system here at home, a great marriage and children. Thank god I even have a great family practioner that I can rely on for direction on where to go next. I am feeling better daily and am trying to decide what my next move is or am I going to fold and call it a no go for this surgery. Thank you all again and sorry to those who viewed it as a pathetic.

Thank you all for your support. I know i was being an emotional baby on my other post lol. I was pretty traumatized by the whole incident. It has been about 11 days since my attempt at surgery. I started feeling quite a bit better around the 8 day marker. For some reason the week anniversary of it was a really bad day emotionally for me. I am still trying to decide if I am going to procede and have the surgery, I am taking my time right now trying to decide. My emotions have been so mixed, I feel like I was given a great gift by not dying and I thank god daily, yet at the same time my human nature feels strongly dissapointed. I feel robbed I feel like I was robbed of the surgery which is something I really wanted, I feel robbed that now I am scared of all surgery (I didnt take it lightly before but now I don't know how I will feel the next time they try to lay me down to put me under), I feel robbed that I was never afraid of dying (still not afraid of the after life part) but I am now afraid of dying in distress. I also get a little jealous though I am happy for everyone that comes through successful, believe me that makes me so relieved, but jealous that why did I have to be a statistic..but feel like an ass because I could have been a mortality statistic instead. I haven't been coming to the site because I have been trying to move on and I can say I am feeling much better mentally and physically but I am emotionally confused and sometimes p*ssed off about it. I think time and counseling will help. It also helps that my mom was there and she and I talk about it and she shared it with me so I didn't go through it alone. I am requesting a copy of my anesthesia report from a surgery I had 3 years ago to see what sort of anesthesia was used and if it was different, then maybe I can pass that along to the next anesthesiologist as a template for future surgeries. I will also be buying a medical bracelet that identifies the medication as a no-no for me in case of emergency. I probably will never know if the medication they gave me was the incorrect one, heck I would feel so much better if they were to say "hey you had the correct reaction to the medication that was given at the wrong time", that would make me feel better then to think I had some horrible reaction to a widely used (but known to be risky) drug. Does that make sense? On a lighter note though one other good thing is that my hubby is now agreeing to have a vasectomy instead of me having to go in for my tubes tied and having to have anesthesia lol. Small but wonderful victory. Thanks again everyone.

At this point I know it was given too fast and I agree likely the wrong drug.

Here is what info I found out about the drug: it is also part of the coctail that Michael Jackson had in his system. Midazolam hydrochloride is commonly used for dental or endoscopic procedures. Although generally consisted safe when given intramuscularly, intravenous administration is known to cause respiratory and cardiovascular depression. Midazolam Dosing for Endoscopic Sedation Adult Initial dose: 1-2 mg 1 mg administered at 2-minute intervals Onset of action: 1-2 minutes Peak effect: 3-4 minutes Duration of effect: 15-80 minutes Notes: Dose needs to be individualized based on age, underlying diseases, and concurrent medications. Individual response will vary with age, physical status and concomitant medications, but may also vary independent of these factors. Midazolam should always be titrated slowly; administer over at least 2 minutes and allow an additional 2 or more minutes to fully evaluate the sedative effect. Decrease dose by approximately 30% if narcotics or other CNS depressants are administered concomitantly. Personnel and equipment needed for standard respiratory resuscitation should be immediately available during midazolam administration. Top of Page Over sedation Symptoms The manifestations of midazolam overdosage reported are similar to those observed with other benzodiazepines, including sedation, somnolence, confusion, impaired coordination, diminished reflexes, coma and untoward effects on vital signs. No evidence of specific organ toxicity from midazolam overdosage has been reported. Treatment Treatment of injectable midazolam overdosage is the same as that followed for overdosage with other benzodiazepines. Respiration, pulse rate and blood pressure should be monitored and general supportive measures should be employed. Attention should be given to the maintenance of a patent airway and support of ventilation, including administration of oxygen. Should hypotension develop, treatment may include intravenous Fluid therapy, repositioning, judicious use of vasopressors appropriate to the clinical situation, if indicated, and other appropriate countermeasures. There is no information as to whether peritoneal dialysis, forced diuresis or hemodialysis are of any value in the treatment of midazolam overdosage. Flumazenil is a specific benzodiazepine-receptor antagonist that is indicated for the complete or partial reversal of the sedative effects of benzodiazepines and may be used in situations when an overdose with a benzodiazepine is known or suspected. here is another link too: RxMed: Pharmaceutical Information - VERSED .AOLWebSuite .AOLPicturesFullSizeLink { height: 1px; width: 1px; overflow: hidden; } .AOLWebSuite a {color:blue; text-decoration: underline; cursor: pointer} .AOLWebSuite a.hsSig {cursor: default}

Sorry for being a cry baby I was mostl reacting because the thread had eight six views last check and three responses I am just still freaked out I didn't want to post the title of the original thread to sound like drama queen lol but here I go being one

Big hugs Will, glad your doing so well.

I changed docs two weeks before surgery and got an earlier date for all the good it did me lol

Thank you both for the kind words I am playing it by ear right now. Time will tell if I feel the courage to try again.

Please send prayers my way for tomorrow. I will be in San Diego in a few hours and then on my way to TJ in the morning for my surgery. Nervous as heck but excited and ready.:scared0::thumbup1:

Thank you for that. I appreciate it so much. I go for surgery tomorrow and am a little sensitive of the "NOT FAT ENOUGH" mentality that I have gotten several times around here. Obese is Obese and it is hard either way to lose the weight and keep it off. Obese is just the stage you go through before you hit Morbidly Obese and all the fun things that can come with it. Insurance companies wont consider paying for it as a MEDICAL need but it has been deemed safe for those who can pay for it that are lighter. Prayers for tomorrow.:thumbup1:

Surgery is friday. I leave for San Diego thursday, my mind is spinning and I know its normal but this ride sucks!

Well crap I already bruise easily my hubby will point out one and I couldn't even tell you when or where I got it. Can imagine if it gets worse.

I'm in anxiety hell! Sigh thanks for kind words though.

Ahh thanks I keep telling myself this stuff and I believe it, it just can't get here fast enoug. It's like time has slowed down. And now look I'm being dramatic!hehe

My doctor recommended unisom and vitamin b6 together for nausea they use it for morning sickness. Worth a try? Unisom active ingredient is a histamine blocker which most OTC sleep aids are.

I too have a lower bmi and understand completely what your going through and how you feel. The losing and gaining of the same twenty or so pounds and never breaking lower then a certain weight before I just give up on it . is so frustrating and the fear of giving up on the yoyo dieting and then ending up even bigger and accumulating some health problems. Don't feel bad for taking this step most people who have had it done probably wish they would have done it sooner.

Also shredded wheat