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What channel is the show on? I have not heard of it but you piqued my curiosity. It does sound outrageous.

What do you mean "at your age".... I am teasing but honestly, I think you will find it is not at all uncommon. I am graduating (hopefully!) from my RN program in December. I will be turning 36. I can say in a group of 20 students, I am exactly in the middle as far as age (half my class is older and half is younger). I am finding that I meet a lot of nurses through my clinicals and assume they have years of experience due to their age, then I find out they are new grads. It is really not uncommon at all. Best of luck. I think this is the hardest thing I have ever done but also the most rewarding. I am actually very surprised I have accomplished as much as I have. Just think, 80lbs lighter you won't be freaking out the way I did when we had our maternity rotation and had to wear the hospital scrubs. I thought for sure there would be none that fit my ample body...I was surprised that they had them. At any rate, now it is not an issue. You will not have that fear. I hope you achieve all that you dream of!

Are you ready for crazy???? Well, first off, I feel much better today than I did yesterday. When I woke up this morning, the room wasn't spinning which is a relief! I weighed myself this morning. Monday (Day 1) I weighed 221 on the scale. Today the scale reads 214.5. WTF? Is that even possible? Is it going to stay??? I have gone 4 months or so battling the same 3 pounds up and down between 218 and 221...now in 4 days of proper eating, lean protein & veggies, LF dairy. At any rate, it seems crazy!

Are you ready for crazy???? Well, first off, I feel much better today than I did yesterday. When I woke up this morning, the room wasn't spinning which is a relief! I weighed myself this morning. Monday (Day 1) I weighed 221 on the scale. Today the scale reads 214.5. WTF? Is that even possible? Is it going to stay??? I have gone 4 months or so battling the same 3 pounds up and down between 218 and 221...now in 4 days of proper eating, lean protein & veggies, LF dairy. At any rate, it seems crazy!

(((Brandy))) I am really sorry about your struggles. Try to believe there is a bigger plan for you and that every trial and tribulation is a lesson we have to get through. I know it seems tough to deal with it sometimes, but that really helps me through. I wish there was something I could do for you. I am also sorry to hear about your baby girl. 8 years old is so young to be dealing with those emotions. Is she being medicated? Bipolar is so tough and I cannot imagine how helpless you can feel sometimes. Just do the best you can and love your girl. I know you do. It sucks when as a mother we cannot control everything and fix it all. I wish I had some great advice but I want you to know I am thinking of you.

Okay, so today I am not feeling well. I am very lightheaded and dizzy. I woke up around 8am after being up until about 1am last night. When I went to the bathroom I felt like I was drunk with the spins. It was not fun. I have been in bed for most of the day. I ate 2 string cheese sticks at around 10am because it was easy and I was wondering if I needed food. I waited about an hr and drank a lot of water. I just had lunch but I still feel fuzzy. I am not feeling as bad but still not well. I hope this passes!!!! Meal Plan B: 2 string cheese L: 3oz chicken 1c romaine 3T light caesar dressing iced coffee (small) with a little cream D: 3oz. steak grilled zucchini with olive oil mushrooms sauteed with 1 teaspoon butter dessert: favorite! PB Cup ice cream made with 1T natural PB 1 sf ff fudge pop melted a little .25 cup lite cool whip and refrozen

Okay, so today I am not feeling well. I am very lightheaded and dizzy. I woke up around 8am after being up until about 1am last night. When I went to the bathroom I felt like I was drunk with the spins. It was not fun. I have been in bed for most of the day. I ate 2 string cheese sticks at around 10am because it was easy and I was wondering if I needed food. I waited about an hr and drank a lot of water. I just had lunch but I still feel fuzzy. I am not feeling as bad but still not well. I hope this passes!!!! Meal Plan B: 2 string cheese L: 3oz chicken 1c romaine 3T light caesar dressing iced coffee (small) with a little cream D: 3oz. steak grilled zucchini with olive oil mushrooms sauteed with 1 teaspoon butter dessert: favorite! PB Cup ice cream made with 1T natural PB 1 sf ff fudge pop melted a little .25 cup lite cool whip and refrozen

Hi Nat...I see you on here reading. I miss you!!! (((kirsten)))) I am sorry you are going through this heartache. Take your weekend to wallow and then get back out there. It does suck. I have been there. Do you believe you deserve better? I think we all believe you do. But if you are not convinced, I think it puts that out there subconciously. So if you don't, work on that before finding another man. If you do then great...he is out there waiting! Love ya girl! I am having a weird day. It is almost 2pm and I am just out of the shower. I woke up this morning with head spins. I am dizzy and kept having to go back to bed. It is a weird feeling. I am wondering if it has to do with my sugar detoxing or something else. I am going to let it be today and see how I feel tomorrow but I really don't like this. To boot, I have no time for this kind of down time..too much to do! ugh.

Meal Plan Today B: 1 quiche cup 1 turkey sausage L: Antipasto Salad included: 2 slices salami 1 slice provolone lettuce tomatoes artichoke hearts balsamic vinaigrette Sn: Iced Coffee with cream 1 equal Later: 1 Polly-O cheese stick D: Chicken Fajitas included: 3oz. chicken breast (lime juice, cumin, cayenne, oil) red peppers & onions (about 1/2 cup) 1/4 c. shredded cheddar 1T. light sour cream dessert: orange SF jello light cool whip I drank lots of water today too! Good food, not feeling hungry. I did however covet the brownies at Mom's house but I overcame!!!:clap2:

Meal Plan Today B: 1 quiche cup 1 turkey sausage L: Antipasto Salad included: 2 slices salami 1 slice provolone lettuce tomatoes artichoke hearts balsamic vinaigrette Sn: Iced Coffee with cream 1 equal Later: 1 Polly-O cheese stick D: Chicken Fajitas included: 3oz. chicken breast (lime juice, cumin, cayenne, oil) red peppers & onions (about 1/2 cup) 1/4 c. shredded cheddar 1T. light sour cream dessert: orange SF jello light cool whip I drank lots of water today too! Good food, not feeling hungry. I did however covet the brownies at Mom's house but I overcame!!!:clap2:

(((Steph)))) I am so sorry to hear about DH's best friend. How very sad. You just never know, do you? I hope your DH does ok over the next week or so with the traveling. It will be tough...it is one of those mortality slaps in the face when people in our own age range pass. very scary. Thanks for your welcome back wishes. I am glad to see you are losing. I realize this will be a life long thing for me. I am grateful to be honest that I have not been losing weight while I have been snacking on crap. That would not have taught me anything. It is important for me to have to work at this, anything too easy will only lead me into unhealthy habits. I got a bike for Mother's Day this year and have been enjoying that this summer. I have a 10 mile path that I have done with some frequency but that is the only exercise I am getting. I miss my gym routine but look forward to getting back on the wagon when the kids go back to school. I think part of me was okay with maintaining throughout the summer because my schedule is so tough and hitting it hard core in Sept. At the same time, I knew I needed to get some of my habits under control. Nikki-how far along are you? Are you feeling well??? Congratulations! Very exciting!

H! I am Kay and I was just perusing the journals. Welcome! I was laughing about what you wrote in your first entry about your husband not knowing your actual weight. I totally relate because I remember being so afraid during pre-op that they would mention my weight in front of him (to gauge how much med to give me) so I kept pushing him out of the room. I will never forget when the nurse getting my epidural ready for my baby asked what I weighed (at that time 240) and I had to say it in front of my husband. I was mortified! Especially with him being a fit 185. fun fun! I want to wish you the best. When is your surgery? It already appears you are making some great changes. Don't worry about that "I am never going to eat this again" feeling. I was like that too. Honestly, there is not much I cannot eat. I just cannot eat it in any large quantity. I honestly cannot think of anything I miss terribly. Maybe a sub, or a big bready sandwich, but to be honest, I don't miss it that much. Sometimes I feel frustrated when I get full after eating a small amount. I think my brain still sometimes wants to scarf a big helping of food down, but that is a mental thing and you push past it. All in all I do not feel deprived. Again, best wishes!!!!

It is time to refocus! I am happy to have lost 52.6 pounds, I am happy to not have gained anything back, but I am not happy that I have become complacent. I have not lost a pound in months and I know I am not working my band properly. It is a wonder I have not gained anything back. I have let my busy, hectic life get in the way and I have lost control. I know that chips, ice cream, and those dreadful york peppermint patties go down easily and have no place in my diet. Especially when I may eat them in lieu of a healthy, balanced meal. This is something that has been nagging me for weeks and I am doing that before bed mental crap that I used to do back when I was 270+ pounds. Just as I am falling asleep I get that feeling of dread that I am still obese. I am ready to get this weight loss rolling again or in the very least start feeling like I ma working it properly and being more healthy. I have opted to try to incorporate South Beach principles into my diet because I truly believe this is a healthy way to live. I am doing Phase 1 as of yesterday to try to detox me from all the crap I was eating. I swear that helps with the craving and I hope it helps again.... Yesterday's Meal Plan B: 1 quiche cup 1 turkey sausage *I cooked 2 sausages and quiche cups but was full after 1. L: low sodium V8 3 slices ham rolled with cheese mustard coffee with 1/2&1/2 D: romaine lettuce (about 1 cup) 3oz chicken parmesan cheese light caeser dressing dessert: SF jello with cool whip snack later 2 Polly-O string cheese I figured out the calories to be 932 with 52grams fat and 82 grams protein. Per fitday. I also managed to drink more water than I have in months. I would estimate that I had 10 glasses! That was why I didn't really snack until later...no time with all that drinking and waiting after meals. I really wasn't ever hungry today though either. Yesterday was my busy day though so we will see how I do when I have more down time.

It is time to refocus! I am happy to have lost 52.6 pounds, I am happy to not have gained anything back, but I am not happy that I have become complacent. I have not lost a pound in months and I know I am not working my band properly. It is a wonder I have not gained anything back. I have let my busy, hectic life get in the way and I have lost control. I know that chips, ice cream, and those dreadful york peppermint patties go down easily and have no place in my diet. Especially when I may eat them in lieu of a healthy, balanced meal. This is something that has been nagging me for weeks and I am doing that before bed mental crap that I used to do back when I was 270+ pounds. Just as I am falling asleep I get that feeling of dread that I am still obese. I am ready to get this weight loss rolling again or in the very least start feeling like I ma working it properly and being more healthy. I have opted to try to incorporate South Beach principles into my diet because I truly believe this is a healthy way to live. I am doing Phase 1 as of yesterday to try to detox me from all the crap I was eating. I swear that helps with the craving and I hope it helps again.... Yesterday's Meal Plan B: 1 quiche cup 1 turkey sausage *I cooked 2 sausages and quiche cups but was full after 1. L: low sodium V8 3 slices ham rolled with cheese mustard coffee with 1/2&1/2 D: romaine lettuce (about 1 cup) 3oz chicken parmesan cheese light caeser dressing dessert: SF jello with cool whip snack later 2 Polly-O string cheese I figured out the calories to be 932 with 52grams fat and 82 grams protein. Per fitday. I also managed to drink more water than I have in months. I would estimate that I had 10 glasses! That was why I didn't really snack until later...no time with all that drinking and waiting after meals. I really wasn't ever hungry today though either. Yesterday was my busy day though so we will see how I do when I have more down time.

Hi Denise, I am sorry you are still not losing. That is frustrating. I am really hoping that this will be what jumpstarts my weightloss. I have not been eating very well the past few months and developed some terrible habits like my every other day potato chips and nightly peppermint patties. I hope you find what works for you. Keep me posted!

Morning all, I had a decent day yesterday. I am really trying to decide if I need a fill. I had a fill back in March maybe and declined the fill offer at my next appointment because I didn't want to feel more restricted. I think I was afraid that if I am too tight, I will turn to easy, soft foods. I don't know if I am doing the right thing. Fact is, I am not losing weight. I can honestly say though that I have developed bad habits this summer. For example, I have been eating chips and ice cream more than I ever have in my life. Not always and not a lot, but I know that is where the calories are coming from. I have found that I will eat something that may not be the best balance of Protein and veggies because whatever it is goes down easier and I don't have to chew it as much. Honestly, I don't think I even realized that I was doing it until I sat down the other day and really tried to focus on what I am eating. At any rate, I am focused. I started South Beach yesterday, Phase 1, to try to "detox" the crap out of my system. I figure that this is mostly how I should eat in general...protein, complex carbs, Fiber, low fat dairy...none of the processed crap I had been eating. I will let you know how it goes. I felt very satisfied with what I ate yesterday (although it took some planning) and healthier than I have in weeks. Have a great day..I am looking forward to catching up with you all and reading back the posts to see what is new and exciting!!!

Hi, I am refocusing and using the South Beach principles to help me get back on track. I know it is essentially how I should be eating on a regular basis. I had gotten into the habit of eating "soft" foods as well as chips and crap that would go down easily. That would explain the 3 month plateau I am on. I was thinking of getting a fill, but I am going to give this a go instead. I want to see if Phase 1 will get me "detoxed" and refocused. Anyone else out there want to do the same???

I really needed to read this since I have not lost in months and have been toying with the idea of a fill. I think before I do that, I really need to adjust some of my habits. Thanks for the reminder.

Hi All, So it seems that I have not missed any big get togethers? I hope I can make the next one. I was at the South SHore PLaza and it was great to meet so many of you. Sherry, thanks for offering your place. I would love that...much more intimate and easier to talk than at a restaurant. Not to mention I would not have to look at that Joe's American bread basket with envy!!! haha. Welcome newbies. I hope everyone is having a great summer.

Hi Everyone! poking my head in and hoping I don't get pushed back out. I have been a terrible online friend and disappeared off the site for the past few months. I want to blame that nursing school has not brought out the best of me, but that is only partly true. I think somewhere in my subconcious I am feeling like a slug because I have not been the model bander I once was. I have not been taking as much time to plan out my meals well and get in my exercise. The kids being home for the summer has reaked havoc in my gym schedule! At any rate, I want to say hello and let you all know I have been thinking of you. I popped on last week for a minute and saw Nat shouting out to me ((Thanks Nat!))) I needed that and it still took me a week to sign on and say hello. I think I am here for some help and support to get me on better track. I feel selfish to ask for it, because I dug a hole and crawled into it since about May. Any encouragement is totally appreciated!

Happy Mother's Day to all the mommy's! jillrn-I am not sure what kind of nursing I want to do. I went into this thinking that I would like to eventually be in obstetrics. Now I realize that I don't know enough to decide. I have found everything I have tried to be interesting. Only time will tell. I still lean toward pedi or maternity, but we will see. I am glad to hear you like your job. Having great colleagues makes it bearable! Well girls, I had a lovely Mother's Day today and got a wonderful gift. A NEW bike!!! I have not had a bike since college. I have wanted one for years but was always afraid I would be too fat and would squish the tires down. 50 pounds down, I figured I could handle it now. My daughter also got a new bike for her birthday so today we rode a gorgeous bike path in our area for an hour!!! It was so fun and my legs are sore but it was great. I am so happy to have something we can do as a family and enjoy outside. It is worth every penny. I have a huge exam this week and am off to study but I wanted to say hello. Thanks for listening to me babble.

(((Nat))) So glad that by the time I read this, your little man is safe and sound. Man is that scary! I have had a couple of close calls, but never made it as far as the hospital. I would've been a wreck! I know how fast the little ones get into stuff. My younger daughter ate her sister's body glitter once. She wanted to sparkle from the inside! UGH! Luckily it was okay and she didn't aspirate on it. Another time I smelled her breath and it reeked of Windex. She had sprayed some into her mouth. No idea how much. I felt terrible. It is amazing any of our kids survive childhood!!!! Give him a big snuggle from me...and give yourself one too. I give you a lot of credit. You do such a great job!!! I started my new rotation last night in pediatrics. I am in an Urban hospital and my understanding is that this is where the trauma comes as well as lots of babies born to opiate addicted moms. I am nervous but excited about the experience. I believe it will be eye opening. We are having a big gun problem amongst the teens in our city and with the hot weather coming, the shootings will get worse...this is where the gunshots will be recovering. I never thought I would deal with that in pediatrics, but a lot of these victims and suspects are kids killing each other. It is a lot to digest. Anywho...I did my gym thing today. 40min elliptical and 20 min weights..then a quick tan because I am pulling out the skirts/shorts. I know how bad it is for us, but brown fat looks so much better than white fat. I am jealous of my darker skinned lovelies on here!!!! Sadly I get more freckled than brown but it is still better than my milk bottle/glow in the dark thick legs!!! haha. Enjoy the day.

Good Morning! I am proud to say I returned to the gym this morning after two weeks of absence. I went with my tail tucked between my legs and feeling guilty, but once there, it was like I never left. I didn't jog today but figured I would take it easy and did 35min on the elliptical and 20 min on the bike. I feel so good now and glad my head is out of my butt. That was the longest I went without the gym since October! I did not like it but kept making excuses. I was sooo busy. The thing is, I am always so busy but working out needs to remain a top priority no matter what. I am tired of eating okay and not losing weight. I lose a couple pounds, then stay the same for a month. I know it is because I have not been as consistent as I was in the beginning. I am back on the horse and it feels right. B-man, I hope you have a great time away. Yikes about the Nuvo-Ring. I know what it is but don't know anyone who has tried it (except you) thanks for the heads up. I am nervous about BC because I used to rely on my clockwork cycle, but it has not been as regular since I am losing weight. We haven't used formal birth control in 10 years and the only time I got pregnant was the one time we tried. SO now that my cycle is not as reliable I am nervous and thinking about a back up method...looks like I may check that one off my list! Nat-girl, sounds like you are doing awesome! How is the fill? I did really like those whips I tried. The buffalo chicken was delish. Maybe I need to put one of those on the menu this week. I need some food ideas because I have been extremely unmotivated in the kitchen and relying on a lot of the same old same old! Okay, I am off. Starting a new rotation today (pediatrics) wish me luck! BTW, thanks Kirsten for the "fergalicious" compliment. I wish I had an ass like hers!! hahahaha

I miss my girls!!! Life had been super consuming..but in a good way. I just got back from a beautiful weekend away and a gorgeous wedding for one of my best friends. I had such dread over fitting into this dress and truth be told, I felt beautiful all day! THANK GOD I was 50 pounds lighter and it was worth every bite I did not have of something I desperately thought I wanted! Anywho...a couple pics posted on yahoo. I need to get my house cleaned but I wanted to let you all know I am thinking of you and miss you. I'll be back later..I am going to try to catch up on my post reading!

Hi Girls, Just want to say hi before I go back and read this thread. I have been no where near the computer lately and I am swamped with stuff for school so I am completely out of touch. Things with me are good. Except that I have been slacking with my workouts and need to focus on that. Totally unlike me. I feel a little bit like I am spread too thin right now and really need to learn to say "no" to people that need things from me. Anyone else have that problem??? On a crappy note, I had my first PB last night. At least I think that is what you would call it. I think I forgot for a second that I was banded, ate too fast and got that terrible stuck feeling. I actually forced it back up. I was relieved and instantly felt better but then scolded myself because I should have remembered and slowed down!!! Ugh. ANywho...I am off to check the thread. i hope all is well with everyone!!!