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OMG!!! I am laughing so loud I just woke up my daughter. That makes me a bad mommy too! baggie of hot water poo poo...hahahahahahahaha

Heya Chickies! I am rocking this fill! I love it. I have not felt this fantastic in months. I am wearing things in my closet that were sausage tight last week. WOW! I have a spring in my step and feel gorgeous...who the hell do I think I am? My mom asked me today when I became such a primma donna since I am now loving putting on hot shoes and cute clothes. HA! I told her it feels so good to feel attractive. I am FAR from skinny but feel so much better than I ever did back when I was "normal" weight. The confidence I have really makes a huge difference. I am EXHAUSTED today. I was on my feet all day and cannot even bear the thought of working out. Shame shame. I will rest tonight and kick it at the gym tomorrow. I am allowed to be easy on myself and take a day off, right? Nat-I can relate to the hating everyone. I was talking to a classmate the other day about that very thing. I feel like I could rip someone's face off. It is totally not me! I am usually very pleasant but lately I am wicked short tempered. I think we have all been together so long and winding down to graduation and I am just burnt of it all. I am trying really hard to keep my manners but it has been tough! Hang in there yourself. Rock those skinny pants and size 14 (WOW) jacket. You are one hot momma. Steph-Maybe you are too tight. What kind of calories are you getting in on a daily basis? It is tough, because losing feels so good and almost worth not eating, but you know we can't maintain that lack of nutrition for long. Keep an eye on your cals for a few days and see what is what. Congrats on going to the meeting last night. Sounds like you got something out of it! B-man-way to go on the weights. I am thinking of you with the whole deputy thing...I hope it all works out okay! Keep updating us. Sweet-sorry to hear about the girls weekend. What happened? Hopefully you can reorganize it soon. Way to go on the SB! Work it. I have resigned myself to the fact that I suck at it! haha. I am proud of you for sticking it out. It is tough but totally worth it. I think I have a major scale problem. I am on and off the thing multiple times a day. With clothes, without them, after I eat, when I first wake up...wtf...I need to cut this crap out. I am seriously thinking about having DH hide the darn thing! Anyone else have this problem???

LOL..Brandi..we all just love ya so much that even though I KNOW you are fine and can handle yourself, we want to pummel someone that looks at you sideways. We are such a strong group of gals and obviously so protective of each other. I am giggling because I know you are okay and we all just jumped all over the issue. Steph is right though, some people don't get how much work it takes to lose the weight even with the band. I took like a 2 months vacation from all the hard work which is why my loss is not as profound. I am okay with that, but it is a big thing to realize just how much work it still is.

((((Losing))))) I am so proud and grateful to you that you posted this thread! Believe me, you are not alone. I think there are plenty of us here that may or may not admit to the same feelings you are having. This is a BATTLE! I swear there is some weird place we get, maybe at the halfway mark, where we throw in the towel for a bit. There are many reasons. For one, I bet our subconcious is fighting us a bit. We are leaving our comfort zone. I know being so overweight is not comfortable, but we must have been hiding bit behind our layers and now that we are shedding them, we are WAY more vulnerable. Then there is the motivation factor. It is just friggin' hard to be so gung ho everyday. Sure, we can do it in the beginning, but as the months wear on, it gets tiring. I think it is okay to cut yourself some slack. I went through this too. I maintained ALL summer. Someday s I ate more chips that real food. I am not proud. I don't think this was okay. But I am being honest. Then I got some fire under my ass and I am getting over it! I don't know where it came from but I am grateful that it did. The thing is, we are so quick to support one another when one is down, but we do not offer ourselves the same support. Why not??? Don't we deserve that same respect and care? Give yourself a break. You have done amazing, hit a rut, and now you can get back to the business at hand. Keep coming here and being honest. It helps the rest of us struggling know we are "normal" and not alone! Grab my hand and let's race to the finish!!!!!!!

Sorry-I edited the last post and it is all screwed up. WTF??? Annoying! Boo-I hope there is no fallout from that comment. That stuff can get ugly fast. I am glad you made you point and now hope it doesn't turn into WW3 on the page. It should be fine.

<br /> <br /> You are not going anywhere Boo! We will not have it.<br /> <br /> I just went back and read the thread. Brandi, I don't think she meant anything by it. If anything, she is noticing that the sisters are looking good. People are funny and say some dumb sh!t but I want to think that she was trying to pay a compliment. Overall, your posting your before and after is an amazing inspiration to so many bandsters or wanna-be's. I remember reading those pages over and over before my surgery. It really does a good service to so many so I am glad you posted them. You look fabulous, have worked so hard and I am so happy for you! <img src="http://www.LapBandTalk.com/images/smilies/whoo.gif" border="0" alt="" title="Whoo" smilieid="339" class="inlineimg" /> BTW, I had a girl come up to me the other day (a girl I don't care for) who said "wow, your boobs are getting small". I looked down and said "well, I think they are okay" and she said "ha, you are almost to my league now"...She has kind of small boobs. I was freaked a bit. She has recently gained weight and I think it was her way of putting me down a bit. Like, yeah, you are losing weight but it is all in that one place you don't want to lose it. I asked my DH and he reassured me that I still have plenty there. ha. I was creeped out a little though and wanted to knock her in the head. Sort of like, why did she think it was okay to comment on them??? Freaking weirdo. I guess we are open to way more comments now. I just think I sometimes miss being the invisible fat girl. (but only SOMETIMES!)

Hey Girls. Still working the mushies. So far I am thinking I like this fill. I feel satisfied without feeling stuck. We'll see how it goes when I transition to "real" food. How are you all today? Nat-thanks for the compliments. It's funny that the before pic was after surgery and already down 22lbs. I have some REAL before pics but they are not "posed". I am seeing a major difference in my face. Sadly, I am now getting some wrinkles where I think my fat was stretching the skim all nice and tight. Now I have these smile wrinkles that are freaking me out! Ugh. My booty is definitely a lot smaller. I Think I have lost about 6 or so inches off my hips. I will always have some junk back there, but at least I can leave the room and now it comes with me!!! haha. I know you know what I mean my fellow bootylicious sister! You are looking fantastic! Keep it up girl. I am so proud of you. Bandiva-I too am curious about the obstruction. WHat happened and how are you feeling? Did I read right that you went from empty to 2cc in 1 fill? Just curious. Does anyone else's MD fill that way? Mine is so conservative. I think I went from empty to 1cc, to 1.4cc and now 1.8cc which he called aggressive. It is just odd how all the MD's are so different and I think they are all convinced that their way is the right way. I am wondering why there isn't some standard. I know we all are individual and will react differently to different fill levels, I just would think there would be a standard that they would all use while we find that ultimate level. Guess that is why I don't make the big bucks. At any rate, nice to see you! Boo-did you see that Nat called you BooBooTitty? That had me rolling! She is so funny and I think the name is apropros! I think the sisters will be fantastic after reduction. I love that whole defying gravity thing! I know someone that I thought was a little heavy, she had her breasts reduced and looked so much slimmer, but still have a good chest. Funny how they will change your perception. You look great now, imagine how great you will look after! And best of all, you will FEEL great. Hot mama. BTW Nat-I didn't make it back to the gym yesterday but I did do my FIRM video. I forgot I even had them. Man my ass and thighs are killing me today. It was funny though, the last time I did them, the cardio near killed me. I had no trouble this time. I sweat like a pig and got out of breath, but felt much stronger. Cool! I do want to kill the women that are in the video...you should never be that happy about stepping up and down off some stupid fanny lifter. It hurts! As far as Latin/African dance...I am way to white bread. :cry I THINK I have rythmn and can dance until I need to do something choreographed! No dancing with the stars for this chick. NSV-I bought size 16 jeans at Old Navy that fit about a month ago. I went back and got some 16 chino type pants as well. Yup, they were so tight it was obscene. Well, now in the past 2 weeks the jeans have become baggy and I wore the pants yesterday! They were 16 with no stretch! I am so happy. On to 14s before I know it!!!! It is funny, I was in a 20 forever, then an 18 for like 25lbs. All of a sudden, 10 pounds and I can fluctuate down a size. CRAZY!!! That means 40lbs and I could be a size 10. WATCH OUT!!!!

Brandi-what happened about the pics????? Fill us in.

I am giggling about this post, because collarbones are the most exciting thing to me too!!! I have a new habit of sitting and rubbing them as a comfort. I love feeling that hard bump of bone that has been hidden under its protective fat layer for as long as I can remember. I totally relate to the shoulders too. I have lost my roundedness and now actually have some shape to my shoulders. Very exciting. I can also suck my stomach in enough to see ribs. They are certainly not visible on their own though. My next goal is to see a hip bone! haha. I imagine that sounds weird to many, but after years of being a human cushion, it is exciting to have some sharp edges again! Way to go on your NSV!!!

Okay hot mamas...I drove to the gym this morning after dropping the kids off at school and realized I did not have my Ipod. I contemplated going in without it, but I seriously will skimp on my workout without it. So I drove home. Then I thought about doing a workout on FitTv to save myself the trip back to the gym. Some African/Latin dance thing...I tripped over myself during the WARM-UP...so that is a big NO. Now I am checking in here and getting back out to the gym. Maybe I will just go for a bike ride. I am being very fickle this morning!!! OMG-Nat and Annie! Your pics are amazing!!! I am so proud of you both. What an amazing difference we have made since this time last year, huh? So that poses the question: Where were you a year ago today? I for one was kicking and screaming my way back to Weight Watchers. I didn't want to do it, but was so tired of being tired! I remember the dread of going to sleep at night, sitting there with my over full stomach and just feeling so hopeless and depressed about my body. Never mind all the other great things I was accomplishing, it all came down to feeling and looking like crap! I was tired and irritable, and generally unhappy with myself. Today, I am a work in progress. I feel like a "big" girl, without a being a BIG girl. I feel attractive and sexy, like I am allowed to flirt and not going to gross someone out...does that make sense? I am a happier person, a better mom and wife...way more confident. Things are good. Now how about you??? BTW, I am green with envy for all of sweethot's upcoming trips. Sounds wonderful girl. You look gorgeous already..look out when you are at goal by that cruise!!!

Hey Everyone! I am checking in after a long time away. Amazing to see everyone's success. I cannot believe I am coming up on my 10 month anniversary for the band. The time has flown! It will be a year before we know it. Anyone already reaching their year goal? I don't know that I really had one...now I wish I did. I sure would like to be under 200 by my year. I am working on it. Congrats Wasa on your success. BTW, you TT is scheduled for my birthday. I will be celebrating your success! Have a nice weekend all.

Man it is quiet in here. I hope that means everyone is doing great!?! Is anyone up for another get together in the coming month??? I would love to do that again. I can never go to the BIDMC meetings due to work conflicts, so I would love to get together with some "real" people.

Hey Jill! You are doing great. I too am on the slow boat, but ultimately, we will get to where we are going. Not for nothing, but your loss is fantastic. You must feel wonderful. That paired with a busy life is nothing short of impressive. Keep it up!

Thanks Sweethot! BTW, I too was South Beaching over the last couple months. I would do the Phase 1, then fall off the wagon because of some event, then drag myself back on board. I was getting a little down about it. When I was doing it, I would drop like 8 pounds and fall off and maybe 6 of them would creep back on. I did this a few times since the summer. It was messing with my psyche. When I was at the nutritionist this week, I told her about that. She told me I need to stop the diet mentality. I should be able to eat healthy without putting myself through that "detox" torture. It was like a lightbulb went off. I want desperately to not "diet" anymore. I have been doing it for most of my life. That being said, I still see amazing benefits to knocking as much of that white processed crap out of our diets for the sake of good health. I just hate that feeling i get when southbeaching that as soon as I had something that was not allowed, I had undid all my hard work. Do you ever feel that way Sweet? I am not trying to put my experience on you, just wondering if you share similair pitfalls. Of course, whatever works for anyone of us, we should work it, right? I am just wondering if you too go through that stress with the diet. Good luck this weekend at your outing.

My doctor does not use fluoro for fills. We do it in his office. I can feel my port fine by touching my stomach so I hope they can find it okay! Plus, I can feel the saline moving through the tube..eery. I had a barium swallow after surgery but have had nothing like that since. I imagine if I were having any trouble, that would be the next step, but it is not routine in my MD office.

Toqu- I know what you mean. I think if you really pay attention, your body gives subtle notice that it is getting full. Many of us, myself included, are sometimes so programmed to ignore that and keep eating. I think this can take a while to get used to. Afterall, many of us have been overeating for most of our life. I try to stop when I get those subtle feelings, but it is still a battle, the old me still wants to keep eating and enjoying, but that usually lends to me feeling stuck. Best wishes.

Great idea Steph! Those little cans of biscuits are pretty cheap too.

Hey thanks all for the outreach regarding my fill & issues. So I went to my appt a little bit with my tail between my legs. I was in for a surprise because I was praised for doing such a great job. HUH? I tell you, my nutritionist and surgeon put things in such a different perspective for me. They went on about the fact that I have lost 52.5% of my excess weight in 10 months. They said they shoot for 35-70%. Therefore I am doing fine. My nutritionist also went on to praise me for my workouts and good habits. She said that I should be very proud of myself and that I have been very consistent especially on minimal restriction. I was really feeling a lot better. I had been doubting myself since I have not lost as much as many here. I was reminded that we are all different, have different medical histories and lifestyles and I should not be comparing (so hard not to!). I am doing better. I am eating healthier than I was this time last year. I do have much better habits and my body is fitter and stronger than it has been in years. Why do I tend to focus on the negative???? At any rate, I got a fill and am up to 1.8cc. He feels it is aggressive and I really need to keep an eye on how I feel when I am back to solids. Of course according to my md's rules I am on liquids for 4 days and mushies for 4....dread! So I won't really know for a week or so. Thanks again everyone for your support! VA-i am keeping my fingers crossed on that second interview!

I am so sorry to the original poster! I know how painful that comment must have been. But then I read the above post and I am thrilled that Karma really does exist. What goes around comes around and how nice to see it for yourself. Thanks for sharing. This will make me giggle all day (I know it is wrong to find humor in someone's accident...I am a bad bad girl!).

Hey Ladies... It scares me that the insinuation is that it is worth puking if it means weightloss. I hope I am reading this wrong and you are all just being sarcastic. Believe me, I KNOW how much it sucks when the weight just isn't coming off. I have lost about 5 pounds in the last 5 months. Slllooowwww! I don't think that turning to another eating disorder is the answer. We all want this weight off, but let's try to be healthy about it. Check what you are eating. Maybe try logging some foods for a week or so..I love thedailyplate.com. Chew chew chew. Just try to work the rules as best you can and by all means, call your surgeon if you are puking all the time. Your body may shed pounds, but you are losing important nutrients if you are hurling up all that you eat. I hope everything turns out okay! (((hugs)))

OMG B-man...I left a comment on your myspace as well. You are looking amazing. I don't think you could actually lose more...you will be 2 dimensional!!! I am so proud of you. You must feel wonderful! Great work. I cannot get over your side view. Where did you get those tiny legs? I want some!!!! VA-glad to see you. I am sorry nothing has happened on the job front yet. It will, just don't you hate not knowing when? Best of luck on the interviews this week. I am thinking positive thoughts! Nat-get on that elliptical and crank it out. You are doing great. Eat something. Those little teddy grahams just ain't gonna cut it! :confused: I was thinking of your buffalo chicken whip. I have been sticking some grilled chicken in the food processor with Ken's buffalo sauce, chunk it like a chicken salad consistency and I plop it on a green salad. I add some sliced banana peppers (yum) and a little blue cheese dressing. SOOOO good. It is my favorite lunch/dinner. I feel like I am getting the yummy buffalo fingers but they are not all fried and I am getting my veggies. I am off to get my fill today..I hope. I am fluctuating the same darn few pounds. I am hoping this will jumpstart things and not be too hard. My MD does 3 days liquids and 3 days mushies. WTF..I haven't been on liquids in so long. I forget what to eat. I am going to have to buy some protein shakes since all I have left in the house is the Peach Nectar and I can only do that once in a while. It doesn't stay with me for any length of time. I guess I should get some soup today too. Nothing like being prepared. Well, I am off. Wish me luck. I feel silly that I am going to the MD after 5 or so months and down about 5 pounds. sad sad

Thanks for the heart attack you b!tch! LOL. I knew what to expect and I still jumped out of my skin!:eek

Hey all, Checking in from what seemed like a really long weekend. Big smooch to Nat..I have missed you! ((Boo))) I hope things take a turn for the better with DH. You deserve to be happy and have peace. You are a catch and ought to be adored! I do hope DH makes that realization and makes the changes! Annie...love the ride! Very sweet and I bet you are rocking it. You are that hot girl in a hot car! Way to go. Steph-I know it is tough to have strife among the kids. I hope time does heal it all and things will be better. The biggest thing I would want to deter you from is playing the middle mom...I have that stuff in my family and it is awful. (not my mom but my grandmother, aunts and uncles). You know, like mom calls one child to report what another one wants said but doesn't let them speak to each other themselves. It is an odd attempt to keep the peace that in reality creates so much more chaos. I don't see you doing that though. You are too smart of a cookie for that. I am glad you all got to laugh and enjoy each other. What could be better? I had a fine weekend. It was busy with work and some family obligations. My eating was good but I am really struggling. I am finding my workouts are keeping me in check but I have minimal restriction. I had tried to convince myself to not get fills, and that I could do this on my "own". What a spaz! I feel like I have wasted the better part of 5 months of having this band. I am going to see the MD on Thursday and I hope to be in a better place. I make reasonably good choices the majority of the time, but I can eat too much. I will say though that the compliments pour in. I have not lost much the past few months, but I think I have tightened up. My arms and legs are STRONG! My cardio level is impressive and overall I feel good. I just don't see it reflecting in the scale. Hopefully this fill will change all of that! I am exhausted and have to run. I just wanted to say hey!

Way to go BooBoo on being the hot mama you are! I bet that dress looks FANTASTIC! Enjoy the meeting. Meeeooowwww! Thanks for the support. I am doing much better. I have been back to my workouts over the last few weeks and that has helped. I am getting the eating back under control too. I just have very minimal restriction. I know I need a fill...it has been probably almost 6 months since I had one. I denied the last one because I think I was afraid of being restricted. I am tired of killing myself and being hungry though...why the heck did I go through the surgery. While I have not lost a lot these last few months, I KNOW the band has prevented me from regaining weight. There are plenty of times I would have gone on a binge had I been able to...or eaten some giant sub or pizza if I could have. But the bread just doesn't work for me. I don't really miss it either. I am bordering on getting under 210. I hope to have a fill next Thursday and maybe get below 200 in the coming month or so!!! I will be ecstatic. I remember being 198 before I got pregnant 12 years ago! I can see it coming. I will say, I am getting tons of compliments. How do you all handle them? I have taught myself to accept them, but humbly. Like a friend said to me the other night..."wow, I didn't recognize you..what happened?" I kind of played dumb and then just humbly said, yeah, I got to the gym and eat less...Like sort of blew it off. I just feel awkward when everyone makes a big deal about it. I mean, I am thrilled with myself, but uncomfortable with all the big deal being made. Anyone else? BTW, I am going to put a pic on the yahoo group that you all need to see...it was eye opening for me. ~K

Hey Girls, Good morning. I was wondering if you all would share with me what your fills are and how you feel about them. I am just looking for a little support. Here is the thing, I have not had a fill since about April. I think I went from 1cc to 1.5cc in a 4cc band. So all together I have had 2 fills since December. I went back to the MD in June and decided I did not want a fill. I was comfortable with the amount of restriction I had...Now I am realizing that I really had none. I was trying to do it on my own more or less. I shouldn't say I had none, I just didn't have much. At any rate, my weightloss is pretty stagnant. I know it is obvious that I am eating as much as I am burning and therefore maintaining. I don't think I could restrict my calories anymore and I must need a fill. Why did I go through all this to not use my band??? I have been asking myself this question. Okay, so my question is, how do you all feel about your fill? Do you feel satisfied in the quantity that you eat? I am afraid of getting more of a fill and either not getting to eat, or puking. Right now I rarely PB because I am cautious about what I eat. I did PB this weekend because I think I was in a daze and ate a small McDonald's french fry in front of the computer. WTF? I never eat french fries...They weren't even good. I felt like crap the rest of the day. Lesson learned. Enough of my rambling...I am off for a bike ride. Any feedback would be very appreciated!