Kaydotrn

LOL!~ Girl, you are not alone! I feel exactly the same way. Now that my date is 5 days away I am doing the same thing. Am I really doing this??? Freaking out! It is good to know that none of us are alone in these feelings. I am getting more excited than nervous as the date approaches. What a great New Year's gift. This may be the first year we can keep our resolution to get fit!!! Best wishes. ~Kay

WTG on your 4th day of the POD. I know it will be worth it in the long run. Hang in there!

Thanks for thelink to the pre-op diet. Wow that is strict. have you followed it? I mean, I think I can do anything for the 5 days I have until surgery! Maybe I will follow that plan but modify it with one Lean Cuisine type meal a day so I have something of substance over the next few days. I just spent today eating more than I normally would and more than I have the past 2 months. I had too much pizza and not a vegetable or fruit to speak of. I don't know what got into me. I am done though. It wasn't worth it-I feel like I won't miss it either! Anyway, thanks for the tip-onto liquids tomorrow morning. ~Kay

Thanks for thelink to the pre-op diet. Wow that is strict. have you followed it? I mean, I think I can do anything for the 5 days I have until surgery! Maybe I will follow that plan but modify it with one Lean Cuisine type meal a day so I have something of substance over the next few days. I just spent today eating more than I normally would and more than I have the past 2 months. I had too much pizza and not a vegetable or fruit to speak of. I don't know what got into me. I am done though. It wasn't worth it-I feel like I won't miss it either! Anyway, thanks for the tip-onto liquids tomorrow morning. ~Kay

I went to my meeting this morning. It was particularly boring. I usually love those meetings but Weightwatchers launched a new plan so we had to sit through the leader going over the whole thing. I was down 0.6lbs this week to make a total of 18. I don't know what the heck is up with that since I stayed within my points and exercised 5 days at an hour each day. (as well as one day doing floor exercises when I couldn't get to the gym). Maybe my body is just adjusting to the 6 pound loss last week. I really shouldn't be obsessing and just go with the flow. A loss is better than a gain. I am cranky today and I think it is because I have so much on my mind with the upcoming surgery. I am scared! It will be here so soon. I watched the lapband surgery video from BWH last night and was amazed. It actually made it look much less scary. I have this wacky urge to eat something today that I know I will probably never eat again. I am leaning toward getting a small steak and cheese sub. Is that nuts? I just think I won't ever eat it because the steak is really chewy. At the same time, I haven't had anything bad like that in 2 months and I don't really miss it. Why the urge to get something like that today? I must be nuts! We'll see what I end up doing. I haven't had that last supper mentality until today. My plan is to go to mostly liquids starting tomorrow so I feel like I should get in one last yummy meal. i dunno......

(((Annie))))-OMG that is so fast! Are you ready? If you believe you are, then go for it. I know all about school break. If I couldn't do it by next week, it wasn't happening until Spring Break. So I am excited to be going in on Monday. You will be great. Ariel-Hi! I haven't seen you on here in a bit-maybe I am just missing it. I think the link you gave is the same one we watched. It was BWH surgery and had a female MD and a Dr. Lautz? I think that was the name. Let me know if it is different. Nat- since you dropped me to Kay, I am dropping you to Nat-hahaha. Or else I am going to call you "Miss love My Stuffins" because I like when you refer to your parts that way--cracks my big butt up! I am getting a visual of people biting their bellies when they the hankering for some cheese. hahaha Hang in there girl- TWO DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! I am so psyched for you. (((((STEPH))))))))) I am glad you are back and doing well. Freaking tube down your throat when you woke up??? WTF! That is crazy. I know it must not be the worst thing in the world but I would freak a bit! I am glad the catheter thing wasn't so bad. I have had them before (pregnancy) and performed them on others so that doesn't scare me too much. I am so glad you are not feeling badly and that you are just a bit sore. Are you on full liquids? Curious! On to smaller and better things! BabyGotBack-Ok, I need a shorter nickname for you! Hang in there. We are down to days left and you will get through it. I am joining the pre-op diet brigade tomorrow and doing Protein shakes for b'fast & lunch and light dinner even though my surgeon does not require it. I just want to give myself the best chance. So maybe I will be in agreement about the hunger issues with you!!! We'll see. Hang in there girls! ~Kay

Hi everyone!!!! I am now 6 days before surgery! aaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!! I am freaking out!!!! I actually enjoyed watching that surgery that BabyGotBack posted. I thought it demystified the whole thing for me. I am not as nervous as I was before. Still freaking about it though. Am I really doing this??????? I guess I am. Nathalie-I hope you find a new daycare place soon. I can only imagine how stressful that is on top of everything else. I swear everything happens for a reason and something good will come of this. You are a strong woman (big or small-hehe) and you will be fine. Having kids is disruptive-your house will not be clean for a while! But who cares. Nothing beats the unconditional love that emanates from an "I love you Mommy" that makes it all worth it. But why can't you just hop on a plane to help get that ex through a parenting urge! Geesh-they have some nerve sometimes, huh? You do what is best for you and your little man-and treat your little guy how a woman should be treated. What an awesome challenge!!!! I sometimes wish I had a little fella to teach those lessons to. My girls are learning how to be strong and self reliant-things it took me some time to learn on my own. Mystique-how is your little one feeling? I have mine homw sick from school and I am washing my hands like crazy since I don't want to be sick either! Best wishes. Carol-I love hearing from you. Sounds like you are doing great and I am so happy for that! Beversman-I love what you said about your friend food. I am right there with you girl! I think there will be a mourning period those first weeks after surgery but I am ready to let that friend go and make new friends with "shopping" and "living life" again. Are you with me? Good luck Eva, Kathy & Chubster-I think your surgeries are next. best wishes and be sure to impart your wisdom on the rest of us when you get back! Bandiva-congrats on the 11 pounds! WTG. I am down 18 as of today. Yay. I would love to hit 20 down by my surgery on Monday. I think I can I think I can. I am up to 50 minutes/6 days on the elliptical and weights 3 times a week. I hope I can get right back to the gym ASAP after surgery at least to walk the treadmill. I will be bummed to undo all the stamina I have built up these past 2 months!!! Have a good day. i am home today so I am sure I will be pooping in.

I went to my meeting this morning. It was particularly boring. I usually love those meetings but Weightwatchers launched a new plan so we had to sit through the leader going over the whole thing. I was down 0.6lbs this week to make a total of 18. I don't know what the heck is up with that since I stayed within my points and exercised 5 days at an hour each day. (as well as one day doing floor exercises when I couldn't get to the gym). Maybe my body is just adjusting to the 6 pound loss last week. I really shouldn't be obsessing and just go with the flow. A loss is better than a gain. I am cranky today and I think it is because I have so much on my mind with the upcoming surgery. I am scared! It will be here so soon. I watched the lapband surgery video from BWH last night and was amazed. It actually made it look much less scary. I have this wacky urge to eat something today that I know I will probably never eat again. I am leaning toward getting a small steak and cheese sub. Is that nuts? I just think I won't ever eat it because the steak is really chewy. At the same time, I haven't had anything bad like that in 2 months and I don't really miss it. Why the urge to get something like that today? I must be nuts! We'll see what I end up doing. I haven't had that last supper mentality until today. My plan is to go to mostly liquids starting tomorrow so I feel like I should get in one last yummy meal. i dunno......

Good luck! I too have been tough to deal with (banding on December 18th). I am nervous and excited. Stressed about not eating at Christmas but figuring I have had plenty of Christmases that I have eaten whatever I wanted and totally regretted that holiday gain after! It just isnot worth it anymore. Think of the gift we are giving ourselves and it just doesn't matter what we won't be eating!!! Best wishes!

Made it to the gym tonight. Very reluctantly. It seems if I don't go in the AM it is too easy to lose my motivation. I had a good 50 minutes ont he elliptical burning 500+ calories. I don't know if it will be enough to get the pound or 2 I seemed to gain this week (I don't know how) before my weigh in tomorrow morning. UGH!!!!!

Hi All, Does anyone else use the LBT journals? I just started using them to kind of document what I am going through. Free therapy. haha. I posted my official before pics in there-blacking out my face since I am not out of the band closet yet with most people. How many pounds does the camera add???hmmmm. Claudia-hope you are feeling better. Offerrocker had her surgery today too, right? I hope all is well there. Welcome momof2chic-glad to hear you are feeling well and I hope you will join in the conversation with us. Where are you Nathalie? I miss your posts when you are quiet. You always make me giggle. I did some food shopping today-cream Soups, broth, applesauce et al in preparation for next week. It is going to be here soon. I think I will try to find some blended Soup recipes online today. Have a good one!

Testing to see if my official before shots are uploading. I should add that these pics are -18 pounds since I started WW 8 weeks ago to get myself in surgery shape.

Testing to see if my official before shots are uploading. I should add that these pics are -18 pounds since I started WW 8 weeks ago to get myself in surgery shape.

(((Claudia))) I am sorry you feel lousy. Have you called your surgeon's office??? I would do that first. Are you taking pain meds? I know they usually make me feel like poop! I sure hope you feel better soon. Keep us posted!

I cannot believe I am one week pre-surgery!!! Am I really doing this??? Amazing. I had my pre-op appt with anesthesia today. I thought I was going to be weighed and I was actually somewhat disappointed since I have lost a good amount since the last time they had me on the scale. I am an oddball! It was a basic appt. I was disappointed to see that my BP was 153/73 that systolic is not what I would like to see. At least if it were in the 130's. But I was nervous, and he had my arm elevated above my heart which can play into it a little. They answered a lot of my questions, but now I am finding I have even more questions...how long is the procedure? Where will my DH wait and will he be allowed to see me soon after? Will I have a catheter? They are all pretty mundane questions but now I am getting so curious. But the bottom line is I have the green light and I am doing this next week. I had a protein drink this morning,tried to have another for lunch but it was so terrible that I just threw it out (Slim Fast Low Carb tastes like a can of chemicals!). i just cooked a Lean Cuisine for lunch instead. Certainly not the most wholesome meal, but the calories are low. I wish I had a more stringent pre-op diet so I would know what to do, but I am basically doing this on my own. I think from Wednesday on I may do liquids for breakfast and lunch and a small meal at dinner. I want my liver in the best shape possible to decrease any chance of having a problem. I know plenty of people who don't lose any weight before surgery and I have lost about 17lbs so far so I should be okay. I think I am going to take some before pictures today too. Maybe even some in my underwear so I can really see the changes. So much to do!!!! I weighed myself this morning and I am up a pound or 2 from my WW meeting last week. I have no idea why! I never eat all of my extra points, I workout at least 5 days a week for an hour at a time...I should not be gaining. I think my body is just fighting me since lost 6 pounds last week. I will go to the gym at some point today and I will drink plenty of fluids today in hopes that I am just retaining a little. It just seems pointless to have a gain when I know I didn't splurge. What are you gonna do? Ok, my hands are cold and tired of typing. I will write more later....

I cannot believe I am one week pre-surgery!!! Am I really doing this??? Amazing. I had my pre-op appt with anesthesia today. I thought I was going to be weighed and I was actually somewhat disappointed since I have lost a good amount since the last time they had me on the scale. I am an oddball! It was a basic appt. I was disappointed to see that my BP was 153/73 that systolic is not what I would like to see. At least if it were in the 130's. But I was nervous, and he had my arm elevated above my heart which can play into it a little. They answered a lot of my questions, but now I am finding I have even more questions...how long is the procedure? Where will my DH wait and will he be allowed to see me soon after? Will I have a catheter? They are all pretty mundane questions but now I am getting so curious. But the bottom line is I have the green light and I am doing this next week. I had a protein drink this morning,tried to have another for lunch but it was so terrible that I just threw it out (Slim Fast Low Carb tastes like a can of chemicals!). i just cooked a Lean Cuisine for lunch instead. Certainly not the most wholesome meal, but the calories are low. I wish I had a more stringent pre-op diet so I would know what to do, but I am basically doing this on my own. I think from Wednesday on I may do liquids for breakfast and lunch and a small meal at dinner. I want my liver in the best shape possible to decrease any chance of having a problem. I know plenty of people who don't lose any weight before surgery and I have lost about 17lbs so far so I should be okay. I think I am going to take some before pictures today too. Maybe even some in my underwear so I can really see the changes. So much to do!!!! I weighed myself this morning and I am up a pound or 2 from my WW meeting last week. I have no idea why! I never eat all of my extra points, I workout at least 5 days a week for an hour at a time...I should not be gaining. I think my body is just fighting me since lost 6 pounds last week. I will go to the gym at some point today and I will drink plenty of fluids today in hopes that I am just retaining a little. It just seems pointless to have a gain when I know I didn't splurge. What are you gonna do? Ok, my hands are cold and tired of typing. I will write more later....

Good questions Lap!!! Of course by this time, she is already in surgery! Thanks for the answers. I have my surgery next Monday! I am so nervous and excited at the same time. I cannot believe this is really happening! I appreciate the answers to the questions. I have another one. Did everyone get a urinary catheter? At my pre-op appt today, the nurse mentioned that I may wake up with an NG tube and a catheter. I was surprised by this. I just didn't expect it. Not a big deal either way..naturally I would prefer to not have it. Does anyone know how long the procedure takes? I cannot believe I have not ever asked this of the folks in the bariatric dept. Now all of these questions are coming to me. I am assuming my husband will want to stay at the hospital until I am out of surgery so I guess I am just wondering what to expect. Hope everyone is doing well. I see you mentioned the reunion in March. I am curious about that. Also, do any of you attend the support meetings at BIDMC? TTYL!

Wow, it is quiet here today. Happy Monday everyone. Thinking of Steph and hoping she is doing great! I had my pre-op appt today. This is it. I am really doing this next week. I cannot believe it still. I talked about the anesthesia since that is what scares me most. Talked about the tube in my throat :::scary::: and the fact that I may be catheterized. Anyone else have a catheter?? I sure hope I won't but if they do, it is not the end of the world. I am officially in countdown mode and feel like I have a lot to do this week to get prepared. I think I am going to request a private room. I was told that it will cost an extra $150 but I think it may be worth it. I have this fear of me snoring or passing loud gas and grossing out my roommate...hahahaha. Sounds silly but I definitely like my space. We'll see. I will think of it as a night in a hotel. Have a great day everyone. Look forward to hearing how everyone is.

I too have psoriasis, on my elbows. I was not anticipating any changes from the lap band, do you? Interesting thought...

OMG..I was thinking that I was insane and someone had taken over my body but I am having a total fear of not being able to exercise like I do now after the surgery. It is too dang cold to walk outside and right now I am doing a pretty strenuous routine at the gym. I have been diligent over 8 weeks now and I don't want to stop for fear that I will never get the momentum going again. My goal is to be at the gym asap after surgery and at least walking on the treadmill (which I hate). How long do youthink it will be before I can get back on my beloved elliptical? I know I need to ask my surgeon. I really never thought I would EVER fear giving up my exercise. hahahahahahaha. My Sunday is good so far. I went out to a gorgeous restaurant last night and had what I deem to be as my last supper. I ny no means overdid it but I know it will be a long time before I ever enjoy anything as gloriously yummy as I did last night. I actually halved my meal and took the other half home, but slowly savored every bite. I will not kill you with the details but it was a pretty hilltop tavern that overlooked the city skyline-one of those "reduction sauce, demi-glace, gratin etc" type of places. I was there with my Dad, his spouse, and my dh and kids. I was deeply saddened to see him stuggle with getting up my stairs and stuffing himself into his chair..he has become so much heavier. He is so handsome and well put together but he is just putting so much on his body. Sadly, I cannot share what I am doing with him because of his total disdain for anything medically related..I just hope he finds some way to get in better shape. He is definitely destined for a future knee and hip replacement at this rate. I just know how I have felt and I imagine how he must feel. Maybe someday I can tell him. I just don't know. On a lighter note-I am off to a fun filled day of bracelet making with my mom. Wish me luck. I hope everyone is doing great. Steph-if I don't get to talk to you, have a quick and easy surgery. Get back here as soon as you can. You are in my thoughts and prayers! I'll miss you til you're back. Later!

((Carol))) Glad you are feeling so well. Thanks for checking in and updating us on your experiece. I am getting really excited for my date! I hope tohave a similair experience to yours. (((Steph))) obviously I am in a huggy mood today-hehe. I cannot believe you are Monday! 2 DAYS! I am so excited for you. Great idea to make soup and freeze some. I hope it is yummy. I will try to steal that advice and do that this week. It is smart to have what you need all set instead of relying on others to run errands. I am trying to pick up things as I go along (broth, applesauce, Protein mixes) and I hope I have everything I need for the next few weeks. If you still have the nesting bug, I have a few closets I would love cleaned out! I too need to get everything in order because I cannot sit in a messy house (inevitably the house is always messy and I am always picking it up) and I know we need to be able to rest and recouperate. I hope you get some sleep the next 2 nights and that the sniffles go away. I went out to eat last night and have to go out to dinner again tonight. My DH and I both had birthdays this past week so we are celebrating with my parents tonight. I am amazed that I am not doing that whole "last supper" eating. I have been following my weight watchers program fine. Last night I probably had a few more points that usual, but I still felt well within my limits. Tonight may be a little tougher since where we are eating has great food, but today I will stick to my protein shakes to prepare for tonight. My goal next week is to do protein shakes Breakfast and lunch and eat a small dinner. My doc does not have me on a pre-op diet, but I think this will help me transition to post op more easily. Have a great day everyone, I will be popping in later.

(((Patty!!!)))) Glad you are home and feeling okay. I love when people say they are home and a little sore. I can handle sore...I am deathly afraid of gut wrenching pain! I am so glad you are doing okay. Enjoy those full liquids tomorrow! Take care and keep us posted.

Steph-did you know you are getting banded in 4 days???? Just making sure you are aware. Nathalie-Princess Leah, huh? Did you have the coffee roll buns in your hair? Glad you had fun. I can't believe your surgery is only a week away. We are all flying through this month, huh? Kari-glad to hear your surgery is a go. I had a great day today. I baked some goodies for a work party and ate NONE! I have been sticking to my program really well and exercising my butt off. I dream to be at least down 20 pounds by my surgery date (only 2.6 more for that) but I would really love to lose 5 or so more to bring me into the 240's. I am working on it girls! I really feel better than I have in a while. Onward and downward!

Just popping in to say a quick hello! I am 11 days pre-band! As of this week I got the news that my insurance approved the surgery. That was a surreal feeling since I kept thinking Iwould not get approved (I don't know why as I certainly meet the criteria!). I have my pre-op Monday. Does anyone remember what that was like? I am just curious what goes on at this appt. Thanks for the belated birthday wishes. I am actually celebrating this weekend since last weekend was tied up with finals and studying. Today is my last day of school for the semester! One more year and I will be an RN!!! So much exciting stuff is happening in my life. I can't believe this is me! Hope all is well and everyone is getting their shopping done. I am really in the holiday spirit this year-just hope I am up and about for Christmas. Fingers crossed. Have a great day!!!

Audree--Another surgery sister! I just ordered some Designer whey Protein powders to make shakes so post op. I also have broths and will buy some cream Soups and stock up on SF FF Jello pudding. I can also have very thin hot Cereal as well as whipped cottage cheese not too long after surgery. I am scared and nervous but excited too! I have not really thought about what to pack in my overnight bag. I will prbably bring some SF lifesavers (per Hermosa) in case my throat is hurting, I can't really think of what to bring. Anyone else have any ideas? it will be here before we know it! Carol--glad to hear you have a great family supporting you. I cannot believe you have no pain. That is fantastic! I hope to be so lucky. Please try to stop throwing up on yourself--just kidding. I hope that works itself out too. I just have a tiny HCTZ pill so I hope that won't be too much trouble. Hang in there!