goldngrll

Hello,My name is Patty.  I am a stay at home mom to three 3 yr olds, and a 5yr old.  My triplets were 28 week preemies, and as a result, we were on crisis mode for probably the first 2 yrs with some illness or condition.  My youngest son has Cerebral Palsy.  This aint jon and kate, lol...my husband and I have no friends or family to help us at all with our kids, so we live in varying degrees of exhaustion.  This is not a complaint, it just is the way it is....I have needed to deal with my weight for some time...I have gained and lost hundreds of pounds like most of you.  living a high stress life is not conducive to taking care of oneself very well, and at that I have failed miserably.  I have sleep apnea, and my blood pressure tends to run high...now theres a surprise...I also am hypothyroid.  I have chronic muscle and joint pain due to arthritis, and just being overweight, but highly active.  There is a lot of running around to appts, and a lot of lifting, as my son is not yet walking.....plus I am that crayzee playground mom...we are never home, as I am determined that my children will not be the fat kids as I am...we are always out doing something!!  I guess being the fat kid has at least had some positive outcome...my children are extremely healthy...I buy no juice, or junk, and their diet is impeccable....starting from infancy, as I made all my own baby food from scratch, and included things such as salmon, avocado, and spinach...  The thing is, with so much to do, I am rarely able to sit and share the meal with my family...I am the waitress, lol..so there are some times I go most of the day without eating, which of course means I am starving by the end of the day....with soo much stress as well, I do like to enjoy a few glasses of wine at the end of the night after bedtime....This is a huge step for me...I have considered bariatric surgery for a number of years now.  The thing is, I cannot be down for long, and need the lowest risk, lowest downtime surgery available, which I am thinking is the lapband....plus the other surgeries just plain scare me.  Whenever I think of the gastric bypass I think of Charlie Weiss being in a wheelchair for soo many months.  I know this may not bring "dramatic" results, but honestly, I am happy with my life..just not my weight.  So if I dont lose 100 lbs in 3 months, I'm ok with that.  If I never reach my "ideal" weight, I'm ok with that...I'd like to lose 100 lbs, although I know I have so much more than that to lose, but even "just" 100 lbs would be a huge change, no?  Mostly, I dont want to embarass my kids...sounds silly, but thats it.