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Im staying on plan today because Im finally losing and I want to keep it that way.

IGIG.com has a bunch of figure types. Im a Figure Eight.

i got it in my arm

Quinoa is a grain so it is definately a carb BUT its a complex carb. That makes all the difference to your blood sugar arc. Its also a superfood rich in loads more things than they put on labels. I personally love it. Ive never really liked rice and I find that quinoa is a great substitute. I make it with Better than Bullion, for flavor. Ive served it with veggie or turkey stir fry. Ive heard of it being served as Tabbouleh (chilled or warm). I read somewhere that if you set them in Water and let them germinate overnight you double the nutrient value.

I am staying on plan today by being present.

OMG! I am so sorry. Im praying for the absolute best outcome for you. Modern medicine and a positive outlook are together amazing healers.

Thanx everyone so much for your kind words. I knew when I wrote this that most of us go through this kind of thing but it is such a hard thing to describe. I needed to get the weirdness of it all out. Its all new territory for me and its nice to know that Im not the only one feeling this way.

Its really funny how even though my body is shrinking my mind isn't. I can really explain the headwork that is being done any better that that. I perceive my body getting smaller but my mind is struggling to wrap around the fact that I am not 344lbs anymore. For instance, I practice the power of attraction and when I am trying to visualize my ideal weight/size/appearance I see my body as I intend it to be, BUT the closer the visualization gets to my head the less I believe the picture and the more distorted it becomes. :w00t: Weird. In fact, the visualization becomes cloudy when I try to get a clear picture of my face or upper body being thinner. This is weird because I am not top heavy at all, I am quite the hour glass figure. But before the weight loss I thought I was top heavy, my large breast and torso fat were hiding my curves. I have had a hard time accepting myself smaller. The big # milestones freak me out and send me into subconscious self sabotage patterns. Ive been at 273 for about 2 months partly because the 260's are frightening. It all makes me realize how attached to my big girl image I am. Talk about addicted to misery. I hated being fat, I still do but it was all I knew for just about my whole life. I was a fat kid, a fat teenager and a fat adult all the time hiding from this or that. As the shy nerdy child of checked out parents and the lonely and LIVID teenager of those same parents I ate to quiet the teasing and to confirm the feelings of not being good enough. As an adult I am still struggling with feeling like I am good enough and that I deserve to be loved and respected. Ive accepted myself at 260lbs. So now I can focus on getting there. Ive made a lot of progress this last couple of months and one of the most important realizations I have made was that I must accept myself in a smaller package before I can manifest it. Normally I would never post something this revealing and while part of me wants to backspace this whole page, I wont. I didn't intend on writing most of this but apparently it needed to get out. I'm a borne writer so I should know that sometimes writing it out helps me work it out. but thats another can of worms. Who knew it wasn't all about the food.

Its really funny how even though my body is shrinking my mind isn't. I can really explain the headwork that is being done any better that that. I perceive my body getting smaller but my mind is struggling to wrap around the fact that I am not 344lbs anymore. For instance, I practice the power of attraction and when I am trying to visualize my ideal weight/size/appearance I see my body as I intend it to be, BUT the closer the visualization gets to my head the less I believe the picture and the more distorted it becomes. :rolleyes2: Weird. In fact, the visualization becomes cloudy when I try to get a clear picture of my face or upper body being thinner. This is weird because I am not top heavy at all, I am quite the hour glass figure. But before the weight loss I thought I was top heavy, my large breast and torso fat were hiding my curves. I have had a hard time accepting myself smaller. The big # milestones freak me out and send me into subconscious self sabotage patterns. Ive been at 273 for about 2 months partly because the 260's are frightening. It all makes me realize how attached to my big girl image I am. Talk about addicted to misery. I hated being fat, I still do but it was all I knew for just about my whole life. I was a fat kid, a fat teenager and a fat adult all the time hiding from this or that. As the shy nerdy child of checked out parents and the lonely and LIVID teenager of those same parents I ate to quiet the teasing and to confirm the feelings of not being good enough. As an adult I am still struggling with feeling like I am good enough and that I deserve to be loved and respected. Ive accepted myself at 260lbs. So now I can focus on getting there. Ive made a lot of progress this last couple of months and one of the most important realizations I have made was that I must accept myself in a smaller package before I can manifest it. Normally I would never post something this revealing and while part of me wants to backspace this whole page, I wont. I didn't intend on writing most of this but apparently it needed to get out. I'm a borne writer so I should know that sometimes writing it out helps me work it out. but thats another can of worms. Who knew it wasn't all about the food.

I am staying on plan today because I hate being fat. Bottom Line.

I would have to say the curve of my waist. I cant stop touching it.

Im staying on plan today because I NEED to. Ive been struggling in my life and my weight loss is suffering.

Do it! Glouster is right, seize the opportunity even if it'll leave you dead tired. Old eating habits are like zombies, they just dont die. In fact I have decided to load up on the part time jobs for the same goal of saving for plastics. Try it, you can always quit later.

Congrats! I love the ring pop!

I love halters and tankinis even though I have big boobs and cottage cheese thighs. I bought a nice halter tankini from Macy's about 2 years ago. It has a really fun blue and white pattern with a short black skirted bottom. As a cover up I usually wear this white terry polo dress I bought at Target or my hot pink silk sari. KikiVal315 that is just my speed, in pink.! It is sexy but I can still dive in and jump off of the pool floor with it on without fear the girls will pop out. It must be said that I refuse to wear black bathing suit. My favorite bathing suit was a cherry red halter 1 piece (no skirt). I know most people would disagree with me on no black suits but heres the logic: I figured a long time ago that I was 346lbs at the beach/pool and no black suit is gonna make me look 146lbs. So I said screw it and now I wear color and lots of it, no florals though(Im afraid of looking like a walking jungle). I am, as we speak, trying to talk myself out of buying a retro white malliot swimsuit. I live in NYC and I go to the beach and pool with hundreds of thousands of other people (literally). I lost my modesty , insofar as swim wear, long ago.

Chickie your TT results are great. Your before looks just like mine! One of my biggest fears about getting tucked was that I would lose my hour glass figure. You have put my fears aside. Thanks!

Im staying on plan tomorrow because I NEED to get it together.

I posted this on the wrong challenge thread...anywho here it is: I know i am a bit late with this BUT...I am going to commit to 20 hrs of exercise this month. I only got to the gym once this week, I did 45 minutes on the elliptical. On Wednesday I went for a 2 mile walk, about a 1 hour in total including. I saw the actor Lawrence Fishburne during that walk. . I but I made up for no gym with 7 hours of shopping, most of which was spent chasing my 2 year old cousin around the stores. Subtracting travel time and lunch it was about 5 hours of walking and toddler wrangling. So...I am calculating 7 hours this past week. PLUS 1 hour today. 15mins w/trainer, 20mins on the elliptical, 25mins FitV aerobics show. Thats 8hrs. __________________

I havent. You should ask your doctor.

Thanks so much Georgia Girl.

Hey ladies. I haven't been doing to well either. I found out 2 things: that I am severely deficient in D, B1, B6, B12, and Iron. Pretty much my body was malnourished and freaking out. I was pale, weak, having weird pains, severe fatigue, brittle hair and dry, dry ,dry skin. I'm now taking so many pills its crazy, but I do feel better. And that my home scale is 3.5lbs off. So I actually weight almost 4lbs more than I thought. But I I round down:tongue:. To be honest this all threw me for a loop. So much so, I ate my way through my recovery week. BUT, Last week I returned to my exercise and better eating. I did so well I lost 10lbs! 6 of which, I gained in a week! I guess I needed those Vitamins. I'm starting to think these deficiencies were what was slowing my weight loss. Sorry for the long story Anywho....I am adjusting my stats for my actual weight. All in all I am down 4lbs! Start Goal Current Lost Still To Lose Chocolate_Snaps.......277.........263.......273.........4..........10

Im In! I really need to get back into the groove of daily exercise.

Im in! I tried this sometime ago but got sidetracked by illness. I will start tomorrow, shooting for Tues, Thurs, and Sat.