momma_ta_3

Hi I was banded with the 10 cc band 4 years ago at 315lbs. I lost 110 pounds. I got preggo in 2006, all Fluid was let out of band so had 0 restrictions after pregnancy was 267lbs. Got band filled, but got preggo again, no restriction, had baby 6 months ago, now at my highest depressing weight of 345lbs. I am sad, discourgaged, but optimistic. I just had a fill again (and using good birth control) and hoping to get to 225lbs. Thats my goal for now. I am going to try soo hard to do the right thing and since my hubby does not want me to lose weight, need all the support I can get. That is why I joined. I am 345 lb, only 34 and I feel like I am in my early 60's. My knees hurt and I have no energy to run around with my toddler. I hope this time it works. Need all the encouragement I can get, so feel free to drop me a message

Cassie, you are absolutely right. I actually have 3 children and they are the main reason I NEED to lose weight. Betsy, My whole family (mom, uncles, etc) is chubby, I have never wanted to be thin or what is considered normal for my height. I think everyone have there ideal... my absolute ideal is about 190. I am going to have to convince my hubby to allow me to do this. If need be I will set up conseling with the church staff to help him deal with my weight loss. I may need conseling for myself if I do not figure out why do I do this to myself.. Last night even with restriction, I i put about 1.5 cup of food in a dish and just had to eat it. I could not bring myself to throw it away. I threw up twice before saying I need to just shut my eyes and throw it away. I am working on myself, and these issues I will no longer accept as normal for me, I will conquer those demons that keep me captive in this body of fat.

Hey Jacqui, My hubby cares about my health, but he is a Jamaican. In fact his pick up line was "Fatty, you know you Got it". (Fatty is a compliment in Jamaica) Jamaicans love themselves some plump women. I think if I do not lose it too fast maybe he will not notice as much. I actually love plumpness, but not this plump...hence my goal of 225. Who knows when I get to 225 maybe I will decide on 190. But not any lower.