Use those experiences as fuel to move towards your goals. My goal is to shock the hell out of my ex husband who was the biggest w....r in the world to me. He used to oink at me when we were eating. He'd make fun of me in front of my friends, he'd tell me I was sexualy repulsive. I even found a condom in his pocket when i was 8 and a half months pregnant. I left him and he's now married to a size 0 woman who has as much personality as a knat! So, one day when I've lost all of my weight, i'm going to show him just what he missed out on! I'm done crying tears for myself, now I'm taking back my conrol and using those experiences to empower me! I will never feel the way he made me feel again! You have the power in your life sweetie, you just gotta learn to own it ;o)