tonya66

I'm soooo jealous! I don't get mine until 1/18, I am going nuts!

Hello all - my state (Oklahoma) is in a state of emergency, we have over 900 thousand homes & business without power, including mine. We were hit by an ice storm and it looks like a major tornado has ripped thru our town. I lost my power on Monday and as of this morning it is still not on. My company was closed Monday & Tuesday due to no power and today we are running off generators. We have been staying with my mother in law who did not lose power and let me just say, I've been bad. I know I need a fill so badly, but I shouldn't use that as an excuse. I've eaten too much and eaten whatever I've wanted, I hate myself when I have no self control! Anyhow, I hope everyone is doing okay and I'm hoping I get my power back today, if not I will lose over $400 worth of meat in our deep freezer.

Crishell - good job with Thanksgiving! Juno - if you keep barfing, I think you need an unfill. You don't want to cause more problems with continuing to PB.

Well lets see where do I begin. I guess I can start off with I NEED A FILL! We had a huge ice storm, the entire state is in a state of emergency, over 900 thousand homes & business are without power, including mine. I was off work Monday and Tuesday due to no power, and finally today they are running our office off generators, so I was forced to come in. yuk. My home is still without power, hoping it will be back on today. Eating has been so off. I've been staying with my mother in law and eating her cooking - and desserts. I've eaten so much and I have avoided the scales so I'm not sure how much damage I have done. I have no excuses and I think I've used the excuse (I need a fill) too many times. I do need a fill, but I also need some will power and self control, and lately, I've had neither. I cannot wait until January 18th until I can get a fill. I cannot go on like this! I need to focus and stay on plan, I need to practice some self control and NO MORE EXCUSES!

Well lets see where do I begin. I guess I can start off with I NEED A FILL! We had a huge ice storm, the entire state is in a state of emergency, over 900 thousand homes & business are without power, including mine. I was off work Monday and Tuesday due to no power, and finally today they are running our office off generators, so I was forced to come in. yuk. My home is still without power, hoping it will be back on today. Eating has been so off. I've been staying with my mother in law and eating her cooking - and desserts. I've eaten so much and I have avoided the scales so I'm not sure how much damage I have done. I have no excuses and I think I've used the excuse (I need a fill) too many times. I do need a fill, but I also need some will power and self control, and lately, I've had neither. I cannot wait until January 18th until I can get a fill. I cannot go on like this! I need to focus and stay on plan, I need to practice some self control and NO MORE EXCUSES!

I'm staying on plan today because I have been off since Sunday! No more excuses!

Trust me, I don't think you really want to know. lol. I'm glad to see I wasn't the only one who got suckered into it. Well, from what I can remember - it's been awhile - they take something out of pregant womens urine and basically inject you with it, its supposed to speed up matabolism, burn fat, blah blah blah. I do remember losing weight, but I only did it for a few weeks. Couldn't afford it. Now I look back and say "what the H*LL was I thinking? Gross, but I was willing to do anything to lose weight! I wish I could have all the money back I spent on all the weightloss pills, diets, equipment. I would be a rich woman!

Oh Newgirl, I'm the sugaraholic of all! Its not milkshakes, but anything else with sugar, I'm eating! My downfall lately has been the frozen coffee drinks, so I guess thats kinda like a milkshake. How do I deal with it - lately, I haven't. I know the longer I stay away from sugar, the more I can avoid it. But one bite and I'm hooked. I'm having a hard time right now with it myself.

PS - this post is on page 1 by NewSho. Posted in June of 2006.

I was going back reading some of the post older post (this was 2006) and it is amazing how many were struggling and wondering if they would get to goal, but look at her now, she is PAST goal! in a year too! Her signature now says she has lost 150 lbs in 1 year. A size 6! I hope she can see this post now and respond how differently she might feel now.

Deal, see you in 5!

I don't think its a cop out for not telling. Like WASaBubbleButt stated, I told everyone about my previous diets, like my 7 month liquid diet, my atkins, my WW, my Jenny Craig, my Nutri-system, my phen-pen, my other diet pills, my (don't laugh at this one) urine injections - gosh I still can't believe I tried that diet. The list goes on, and on. Well, it didn't work....I still failed!

Whatever reason people don't tell, its their business, that why we have the HIPAA law. Some are more open, some are more private. I just have mixed emotions about telling/not telling. So until I can figure it out, I've kept my mouth shut. A few people do know, like my mom, my DH and my cousin who had WLS (RNY), she has been open about her surgery and told everyone. Well, now she wishes she hasn't. I have actually lost more weight than she has with the band, weird.

My doc takes every bit of my fill out everytime I go in for a fill and we are always missing about .5 to .7cc's, he said there is no way he can get it all out because the tubing always holds some. So I think its about .5 to .7 in the tubing, just from the 7 different fills I've had.

Sula, here is what I think - according to Welcome to LAP-BAND.com. You should be full after eating 3 oz of food and not be hungry for 4 to 5 hours later. If you can eat more than 3 oz of food, (depending on how much more) then you probably need a fill. If you get hungry sooner, you probably need a fill. As far as PB's, I don't think any amount is normal. I think if you PB alot you need to re-examine your eating pattern, how big are your bites, are they dime size or smaller, if not, maybe the bites are too big, 2nd, how fast do you eat, do you put your fork down between bites? If you are pbing a long, then sometimes the eating pattern should be examined. For me, I am feeling like I need a fill because I rarely if any PB. Its happend 1 x, then the last fill was too tight so I PB'd on my own saliva, so I'm thining 3.8 was too lose, and 4.0 was too tight, maybe 3.9ccs will be just right? I'm hoping the doc will fill me up to 3.8 1/2 or 3.9 when I go in, I'm going to talk to him about it. I wish I could get in sooner but can't get in until 1/18/07.

Man, lately its been too much. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. Having a hard time lately. TOM even came 10 days early! Yesterday I ended up getting a dinner down at our cafeteria - 4 breaded chicken strips, a huge pile of french fries. I was starvin, but when I started eating, I was only able to eat 4 of french fries and 2 strips, then I was full. So I was happy I still have some restriction, but I was hungry again about 3 hours later. I'm ready to get my fill and I still have 5 weeks to go! I hate that it takes so long to get into a fill. I don't want to use it as an excuse to just eat, however, I'm really having a hard time right now. I just feel like crying all the time, I guess I'm going thru some type of depression or something, its just weird. I'm so emotional these days, and having TOM come early doesn't help. Monday is my 19 year wedding anniversary, so DH bought me a beautiful rhinestone belt (Kippy belt) which I love, not sure if you guys know what a kippy belt is, but they are gorgeous and hard to find. Anyhow, he surprised me and bought me a new one with some new cole haan boots, So I should be happy. Anyhow, I guess I'm just depressed because I haven't lost weight in a long time, and I really wanted to get to 155 by my 1 year, and I know its not going to happen. I haven't been able to get below 167, keep bouncing from 167 to 172 the entire month. I know I just gotta get a grip on myself and be committed and quit complaining and just do it.

wt - 171.4 Well, I finally figured out why my weight is bouncing! Woke up this morning and had my visit from TOM, EARLY! He was not due to visit until another 10 days! Weird, I've always been late, not early, especailly not 10 days early! I woke up in a bad mood. I feel bad yelling at my daughter and DH, they were both walking around on egg shells this morning. I've finally calmed down, but I hate that I acted so bad toward them this morning. I think I will just sit in my office today and not talk to anyone at work, just not in the mood to deal with people today, not sure why I'm in such a fowl mood, but I suppose it must be PMS. Man, somtimes I hate being a woman!

wt - 171.4 Well, I finally figured out why my weight is bouncing! Woke up this morning and had my visit from TOM, EARLY! He was not due to visit until another 10 days! Weird, I've always been late, not early, especailly not 10 days early! I woke up in a bad mood. I feel bad yelling at my daughter and DH, they were both walking around on egg shells this morning. I've finally calmed down, but I hate that I acted so bad toward them this morning. I think I will just sit in my office today and not talk to anyone at work, just not in the mood to deal with people today, not sure why I'm in such a fowl mood, but I suppose it must be PMS. Man, somtimes I hate being a woman!

Twig, you can do it! You are going thru what many call Bandster Hell, the first 6 to 8 weeks until you get your fill and off of the mushies. Most of us had "buyers remorse" after banding too, I know I did. I also mourned the loss of food and felt I would never be normal again. As Jack said, it does get better everyday, I promise you it does, so hang in there and just know this is just a temporary phase of the plan. Hugs!

Thats a great compliment coming from a teenage boy. The other day my son's friend told him that if his dad (my dh) every kicked the bucket, he was moving in on me. lol. He then told him I was hot. My son was totally grossed out that one of his friends thought his mom was hot. I loved it. :eek:

I had mine sized about 25 lbs from goal, my wedding rings went from a size 8 to a size 6. I just had my Grandmothers ring that I inherited re-sized as well, down to a size 6 1/2 for my right hand. I have numerous rings that I inherited from my Grandmother that are different types of precious gems, I've been trying to get them re-sized a few at a time, the jewler is charging $75 per ring, it can add up. So I would wait until your closer to goal then get them resized. If you must wear something, buy a cheap knockoff wedding set ($10 - $20) to wear until your ready to get one sized. I almost lost mine in the ocean before I got mine re-sized, so be careful wearing them when they are too big.

I can certainly understand that. We all know that the band is just a tool, and I know for me, I've worked really hard to lose the weight I've lost. So I feel that I've done it, not the band. However, there was about 3 months this summer when my life was in turmoil (got hurt, house completely flooded, gma died, the list goes on) and I ate whatever I wanted, lots of sugar. In my pre-band days, I would have gained 20 - 40 lbs (I've done it in the past many times), but with the band, I gained very little. It was then that I realized the band will not let me get fat ever again. I was able to maintain, or go up just a few pounds, which was simply amazing to me. So, for that, I am so grateful for the band! I know that I will never weight over 200lbs again! I know I feel like I've done all the work, but pre-band, I was never able to get under 190 lbs, I am now smaller than I have been in over 17 years. So its a wonderful tool to help me. I've had to make the right choices, I've had to exercise, and I've had to use the band as a tool. Indiogirl, you've done really good on your weightloss! I told everyone at work and my DH family that I had a hernia repair (which I did), but I think they are a little suspicious and they just don't talk about my weightloss (my DH family). People at work are always complimenting me, by I think the people who suspect something just stay quiet. I just don't bring it up and they don't either.

Here is some more info on the sleeve over at obesityhelp.com. Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy Forum (VSG) - Home

Another reason I didn't want to tell people - I was embarrased that I couldn't do it on my own. I don't feel this way at all now, and again, I wish I would have been more honest in the beginning. I'm proud that I decided to take control of my obesity related issues, just like someone takes control of their high blood pressure or any other medical problem. There were just so many issues in the beginning and I just felt that it would be easier not to tell people, I remember reading a post where they said you can always go back and tell people if you decide to, but you can't "un-tell" people. It made sense to me - so I chose the secretcy. Again, now I want to run up to everyone that has weight problems and tell them about the band. I have to refrain myself because having WLS is a personal decision and not for everyone. And who am I to judge someone that in my eyes is overweight, maybe they are happy with the way they are and that is their business. So, I just keep to myself about it. I do still feel guilty when people ask me how I am losing my weight and I tell them "eating less". Because I feel like they think they are a failure when they eat less and then gain it back - I've been there myself. So I'm just at a point where I'm trying to decide How to come out, or should I just keep quiet. Its a confussing issue for me.

I guess for me, it was embarrasment. I just knew how embarrased I would feel (this is just me) failing another diet. Now, looking back, I wish I would have told more people but now I feel like I look like a total liar going back and telling people. Not sure if it makes sense, but thats just the way I felt, at the time anyhow. I do feel differently now.