Sweetnjulia

I was a thin and active child and teen. My father become extremely abusive during adolesence. Even though I was a small girl my father loved to call me fat and worthless. I developed eating disorders and then binge eating, but eventually stopped purging =)  I was a talented athlete and wroked out like crazy, thus my weight stayed in check. I went to college and became very ill on the Depot Provera birth control shot where i was unable to get out of bed for months and gained amazing amounts of weight quickly. I could never get rid of it and became comfortable and protected being fat. I had a million friends and wonderful boyfriends, no matter my size. I turned 26 and my sister asked me to be her maid of honor. My sister is a tall, thin, blond woman. I am short fat and brunette. We are two different people in looks and personality. I said I would take on the maid of honor, and little did I know that would have been a mistake. I wasn't that upset about being fat for her wedding, but her friends made it very clear i was fut worthless scum. I spent 4 days in a Mexican beach resort from heaven and spent every minute hiding in my room. They would not speak to me, or look at me. I was a joke. I decided right then and there I'd rather die than ever feel or be treated like that again. A week later I was on the phone with my insurance company to see what options I had.I had the surgery 6 months ago and have had 4-5 fills, I have not lost a pound and have no restriction. I have pain and discomfort... God help me to not give up