I've been married (happily) for 16 years. He's a good man, good father, works hard and has excepted me whatever size I was (surgery day size 28) . I never looked or even considered another man, until now.... not that I have someone... I do not! I'm just always fantasizing and kinda lookin' around more. Given a real opportunity to cheat, I would like to believe I couldn't do it..... but I have doubts. I've lost 140 lbs.... I wear a size 10 jeans! I feel like a different person with different options everywhere - and this may include men. There are so many emotions linked to that also... it's exciting, it's fun, it also carries guilt and disappointment. I feel trapped between the desire to "live a little" and have fun - be kissed, be held, be complimented, be "wanted", etc.... and the commitment I made.