WOW. My story is alot like yours. I feel the same way you do. I was doing good(cheating) but still doing ok. I got pregnant and now have a beautiful 9 week old baby girl. I need to jump back into things and get back on track the right way this time. I really would love to blog and post my story but I am not the best with computers and don't know where you go on this site to do so. If anyone can help me and walk me thru that would be great. I would even love if someone could call me and talk me thru it.