losingjusme

i found it before surgery and it has been invaluable!!

oh my god ... that was hilarious! *tears*

for the next 2 weeks i resolve the following: - i will not weigh myself except on weigh-in Mondays - i will get my liquids in - i will continue to log my foods on myfooddiary.com - i will consume more calories by making mostly healthy choices - i refuse to deprive myself

... i am afraid of failing. i really truly am. i know i have done well, but the past 2 weeks have sucked so bad. last week i lost less than 2 pounds, i know that the loss will slow down as i progress in my journey, but it's just been not good. in fact, i gained 3/4 pound today. :cry i am trying to do the right thing. i am eating "OK" (yes, it could be better) and working my ass off at the gym, but i am still having heartrate problems - i cant seem to get it high enough. i top out about 140 and that is me really pusing myself. it is like my heart is in better shape than my body. which is somewhat of a good thing, but damn i wish i could get my HR up to the 150s for awhile. REALLY burn those calories. today during my training session, i burned less than 200 cals in 20 minutes. that is nothing ... i can burn 200 cals in about 12 mins on the treadmill. i fear that my body is saying "OK, you're done, you've lost 63ish pounds and you will not lose any more"... i realize this isnt even a plateau but when you work SO hard and do not have the results on the scale it is just very discouraging. during our training session today, Kari told me to start eating the carbs ... she is afraid my body is in 'starvation mode'. the past few days - low cals was 822, high cals was 1268. exercise cals low was 471, high was 1531 cals burned. average is about 995 a day. she told me to eat - she even said have a "small muffin" ... granted she also said lots of fruits / veggies, but she told me to have a muffin!!! i cant eat a muffin, i just mentally cannot do it. i used to have 2 bottles (2 "servings" each) and sometimes 2 muffins for breakfast, i cannot afford to go into that habit again. everyone says that people who have WLS replace one bad behaviour (eating) with another. i am honestly starting to think that my behavior is obsessing about my weight/weighing myself (and working out, but they are tied together). it doesnt help my mood that i had a huge "meeting" today and i dont think i was very successful. i will find out by Friday. i just want to cry right now. DH is somewhat ambivalent about it saying i did all i could and there is nothing i can do about it now ... well no shit sherlock, cant i just wish things were better? a little support here would be great thank you very much! ok ... enough of my book. i need to go to bed so i can work out tomorrow. for the next 2 weeks i resolve the following: - i will not weigh myself except on weigh-in Mondays - i will get my liquids in - i will continue to log my foods on myfooddiary.com - i will consume more calories by making mostly healthy choices - i refuse to deprive myself

... i am afraid of failing. i really truly am. i know i have done well, but the past 2 weeks have sucked so bad. last week i lost less than 2 pounds, i know that the loss will slow down as i progress in my journey, but it's just been not good. in fact, i gained 3/4 pound today. :cry i am trying to do the right thing. i am eating "OK" (yes, it could be better) and working my ass off at the gym, but i am still having heartrate problems - i cant seem to get it high enough. i top out about 140 and that is me really pusing myself. it is like my heart is in better shape than my body. which is somewhat of a good thing, but damn i wish i could get my HR up to the 150s for awhile. REALLY burn those calories. today during my training session, i burned less than 200 cals in 20 minutes. that is nothing ... i can burn 200 cals in about 12 mins on the treadmill. i fear that my body is saying "OK, you're done, you've lost 63ish pounds and you will not lose any more"... i realize this isnt even a plateau but when you work SO hard and do not have the results on the scale it is just very discouraging. during our training session today, Kari told me to start eating the carbs ... she is afraid my body is in 'starvation mode'. the past few days - low cals was 822, high cals was 1268. exercise cals low was 471, high was 1531 cals burned. average is about 995 a day. she told me to eat - she even said have a "small muffin" ... granted she also said lots of fruits / veggies, but she told me to have a muffin!!! i cant eat a muffin, i just mentally cannot do it. i used to have 2 bottles (2 "servings" each) and sometimes 2 muffins for breakfast, i cannot afford to go into that habit again. everyone says that people who have WLS replace one bad behaviour (eating) with another. i am honestly starting to think that my behavior is obsessing about my weight/weighing myself (and working out, but they are tied together). it doesnt help my mood that i had a huge "meeting" today and i dont think i was very successful. i will find out by Friday. i just want to cry right now. DH is somewhat ambivalent about it saying i did all i could and there is nothing i can do about it now ... well no shit sherlock, cant i just wish things were better? a little support here would be great thank you very much! ok ... enough of my book. i need to go to bed so i can work out tomorrow. for the next 2 weeks i resolve the following: - i will not weigh myself except on weigh-in Mondays - i will get my liquids in - i will continue to log my foods on myfooddiary.com - i will consume more calories by making mostly healthy choices - i refuse to deprive myself

well, i consider myself more of a "work in progress" than a success story. today is my 3 month bandiversary and i have lost 64 pounds. when - 09 Oct 2006 why - 402.5 pounds :faint: :faint::faint: who - Marsden, DFW area insurance paid 90% - united healthcare didnt hurt much, more discomfort. i was extremely tired the first few days. what has changed - pretty much everything. i am loving (and living) life now. i am 10,000,000% more active. i work out in the gym at least 8-13 times a week. i can play with my daugher - i can chase her around and have fun... i can stand for long periods of time. i have taken 3 or 4 kick boxing classes and LOVED them ... so not much has stayed the same. pictures are attached.

i've just tried the V8 Splash (berry blend) and it is simply amazing ... i LOVE it!! i have not tried the diet yet though. any reviews on that?

<< in <IN NO WAY defending what they said>> i didnt hear / see it, but do you think they were saying that as a 'dig' to Star Jones ?

hi Fran, yer not dumb ... TWOterville is the transition from 300s to 200s ... 200s to 100s is ONEderland

i have 36 pounds to twoterville ... ahhhhhhh!!!!

ahhhh ... i LOVE this thread!!! i, too, make the committment to myself to succeed!!

i always get so emotional when i take pictures. i know i have been losing weight but to actually SEE proof is just jaw dropping... i will post pics on losing-jusme.com later but i put a pre-surgery vs now pic up in the before & after pics section. i cant believe it is 3am ... i guess i am just too psyched to sleep ... since last picture session: i have lost 12 pounds i have worked out 21 days - many days had 2 session in them i have attended three hour long kick boxing classes i have found a new latte at starbucks that is absolutely amazing and perfect for breakfast for me (it has 10 - 14 gms of protein based on size) Cinnamon Dolce Latte. a tall with whole milk is 260 cals. it is truly devine!! my heart is much healthier - i am actually having a difficult time getting my heart rate elevated i fit in a 1x/2x - down from a 6x i feel sooo much healthier ok ... time for bed. 'night! :eek:

someone didnt work out today ... :eek: someone ate a ton today ... :eek: someone had dessert with dinner (not a bite, a whole piece) EEEEEEEEEEKKKK ... yup ... someone=me.. i was just way too tired to get up early to go work out this morning. i planned on leaving work early and going after work ... not so much ... i was asked to prepare a report that is going directly to our CEO's office (i work for a mAAjor airline...) double eeeek!!! so i was at work until about 630 finishing it up. so much for working out. sigh ... so i have a kick boxing class tomorrow morning. it is with the best teacher and should be fun. i may work out after that as well. we'll see what my weight is ... if it is above 339 7/8 i will spend a lot of time there this weekend. i did have a sorta NSV ... i have to dress up for work Monday (big meeting) and i pulled my skirt & jacket out of the closet - the one i bought last year and it never did quite fit and hasnt been worn - well it is big ... like really big. not sure if i will be able to pull it off Monday. i hope so cause i am tired of buying new outfits and them not fitting soon after ... oh damn, i am SO full from dinner. i cant wait to get my fill. i need it so bad. for dinner i had chicken fajitas ... all of the chicken, some queso, 2 tortillas and lots of onions ... oh and refried beans ... way too much ... dont forget the dessert!! i will do better tomorrow.

good luck!! keep us posted

i'd love to think that i could do it by myself, but then reality smacks me across the face - no way on God's green earth could i do this by myself. i am using this tool in every way possible. eating right and exercising. the band and i are in a partnership ... the bad helps me eat right, and i work my ass off.

ohhhhh, i feel your pain ... it was TOM during my pre op diet as well. i didnt do nearly as well as you have been though. i had several "last suppers" and i only lost about 6 pounds. you are doing fabulous!!! btw - the cinnamon dulce lattes ... OMG!!!! SOOO amazing!

i always get so emotional when i take pictures. i know i have been losing weight but to actually SEE proof is just jaw dropping... i will post pics on losing-jusme.com later but i put a pre-surgery vs now pic up in the before & after pics section. i cant believe it is 3am ... i guess i am just too psyched to sleep ... since last picture session: i have lost 12 pounds i have worked out 21 days - many days had 2 session in them i have attended three hour long kick boxing classes i have found a new latte at starbucks that is absolutely amazing and perfect for breakfast for me (it has 10 - 14 gms of protein based on size) Cinnamon Dolce Latte. a tall with whole milk is 260 cals. it is truly devine!! my heart is much healthier - i am actually having a difficult time getting my heart rate elevated i fit in a 1x/2x - down from a 6x i feel sooo much healthier ok ... time for bed. 'night!

well Tuesday is my 3 month bandiversary, so it is time to take more pictures. here is a before and during. i will post the transitional pictures to my website sometime tomorrow after i work out. the transitional pics show the progression month by month. thanks to LBT for being here for me .. i couldnt do it withoutcha!!

hi, congrats on your loss (and your better food choices). i still make some doozies .. i tried fitday and didnt really like it either so i went to myfooddiary.com. they do charge 9 or 10 a month, but it really helps me out. they have TONS of food in their library - even restaurants, etc... the one negative i have found though is it gives me a red frown if i eat less than 1000 calories ... i rarely eat above 1000 cals so i get lots of red frowns ... but anyway, i am not affiliated w/ them at all, just like their product. good luck and keep up the awesome job!!!

sorry you are having a rough time. please take care of yourself. you will be banded before you know it.

someone didnt work out today ... someone ate a ton today ... :scared: someone had dessert with dinner (not a bite, a whole piece) EEEEEEEEEEKKKK ... yup ... someone=me.. i was just way too tired to get up early to go work out this morning. i planned on leaving work early and going after work ... not so much ... i was asked to prepare a report that is going directly to our CEO's office (i work for a mAAjor airline...) double eeeek!!! so i was at work until about 630 finishing it up. so much for working out. sigh ... so i have a kick boxing class tomorrow morning. it is with the best teacher and should be fun. i may work out after that as well. we'll see what my weight is ... if it is above 339 7/8 i will spend a lot of time there this weekend. i did have a sorta NSV ... i have to dress up for work Monday (big meeting) and i pulled my skirt & jacket out of the closet - the one i bought last year and it never did quite fit and hasnt been worn - well it is big ... like really big. not sure if i will be able to pull it off Monday. i hope so cause i am tired of buying new outfits and them not fitting soon after ... :scared: oh damn, i am SO full from dinner. i cant wait to get my fill. i need it so bad. for dinner i had chicken fajitas ... all of the chicken, some queso, 2 tortillas and lots of onions ... oh and refried beans ... way too much ... dont forget the dessert!! i will do better tomorrow.

fantabulous!!! you are doing a wonderful job!!! :clap2::clap2:

harlito, i think you were the first person i spoke w/ on this board, you are such an inspiration to me... get back up and let's do this together. we can make it!! what are you eating? even if you eat a lot of a low cal food (i am eating mahi mahi b/c it is low in cals and high in protein), you can still lose. are you moving your body? if not, take small steps and work up to more. you can do this!!!

that is one thing i didnt do - take measurements ... of course the tape measure wouldnt be long enough for me ... you are doing great!

soooo close ... sooo very close ... yay!!! you did really well on your pre-op!!