CavyGuy

Since deciding on LB surgery a month ago I have casually mentioned I was going to do it, to a few friends.  Mostly I wanted to see their reaction.  Much to my surprise no one objected, no one said, "But you're not obese," no one said "diet and exercise" will do it, no one told me to rely on willpower.  They've all seen me go through Nutrisystem, Weight Watchers, Atkins, South Beach, diet and exercise, hard exercise...and so forth.  Then I realized it was me, that my body image was somewhat skewed, that I thought of how looked quite differently from how in reality I actually look.  Realization #2:  I don't look at my body in mirrors.  I did when I was "normal" weight.  I don't anymore.  I feel like I have lost part of myself, that there's a part of myself I no longer know, because I don't understand it and I cannot control it.  Wow.