jonesst

I have been fighting my weight since I was 30. I had always kept active and was able to stay around 15 to 20 pounds overweight most of the time. I knew that a genetic tendency to be overweight existed. When my father went into a coma and passed away 29 days later (06) and my sister (with polio) and I were left to care of our mother (invalid), I fell into stress eating and sort of quit caring about everything. I feel embarrassed that I have let myself get into this condition. I owe it to my family and especially to my little girl to get rid of this weight so I can become more involved. I have always been active: canoeing in Canada, ATV riding in West Virginia, golfing, camping, hiking, bow-hunting, and weight lifting and playing the banjo. I can no longer do most of that now. I am afraid to have this surgery. I feel that I will not like my life afterwards. Eating at restaurants has always been a recreational activity for my family on special occasions or just for the heck of it. I do not know how to deal with that issue yet.I am having trouble keeping myself clean, but I manage. It is embarrassing. I need some help from someone to convince me that I am doing the right thing or the wrong thing. I worry that in 20 or 25 years from now, this surgery will cause me some serious problems. I guess I am confused with so many questions I cannot answer.SJJ