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vanishingvixen

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  1. vanishingvixen

    To help pay for surgery...

    I anticipate my surgery being paid for by insurance. But I also know that some surgical centers have some add'l programs that may incur a cost. For example - the Optifast 2wk pre-surgery liquid diet is gonna cost me $300 out of pocket...
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    To help pay for surgery...

    (and a possible body lift, after I've kept the wait off for a year or more)...I will be on my super grind making jewelry (this of course, is in addition to my FT 9-5 job) check it out... especially for the ladies that are feeling EXTRA fine in their new bodies :thumbup:: www.ggxjewels.com Also - for those that have already had the surgery...what type of out of pocket expenses did you incur? I'm trying to build me a little LBS nest egg during my 6-9 month wait...
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    Sep2008 Shoot w/Olga B.

    Thanks. And YES! Typical model height is 5'9 and up. Must be proportioned. If you are serious, check out musecube.com
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    Out of Sorts

    if I’m just horomonal this week, or if it’s just a combination of so much going on in my life at one time. But I’m feeling like I’m crazy to think ill ever be “size healthy” (thanks to my girl Aja S. For that term *lol*) Now, I’ve always been comfortable being a “Size Sexy” chick (ie: “Good looking & well put together for a Plus-sized woman”. I heard LL Cool J use that term about 5 yrs ago while hosting the +size portion of the Rip the Runway fashion show on BET) in theory, at least – until recently. Not how I looked, but literally…how I felt/feel in my skin/clothes. If you know me/have seen me personally, I do, in fact carry this 300# well. I think that’s why some folks (excluding my closest friends) were shocked when they found out I was going to have WLS. The general response even from my nurses at the Dr’s office was: “But why? You look good girl! Now you tryna get all skinny?” No. I’m not trying to get skinny. I’m unconcerned with being a size 8 or 10 or even 12 for that matter. In fact, personally…I’d be most comfortable in the size 14-16 range (at whatever weight). I just want to be healthy is whatever ways that is. Taking off some of this dead weight, eating healthier, and being more active. Thereby increasing my lifespan (prayerfully) The “out of sorts” part comes in b/c as I’ve said, I’ve been doing a lot of research about the Lap Band. I joined a LB forum and have been communicating with lots of folks, and reading their personal journeys. Most, I’d say 80% have done extreamly well (versus gastric bypass, or the gastric sleeve that are also available). Then there are some, who’s weightloss is so slight (10lbs in a 3 month time period) that the whole thing seems pointless. *sigh* I just hope & pray that I’m not one that this is just a wasted effort. A moot experience altogether… Oh, I know what probably brought on this sudden moodswing of mine also. I went & bought a scale last night so that I can monitor my progress. *straightface* All my efforts of the past week have resulted in gaining a pound. WTF!? Working out, eating significantly smaller portions and controlling my fat intake. Drinking 64oz water each day. 3 square meals + nutricious snacks. Then my husband gets on the scale and has lost 5lbs – the only change in his eating has been a salad or two. *pulling my hair out* Needless to say, the scale is going back to the store – lest it discourages me to the point of journey derailment. So goes the life and ramblings of a Fat Girl…
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    Out of Sorts

    *blogging via crackberry. Pls excuse the word jumble, will edit later*
  6. vanishingvixen

    Out of Sorts

    if I’m just horomonal this week, or if it’s just a combination of so much going on in my life at one time. But I’m feeling like I’m crazy to think ill ever be “size healthy” (thanks to my girl Aja S. For that term *lol*) Now, I’ve always been comfortable being a “Size Sexy” chick (ie: “Good looking & well put together for a Plus-sized woman”. I heard LL Cool J use that term about 5 yrs ago while hosting the +size portion of the Rip the Runway fashion show on BET) in theory, at least – until recently. Not how I looked, but literally…how I felt/feel in my skin/clothes. If you know me/have seen me personally, I do, in fact carry this 300# well. I think that’s why some folks (excluding my closest friends) were shocked when they found out I was going to have WLS. The general response even from my nurses at the Dr’s office was: “But why? You look good girl! Now you tryna get all skinny?” No. I’m not trying to get skinny. I’m unconcerned with being a size 8 or 10 or even 12 for that matter. In fact, personally…I’d be most comfortable in the size 14-16 range (at whatever weight). I just want to be healthy is whatever ways that is. Taking off some of this dead weight, eating healthier, and being more active. Thereby increasing my lifespan (prayerfully) The “out of sorts” part comes in b/c as I’ve said, I’ve been doing a lot of research about the Lap Band. I joined a LB forum and have been communicating with lots of folks, and reading their personal journeys. Most, I’d say 80% have done extreamly well (versus gastric bypass, or the gastric sleeve that are also available). Then there are some, who’s weightloss is so slight (10lbs in a 3 month time period) that the whole thing seems pointless. *sigh* I just hope & pray that I’m not one that this is just a wasted effort. A moot experience altogether… Oh, I know what probably brought on this sudden moodswing of mine also. I went & bought a scale last night so that I can monitor my progress. *straightface* All my efforts of the past week have resulted in gaining a pound. WTF!? Working out, eating significantly smaller portions and controlling my fat intake. Drinking 64oz water each day. 3 square meals + nutricious snacks. Then my husband gets on the scale and has lost 5lbs – the only change in his eating has been a salad or two. *pulling my hair out* Needless to say, the scale is going back to the store – lest it discourages me to the point of journey derailment. So goes the life and ramblings of a Fat Girl…
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    To help pay for surgery...

    (and a possible body lift, after I've kept the wait off for a year or more)...I will be on my super grind making jewelry (this of course, is in addition to my FT 9-5 job) check it out... especially for the ladies that are feeling EXTRA fine in their new bodies : www.ggxjewels.com Also - for those that have already had the surgery...what type of out of pocket expenses did you incur? I'm trying to build me a little LBS nest egg during my 6-9 month wait...
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    Fatty Girl Recipes

    I'm sure I'll have to be creative...but so far, so good. Posting the link, onmly b/c it's far too much work to have to cross-post everything from my main blog! http://vanishingvixen.wordpress.com/category/recipes/
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    Fatty Girl Recipes

    I'm sure I'll have to be creative...but so far, so good. Posting the link, onmly b/c it's far too much work to have to cross-post everything from my main blog! http://vanishingvixen.wordpress.com/category/recipes/
  10. Im still a newbie - and curious as to how many DC area Bandsters (newly or awaiting) there are around these parts. Thinking of starting a social group. Thoughts? Bueller? Bueller? *lol*
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    June2007 Shoot with JB Styles

    *cheezin* Thanky ma'am. Working on it! *struttin*
  12. you are more than welcome!

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    Got Milk? Halloween 2008

    From the album: Mi Familia

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    Sexy me!

    this pic is the HOTNESS! I can dig it!
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    4 month progress

    You look fabulous!
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    epiphany

    you SO ROCK. you just have no idea... *hugggggggggg* "Six months ago I was a selfish, miserable, negative, argumentative, pessimistic jerk with a huge chip on my shoulder feeding on others' misery." *mouth hanging wide open* Wouldnt have guessed it in a MILLION years. When I read your first reply to my post, I thought "wow, he must be the Ambassador of Good Will & Encouragement" *lol* I honestly think we ALL kinda feel like this about ourselves at some point. I know I do. That why I blog to get it out. Most of my anger & bad attitude real like humor...which somehow inspires others, so I roll with it! I think being out of shape and miserable with how big i had let myself get played a big part in my attitude, too. On the serious side, we are all here as a means of support for one another on the journey. Attitudes are definately contagious...so PLEASE keep doing waht you are doing. You're awesome.
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    "Now I lay me down to eat..."

    “…I’m full but want a tasty treat…” *sigh* Undoubtedly, my "midnight feedings" – in which I pace in the kitchen & look for that special something to satisfy & sate (usually something sweet), usually between the hours of 11pm-1am – are the hardest part of this journey for me. I remember a time in the not too distant past that I would run the water in the kitchen to drown out the sound of my cabinet rummaging and cellophane paper wrap krinkling from the little debbie snack I’d try to sneak back into the bedroom. I should be ashamed *hangs head*:thumbup: I think its a step forward that I’m starting to notice my patterns and put an end to them. I’m sure there’s always a chance to relapse, but at least by not keeping the junk in the house anymore, my choices are limited. Of course, I will ALWAYS and FOREVER keep the obligatory chocolate candy bar stashed away “in case of emergency”…but even then, it’s just ONE bar, not an entire bag of mini’s Old habits die hard, its true. But new habits live in the light, to be nourished and cultivated into a way of life. I can do this. I. WILL. DO. THIS. *praying* “Jesus be an appetite suppresant” *then singing and channeling Carried Underwood* Jesus, take the wheel…
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    "Now I lay me down to eat..."

    I wish i liked cottage cheese... But, I am starting to research some other things to help me with that old pesky sweet tooth. Actually, the Slim Fast choco shake is excellent - put it in the freezer for about 30 mins so it gets really thick... But I def need to start getting used to the protein shakes & such for post-surgery...
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    Fatty Girl Food Journal

    Check it out here: http://vanishingvixen.wordpress.com/category/food-journal/ NOTE: What I'm eating may "seem" like alot - but TRUST - this is but a mere fraction of what I used to eat. I was given the advice to journal everything I eat, cut my portions & add water. (thanks @btrieger :thumbup:) I also check out my food choices on this site: http://caloriecount.about.com/
  20. vanishingvixen

    "Now I lay me down to eat..."

    “…I’m full but want a tasty treat…” *sigh* Undoubtedly, my "midnight feedings" – in which I pace in the kitchen & look for that special something to satisfy & sate (usually something sweet), usually between the hours of 11pm-1am – are the hardest part of this journey for me. I remember a time in the not too distant past that I would run the water in the kitchen to drown out the sound of my cabinet rummaging and cellophane paper wrap krinkling from the little debbie snack I’d try to sneak back into the bedroom. I should be ashamed *hangs head* I think its a step forward that I’m starting to notice my patterns and put an end to them. I’m sure there’s always a chance to relapse, but at least by not keeping the junk in the house anymore, my choices are limited. Of course, I will ALWAYS and FOREVER keep the obligatory chocolate candy bar stashed away “in case of emergency”…but even then, it’s just ONE bar, not an entire bag of mini’s Old habits die hard, its true. But new habits live in the light, to be nourished and cultivated into a way of life. I can do this. I. WILL. DO. THIS. *praying* “Jesus be an appetite suppresant” *then singing and channeling Carried Underwood* Jesus, take the wheel…
  21. vanishingvixen

    Fatty Girl Food Journal

    Check it out here: http://vanishingvixen.wordpress.com/category/food-journal/ NOTE: What I'm eating may "seem" like alot - but TRUST - this is but a mere fraction of what I used to eat. I was given the advice to journal everything I eat, cut my portions & add water. (thanks @btrieger ) I also check out my food choices on this site: http://caloriecount.about.com/
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    The Fat Mommy [@ the playground]

    Being the Fat Mommy at the playground (with the cherubic angel faced albeit a lil chubby) is NO. FUN. It was a very rude awakening for me about how people look at fatties like myself. And even moreso at the kids of these fat parents - especially if they display one iota of being a little rounder than the other kids. My daughter is beautiful, outgoing, funny, loving, affectionate...but I caught the looks of other parents - at me, then her, then me again, then her again, then a shaking of the head or look of...pity. I mean, really?? I was the ONLY parent out in the play area running around with my child - yet they looked at me like I shoud be ashamed...for being fat, and for having the nerve to be seen in public running around with my lil chubby toddler. Now, in my defense - GiGi was in NYC being spoiled by Auntie and G'ma. She put on a few pounds BUT, that doesn't mean that she is destined to be a fat girl like her mother. I've seen a lot of chubby toddlers with SKINNY parents, and aint nobody giving THEM the gasface. *gasfacing the ppl that gave ME the gasface* I'm on this journey so that I can be healthy, and live longer and have the opportunity to enjoy playing with my growing child. Not only to mention, to teach her healthy eating & living habits. I'm overly concerned about her lot in life in terms of body type and (future) self image...which makes me super sensitive to things like what happened yesterday. I was litterally in tears when we left, and typing thru tear-filled eyes now. I'm on my way to a better life...and my not-even 2 year old daughter hopefully won't remember me as the Fat Mommy that everybody else sees...but as the woman who would do anything in the world for her. IDK...reality checks are the hardest to cash. This will only make me more determined to stay the course. And bring my entire family with me on the way. Today - I'm going to hold my head high as we venture to yet another mall. And I DARE a mofo to give me the Fat Mommy glare.

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