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:frown:ok so todays not a good day today. i feel defeated and depressed. i just want today to end and i want to go back to bed and pull the covers over my head.

:frown:ok so todays not a good day today. i feel defeated and depressed. i just want today to end and i want to go back to bed and pull the covers over my head.

Hey guys. so the day is almost over. tomorrow i will have been on th liquid diet for 1 week and i have 1 week to go before my surgery. god i am sooo excited. ive been jumping around with joy all day and keep singing the line from that song that goes "i'm so excited and i just cant hide, im going to lose control and i think i like it!!!!" today also starts the 10 days straight that i have to work. ugh.:thumbup: that im not looking forward too. my husband is out of town on business so its hard when hes not here bc the bed is soooo cold. but he comes home on thursday or friday and when he gets home i will be able to go get a pedi/mani since i cant treat myself with food. i actually got on th scale today and i lost 7 lbs. i immediately emailed my friend to let her know. i kind of boycotted scales a long time ago but my friend made me get on the scale to see how much i have lost. everyone keeps asking me how can i do it? arent you hungry? oh i couldnt do that!!! my answer to them is yes i am hungry but this process is making me realize how much control food had over my life and my mood. i realized that i can be happy without certain foods. of course im hungry and EVERYTIME i smell bbq i want it. but im not starving. im not starving myself and it took my body 5 days to realize this. i just keep my mind on the prize at the end of this journey and my new life that is going to start. this site has helped me sooo much. i was about to quit the second day on the liquid diet but then i found this site and this feeling of happiness and accomplishment fell over me. i made this decision, i took the first step and yes i feel accomplished even though i havent finished myjourney yet. but i will get there. thats how i do it and make it through each day. we eat to live not live to eat. im making so many plans and gathering soo much recipes that its not even funny. besides my income tax comes in this week and im gettting a new cell phone!!!! (im addicted to technology :tt2:). so day 6 almost gone and day 7 here i come.....8 more days untill i have my surgery.....

Hey guys. so the day is almost over. tomorrow i will have been on th liquid diet for 1 week and i have 1 week to go before my surgery. god i am sooo excited. ive been jumping around with joy all day and keep singing the line from that song that goes "i'm so excited and i just cant hide, im going to lose control and i think i like it!!!!" today also starts the 10 days straight that i have to work. ugh.:biggrin: that im not looking forward too. my husband is out of town on business so its hard when hes not here bc the bed is soooo cold. but he comes home on thursday or friday and when he gets home i will be able to go get a pedi/mani since i cant treat myself with food. i actually got on th scale today and i lost 7 lbs. i immediately emailed my friend to let her know. i kind of boycotted scales a long time ago but my friend made me get on the scale to see how much i have lost. everyone keeps asking me how can i do it? arent you hungry? oh i couldnt do that!!! my answer to them is yes i am hungry but this process is making me realize how much control food had over my life and my mood. i realized that i can be happy without certain foods. of course im hungry and EVERYTIME i smell bbq i want it. but im not starving. im not starving myself and it took my body 5 days to realize this. i just keep my mind on the prize at the end of this journey and my new life that is going to start. this site has helped me sooo much. i was about to quit the second day on the liquid diet but then i found this site and this feeling of happiness and accomplishment fell over me. i made this decision, i took the first step and yes i feel accomplished even though i havent finished myjourney yet. but i will get there. thats how i do it and make it through each day. we eat to live not live to eat. im making so many plans and gathering soo much recipes that its not even funny. besides my income tax comes in this week and im gettting a new cell phone!!!! (im addicted to technology :thumbup:). so day 6 almost gone and day 7 here i come.....8 more days untill i have my surgery.....

this is my 3rd day on the optifast shakes and my surgery is on 3/11. i never EVER thought that it was going to be this hard. i never thought that i was addicted to food untill i couldnt have it. the first day was hell for me and all i want is something salty. my family is supportive but still they need to eat and i have great friends at work who are helping as well. im going to make it through this and cant wait for my surgery but i just want this phase to get easier bc sometimes i feel as though i cant do this. :eek: im nervous about after the diet and the liquid diet that i have to be on. im nervouse about the surgery period. i think i might start writing a blog that way i dont have to complain to my friends and family all the time. i just want this SOOOO bad. 13 days untill surgery

So my weekend is over and tomorrow i head back to work. i thought that this weekend was going to be the hardest and that i wasnt going to make it bc lets face it when you are on the go constantly like i am its easy just to grab an optifast and go. but when you are home all day and have to make breakfest, lunch, and dinner for kids its a completely different situation. sunday was the hardest day for me this weekend bc i had to cook the family dinner for everyone. :rolleyes2: so i made dinner and then i went to walmart until i couldnt smell or imagine the dinner anymore. but the important thing is that i made it and its gotten easier. this is a lifestyle change and i understand that which is why i am trying my damnest to make this work. i am determined especially when i looked at the calandar and seen that my surgery is basically next thursday 9.5 days to go!!!!! back to work tomorrow. just taking it one day at a time. :thumbup:

So my weekend is over and tomorrow i head back to work. i thought that this weekend was going to be the hardest and that i wasnt going to make it bc lets face it when you are on the go constantly like i am its easy just to grab an optifast and go. but when you are home all day and have to make breakfest, lunch, and dinner for kids its a completely different situation. sunday was the hardest day for me this weekend bc i had to cook the family dinner for everyone. :biggrin: so i made dinner and then i went to walmart until i couldnt smell or imagine the dinner anymore. but the important thing is that i made it and its gotten easier. this is a lifestyle change and i understand that which is why i am trying my damnest to make this work. i am determined especially when i looked at the calandar and seen that my surgery is basically next thursday 9.5 days to go!!!!! back to work tomorrow. just taking it one day at a time. :thumbup:

:tt2:ok people i have been on the optifast diet for 5 going on six days now and its gotten easier. thank you everyone for the support and love. i mean its still a challenge every day but the closer the surgery gets the more determined i become to finish this. and guess what? i figured out the ticker!!

My date is 3/11/10 too!!!! sooo excited

my name is ashley and im 25 years old. i am married to a wonderful man and have a gorgeous 5 yr old son who keeps me on my toes. i work full time in a call center and also am a full time student at USF. i live in florida so in the summer its shorts, tank tops, and bathing suits no of which i am comfrotable wearing due to my weight. i started this process a year ago in 3/2009 at 278 lbs. i now weigh 267lbs and have my date for surgery to be 3/11. so now i am on a liquid diet with the optifast shakes. i want to get down to my goal wieght which is somewhere between 140-150 lbs so i have a long way to go. this is one of the hardest things i have done bc i love food and to cook. not mention my husband is a chef and can eat whatever he wants and never gain a single pound along with my son. he is very supportive of me but no matter how hard he tries he will never understand how hard this is. please someone help me.

My name is Ashley and I'm a 25yr old mother with a wonderful son and a amazing husband. My husband loves me the way I am but sees that I need to get healthy and get some of this weight off. He sees that it is starting to affect me. As a child I was never overweight until I hit puberty then it all went down hill. I was very athletic and fluctuated between 160-180, until I got pregnant with my son when I was 20. I have never been able to get the weight off. I have been at my highest these past few years, 275lbs. My self - confidence has always been an issue for me, but i have been working on it and all i want right now is to lose this weight and be healthy, being skinny wouldnt be a bad thing either. :tongue_smilie: My weight hasnt caused any other health problems yet but i dont want to give it a chance to. The only thing that it has affected is my ability to get pregnant. My husnband and i have been trying to get pregnant for 4 years now with no avail. :thumbup: My insurance makes you go through a 6 month diet program and if you miss one visit, bc you have to go every month, you have to start all over. needless to say that i have had a rough time bc when i started the program eveything was great at home then my husband lost his job and with only 3 months left to go i had to start the 6 month diet program all over again. so i started my journey back in 3/2009 and i just finished the 6 month diet program and got approval. my dr. requires a liquid diet for 2 weeks before the surgery with the optifast shakes and i am on day 4 with the shakes. all you can have with the shakes is sugar free calorie free drinks, popsicles, and jello. have you ever taste sugar free jello? its disgusting!!! i can also have broth if i get lightheaded or anything. the first day was hell for me. all i wanted to do was eat. i was exhausted and felt like crap. i went home and my family was having bbq chicken and yellow rice. i stuck my finger in the bbq sauce then made a cup of broth and cried myself to sleep. my husband is very supportive of me in doing this. he knows its something that i want BAD. so he was there to comfort me and tell me i could do it and it will be ok. it has gotten easier with each day but yesterday i wanted a smoothie soo bad i was good and didnt get one. when i got home i went with my husband to the store and he ran to bk. i told him i didnt want to go bc this is soo hard but we went ahead and went and my husband asked me if i wanted anything. i just looked at him and started crying and then it dawned on him what he did. he kept apologizing which made me cry even more and then i was able to calm down but as soon as i went home i went to bed. i dont blame him for it and i know he didnt do it on purpose but it still hurt somewhere inside. todays day 4 and like i said its gotten easier with each day so im hoping todays a good day.

thank you everyone for the support!! you dont know how much it means to me. i have support at home but i dont want to complain to my family bc then all i will hear is honey you know that you have to do it and its your decision. right now that isnt what i need to hear. they mean well but its just hard bc i have a big family which means big family dinners EVERYDAY. my husband eats all he wants to never gains an ounce bc his metabolism is soooo high. and he loves me the way i am but im not happy with the way i am. if you want to follow my sotry further i am going to start a blog here....i think it will help heres to day 4 and many more to come....:cursing:

Date of Surgery: 3/11/10 Where Surgery will be: Tampa, Fl Doctor/Center:Dr. Wil Aguila, Surgical Bariactics Center Seminar date: 3/2009 1st consult date: 3/2009 2nd consult: had the 6month diet plan that ended up stretching for 1 year Consults and tests completed: on the pre opt diet for 2 weeks. Tests still needed: check in for surgery How is surgery funded? Insurance Concerns? being able to eat to live and not live to eat and making it through the liquid diet Reason for banding? i'm 25 and 266 lbs. i have a 5 year old and want to set a good example of being healthy and being around for a long time for him. im also doing this for myself bc i want to be happy and healthy. :eek: