makailu72

For years I've been in denial.  I called myself heavy, chunky, big boned.  My excuse for being obese is I've had two children.  That excuse doesn't fly anymore when your oldest is in college and your youngest is in highschool and you're still 100 pounds overweight.  For years my weight has been yo yo.  The typical roller coaster.  I've tried numerous weight loss systems, diet pills, fad diets - you name it...if it was out there, I've tried it.  I would lose 30 pounds then gain 35 back.  My latest endeavor was 2 years ago - one year being on the weight loss roller coaster losing 40 pounds, another year putting all of the weight back on because of a recall - I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!  I finally decided it was time to stop playing around.  So I decided to start researching WLS.  I know of a few people who have had bariatric surgery with awesome results, but the thought of removing pieces of organs and playing with an internal organ system that God created in order for you to function scares me...so I decided the lapband would be an awesome option for me.  It will help me control my hunger and lose weight. As my children get older, I've started to re-evalute my life and what I want to do with the next 30 or 40 years of it.  The sad part about that was I saw my weight as an obstacle.  I love to volunteer - but am limited to how long I can do it and what I can do.  I'm currently going to school to become a nurse - however, this profession is demading both mentally and physically and being obese will not help me.  I came to the "Blogs" because I want to know what other people are experiencing before and after surgery.  Websites tell you about the product and the procedure, but they don't give real count experience as someone who has actually gone through the surgery.  I'm ready - I'm ready for a new start to a new life, a better healthier life that will be full of helping other people.  I go for the consultation with the doctor Monday, February 22nd.  I'm praying I have no problems with my insurance and getting everything approved will be effortless.  I know losing weigh is a journey, a journey that takes years - even a lifetime - but I'm ready to bring out the skinny girl that is trapped inside of this body and be the best person I can be mentally, physically, and spiritually.