Hi everybody. My name is Jessica, I'm 23 years old and lately I've been doing a lot of thinking about LAP-BAND® surgery.
Right now I'm in a constant push-pull struggle when it comes to my weight. I'm at my heaviest: 270 pounds (5'4"). I've tried dieting on my own and I've tried Weight Watchers. The most weight I've ever lost was 35lbs, then gained it all back with an extra 40 to find myself where I am now. I just joined WW again but I get so frustrated and discouraged because I know how hard it is to lose any weight, but how hard will it be to KEEP it off?? I don't think I can. My body is just too used to being this size.
My sister had gastric bypass two years ago and I've seen her go from a size 30 to a size 14 and, in typical sibling rivalry, I'm jealous. I can't stand to go shopping with her because she gets excited about everything she tries on, where I hate the way anything I try on looks, kwim? I've seen the pros of her weight loss surgery and I've also seen the cons. I wouldn't consider GB but LAP-BAND® calls to me because I read that it's such a minimally invasive surgery with so little recovery time. One thing that really weirds me out, though, is the foreign object in my body. I also worry because I might be looking at a move to Phoenix in the semi-near future and I don't know if I did decide to pursue surgery, if I would get it before the move and how would I do follow-up treatment after the move? Another part is that it's very hard for me to come to terms with the fact that surgery is actually an option. Like I said, I've always been obese, but I never really acknowledged it -- now here I am, 270 lbs, and that's nothing to joke about.
If any of that makes sense, lol -- it's late, I'm tired and my brain is fried from doing so much lurking around the boards.
Anyway, I just wanted to say hello And apologize in advance for any questions I may ask that I'm sure have been asked a million times over.
