Megg40

I have been overweight my whole life.  I was born fat and I'm still fat.  I have tried sooooo amny diests and programs.  I had success with a starvation diet, but one I started eating again, I gained it all back.  Now, I am too young to be old.  My body feels as if it is 90 and my mind feels 25....I have major pain in my knees due to my weight and am a candidate for a knee replacement, but I weigh to much.  I am hoping to have surgery in the next 30 -45 days and live a life full of hope health and happiness.  I know the band is a tool only, but I am comitted.  I have been comitted for a long time, just not seeing much results. There are so many things I want to be able to do physically, that right now, I just can't.  It makes me feel sad about my life.  Makes me feel I am missing out on so much, and truely I am.  When I meet with my surgeon for the first time, I will probably cry.  I'm crying alot these days.  I found out that I have all of my requirements met and I am so happy that I cry.  I am hoping this will be a wonderful experience for me and that I will be able to reach my goals.  I know there will be pain, change, emotions, .....I know it will not be easy.  I know that I have to do the work.  Once I see my surgeon, and know that this is for real, I will be starting a new life.  I am scared, excited, nervous, hopeful, and every other emotion I can think of....I am looking for friends along this journey and I would love to get and receive support.