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At my high school graduation I weighed 160 pounds . I had always tried so hard to be athletic, I tried to play volleyball, basketball and joined the track team. I was able to maintain my weight between 155-170 by playing sports.

By the end of my first year of college,  I ended up gaining the freshman 30 bringing my weight up to 190 pounds. By the time I graduated from college my weight was up to 220 pounds. Even though I walked everywhere, I was consuming too many calories.
What hurt me the most was that I had promised myself I would never graduate from high school fat, and I did. I promised myself I would never graduate from college fat, and I did. I promised I would never get married while I was so fat, and I did. I promised myself I would never get pregnant while I was so fat and I did.

After years of poor self esteem, shattered diet attempts, cruel comments, and abusing my own body, I am beginning to put an end to all this craziness. I am determined to free myself from this barbed wire ladened fat. I do not want to waddle, I do not want to feel stared at, I do not want to worry about what chair I can fit into when I walk into a room, I do not want to cringe when my husband touches me, I do not want to feel anxiety while eating, I do not want to avoid all my past favorite activities, I do not want to obsess about food anymore, I do not want to hear from compete strangers "you have such a pretty face" anymore, I do not want to be the fat one anymore. No more. I will succeed in freeing myself. Joining Labbandtalk is the beginning of a new me. A healthier, happier, twirling, obnoxiously happy me. I am starting my journey on finding a lapband specialist in Los Angles. I am currently getting referrels from friends but if anyone has any input let me know. I would love to keep you all posted on my journey on finding the right physician who will give me my new life!