Leo's baby

I don't really know where to begin....My weight has been a problem since I married for the second time. After one year of marriage, it was quite clear that I had made a mistake and yet I hung on. And the weight started to slowly stay with me...Sure, I tried different diets and workouts, but eventually the weight would be back. Lunch was always fast food, usually Subways, usually foot-long sandwiches with a very large pop and chips. Every day. For several years - this was due to my job location, the lack of facilities on the job site and the ease of getting fast food that didn't require to be kept prior to or cooked for lunch. Add to that the get-togethers with friends was always over dinner. I am an emotional eater and eventually i stopped feeling full. I ate when i wasn't hungry but when i was sad or depressed or lonely, which was most of the time. My job was the only thing that brought me mixed joy and anger. Joy at the job I was doing and those I took care of and anger at 'the system' and the 'administration' for the constraints always placed on me. Over the course of 14 years i had jobs that took me overseas. These jobs were very rewarding and i loved all of them, always wishing the end of the contract wouldn't come about. I thrived in those positions and remember them fondly because i was in decent shape and only 30 lbs over weight. The weight really packed on as the years went by that I was living with my spouse day to day. He was my downfall - that and my inability to see my own actions.My spouse took a job overseas and during that time, I was raped. I fell apart. I bearly kept my job - I actually lost a part-time job due to the depression I suffered. My spouse returned to a woman he bearly knew either in looks or attitude. And still the weight continued to climb to it's current number of 267. I finally had to take notice of what was happening to me because my body started to 'fail'. I seemed to have missed all the mental signals, so my mind made the signals all physical. And the tight chest that was only anxiety lead me to Dr. Kettelle and lap-band.