Then you are not ready! I was the same way a year ago when my sister had the surgery done. There was absolutely no way no how I was going to get the surgery done. Then I started to see the weight loss and was suprised by what she could actually eat and I said thats it. I am tired of being heavy and I am never going to change my way so I might as well get some help! I was banded on jan 14th, 2010 and so far it is the best decision I have ever made. I am down 32 lbs and feel GREAT!
Good luck with your decision. Only you know if you are ready for this. I have 5 people in my life who have had it done so I know I can do it!