I am sorry for all your troubles. Is it some comfort that there is a physical problem? I always think that figuring is out is 1/2 the battle. Hopefully, this will fix your reflux issues, and you can go on with life. For the 30 days unfilled staring you in the face, stare back! Don't let them win. Set a goal, make a plan and stick to it. A new goal that I am making fro February is to get in more exercise. I have been very busy with school, and not been able to do what I want and need to do. So I pledge to get out to walk or to the Y for at least 30 minutes, at least 3 times a week. I always have to remember that when I set a goal, to do it in small steps that are attainable!!!!! This I can do, no WILL do! You can make it thru this. Think about something you will do to help keep the weight down and let me know. I also find it helps when we know someone else is watching, (in a good way) It helps keep us accountable. Stay in touch and keep focused. Talk soon, Criss