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Super Excited. I got my date finally March 19th will be the day. I will be going next week to do the final stages of pre-op stuff, getting all my hospital stuff done, and getting my pre-surgery diet stuff. I will do the pre-surgery 2 week diet liquids only from the 5th to surgery date, and I will be all set to go. I can't wait. I have my support in place for when I have the surgery and when I am get done. I will be able to finally feel like the me I want to be. I am so tired of feeling like I do, and feeling like I can't do the things I want to do because I am to heavy and my body doesn't work right? I am going to do everything right and follow all my diet rules and do whatever I have to to keep up with my protein. I love myself, and I want to just be happy now!!! So thankful for this website for helping me to stay strong with this seeing the people post pictures and posts and reading everything has helped me tremendously!!! I am looking forward to passing that on and helping others with my pictures. Thanks and Good luck to you all!!!

This is really a repost of something I said yesterday but thought it was worth a blog entry
 
Watching my 600lb Life on TLC can be inspirational, aggravating and downright annoying. Many times I want to reach through the TV and slap patients but more importantly the non-supporting people in their lives. I will admit I have only seen a handful of episodes.
 
One thing I can tell you from being a 5'6 488 pound morbidly obese person is it was just a struggle to wipe my butt and it was to a point where I showered after to make sure I was clean and the shower alone was a task because of the aches and pains in my muscles and joints. Walking from my car to my office even with the use of an elevator took a lot out of me. I would last 10 minutes walking the grocery store with my wife and would end up going out to the car and wait for her to finish because I was out of breath and legs ached so bad.
 
I don’t recall eating food and gaining weight simply because I was lazy or didn’t care about myself. I didn’t eat with the intent of becoming morbidly obese to a point where I couldn’t do those simplest of daily life tasks. I have a serious junk food addiction and I loved it. I ate from the moment I wake up to the moment I went to bed.
 
I am not making excuses for myself or anyone else but keep in mind you’re watching an edited reality t.v. show. Do we really know what is going in these people’s lives? They edit the crap out of these things to create the draw and because everyone loves a train wreck and more often than not they will put those things front and center.
 
One thing I am certain about is I will always remain humble and will make sure I never become like the people who used to judge me. I was a terrible mess physically and eventually mentally and I am lucky to be where I am today. I absolutely refuse to forget my 488lb self. Sometimes I wonder why me? Why was I successful? Just because someone doesn’t care about themselves doesn’t mean they don’t WANT to care about themselves.
 
Hope is a very powerful emotion and it can make or break you