palmtreegirl70
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Overwhelmed...
palmtreegirl70 replied to palmtreegirl70's topic in Tell Your Weight Loss Surgery Story
I have been working so hard the past few weeks to start making positive changes in my life. I have completely cut out soda, and I am drinking Water and Crystal Light instead. I have been walking 2.25 miles per day. I have tried to make better choices in my eating. Today while walking in a local park, some teenage boys yelled "FATSO!" at me. I was devastated. I cried as I continued with my walk in spite of my desire to sit down and give up. How did I allow myself to get to this point? All the good feelings about myself and the progress I am making went right out the window. I feel like I am destined to be "the fat girl" forever. My first instinct is to eat my way through these feelings, but I am trying to be strong. This journey is much more than a physical one, isn't it? I have this ominous feeling that things won't work out for me...that perhaps I don't deserve this happiness in my life. Can anyone relate? -
Overwhelmed...
palmtreegirl70 replied to palmtreegirl70's topic in Tell Your Weight Loss Surgery Story
Losing weight is so much more than "eat less and move more" as we all know. Most of it is in our heads. I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I know that I use food to protect myself. I can lose weight very successfully, but I have never been able to keep it off. As soon as I get close to that magic number (200 for me), I sabotage myself and start right back up the scale. I use it as a wall. I know that after I am banded, I will have to fight through that 200 lb wall that has eluded me for so long. I get scared just thinking about it. However, what scares me more is living at 275 lbs while my life passes me by and my health suffers as a result of that. I refuse to live dictated by that fear any longer. I know that the band will only be a tool. It is not a magic solution to my battle with my weight. However, it will be a commitment to taking care of myself and one that I am ready to make. This board has been such a source of inspiration to me over the past weeks as I have really taken the time to read the stories of others who have walked ahead of me, those who are walking alongside me, and those who will be following. I am so grateful for the honesty of the emotions that everyone is sharing. It makes the journey seem not so lonely! -
Hi ladies! I am looking at a surgery date in May as well. This journey has been very long for me. I looked into gastric bypass 6 years ago, but my insurance wouldn't cover it. I got ticked and lost 80 pounds on my own. I thought I had done it until I got pregnant and have since gained back all 80 pounds and a few more. :Banane20: Last year I started thinking about other ways to get the surgery and started looking closely at my hubby's insurance. It turns out that his insurance will cover the surgery. They had open enrollment in November, and I was covered effective January 1. I am currently finishing up the 6 month doctor supervised diet/exercise program with my PC physician. It has not gone well. I keep losing and gaining the same 5 lbs. I need to buckle down in the next 6 weeks so that I can show a loss of at least a little weight. My last appointment with my doctor is April 29, and then the surgeon's office should have an approval within a week. I am going through a battery of emotions right now, but I am most hopeful at this point. We can do this!!! I'm so glad to have found this thread of people in the same boat as me.
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Overwhelmed...
palmtreegirl70 replied to palmtreegirl70's topic in Tell Your Weight Loss Surgery Story
Thank you all for your responses. I have spent a lot of time reading these boards this week, and they have helped tremendously. I absolutely know that I want to do the band. I have several people close to me that had gastric bypass, and I envy how quickly the weight fell off of them, but in the long term the band will be the best decision for me and my family. I have the support of my husband, my close friends, my primary care physician, my psychologist of 7 years, and my surgeon. I have done a lot of praying about this, and I am moving forward. I have had several surgeries in the past 10 years, and one comment that my doctors have made to me is that my body heals very well. I am counting on it to do the same with this. I know that there are complications that can occur, but I also know that remaining at this weight will eventually cause complications with my health. I am ready to reclaim my life. Thank you to everyone for sharing your stories on here. I am so hopeful because of the experiences you have all shared. :Banane20: -
Right now I have the "too good to be true" feeling going on as well. My insurance through my employer will not cover WLS, so I got creative and picked up my hubby's insurance in January. I am fulfilling the 6 month waiting period right now, and as I said, I am struggling to make any progress with losing weight before surgery. I compare myself to others and am reading how a lot of people lost 30-50 lbs before surgery on their own. I'm just not able to get it going right now. I think it is a psychological block
You are truly an inspiration. Congrats on a job well done. Thank you so much for taking the time to message me.
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Oh my goodness...Jazzercise is my exercise of choice. Every single time that I have had any success at losing a substantial amount of weight has been with Jazz as my friend. Right now I am at my heaviest weight ever, and I tried to go back to get started, but I am so frustrated with myself for gaining all of this weight back, and I remember what I used to be able to do during a class.
I know that the surgery will only be a tool for me in helping me achieve my goals. I am just so damned tired of my weight running my life; it is the first thing I think of in the morning, and I obsess over it throughout the day.
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Need Lap Band Buddy / Mentor Let's Band Together...
palmtreegirl70 posted a topic in LAP-BAND Surgery Forums
Hi there. My name is Linda, and I hope to be banded in May of 2010. I am finishing up the last 6 weeks of my 6 month mandatory supervised diet for insurance purposes, and I am struggling. I really hoped to lose about 20 lbs while on this diet, but I have only been able to lose and regain the same 5 lbs. I feel like such a failure. I am an almost 40-year old wife and mother of 2. I work full-time as a middle school teacher. My life is very full, but I have always been held back because of my struggle with my weight. I am very hopeful after spending the past few days reading all of the success stories on this website. It is so reassuring to hear of people feeling just like I do. I have several friends/family members who have had gastric bypass, but I know of no one who has had the band. I have a million questions and would love to have a buddy to help me through the highs and lows of the coming months. No one knows what it is like unless they have walked in the same shoes. -
Hi there. My name is Linda. Thanks for responding. I really like Dr. Wagner, but I especially love his staff. They have been so wonderful. Brittani calls me every 2 weeks to let me know where I am in the insurance process.
So tell me about yourself...when did you have the surgery? How have you done? Do you regret it?
Thanks again for taking the time to talk to me!
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I am just going to repeat what others have said. I just posted my first post on this group today. I will have my surgery in May. I feel hopeless some days, but your pictures have given me hope beyond my wildest dreams. I cried while looking at your pics. Awesome job! Thank you for inspiring all of us!