changing my life

Banded on dec 2nd 2009.  Did two weeks of Boost and water two weeks prior to surgery, lost 20 ponds during this time.  Had lost another 8.5 ponds after that but have gained 5 back.  I'm joining this site in the hope that I can hear from people who are just like me and have had the same issues for most of their lives that I have.  I am slipping back into bad behaviour and i need support, even just an encouraging word from someone who has been where I am now.