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16 days till surgery. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I started going to the gym again today. Surgery (personal) December 1st has delayed my much needed extra activity. 30 min max today n I was tired.Now I need a warm bath, relax and then back to the gym tomorrow. Have my nutrition consult Friday. Am anxious to know what my postop diet will be. Looking forward to the new me.

I feel bad but I cheated today. We made some homemade jerky and I just couldn't help myself. I brought my son to the movies and the smell of that delicious, ooey, buttered popcorn made me sneak a few handfuls. UGHHHHHHHH. Back to the ole liquids tomorrow. I have to hit that loss of 10% OR I can't have surgery. I can not negate all that I am doing by sabotaging myself. I have a goal. I have to keep up; as my son says, "mom, it's not a diet, it's a lifestyle change." One I am making for him, to see him grow up and someday be able to see my grandkids.

I feel bad but I cheated today. We made some homemade jerky and I just couldn't help myself. I brought my son to the movies and the smell of that delicious, ooey, buttered popcorn made me sneak a few handfuls. UGHHHHHHHH. Back to the ole liquids tomorrow. I have to hit that loss of 10% OR I can't have surgery. I can not negate all that I am doing by sabotaging myself. I have a goal. I have to keep up; as my son says, "mom, it's not a diet, it's a lifestyle change." One I am making for him, to see him grow up and someday be able to see my grandkids.

I know that everyone says that this is worth it, but I have to tell ya.....I am HUNGRY. Fish, chicken, McDonalds, anything will do. These 5 shakes a day-" diet hell"; is just that HELL. I WANT FOOD! Someone, anyone......FEED ME!

I know I can't believe it but my scale says I am under 200 pounds for the first time in over 12 years. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I doubt it's right, but i just wanna pick that baby up and hug, hug, hug away. This is my new best friend. my fiancee did tell me that when I got to 195, I'd get the "FULL" treatment. oy vay....am I in for a treat; and it's not food. mmmmmmmmmmm, maybe he'll roll around in a bucket of KFC so I could smell him while I get my massage, that would be a treat.

I know I can't believe it but my scale says I am under 200 pounds for the first time in over 12 years. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I doubt it's right, but i just wanna pick that baby up and hug, hug, hug away. This is my new best friend. my fiancee did tell me that when I got to 195, I'd get the "FULL" treatment. oy vay....am I in for a treat; and it's not food. mmmmmmmmmmm, maybe he'll roll around in a bucket of KFC so I could smell him while I get my massage, that would be a treat.

I saw my 7 year old neice today, first time since Christmas, and she said, "wow, nene, you are looking skinny." Hey, who knew.....me slim, no friggin way. I still have the food baby,aka belly pouch, don't get me wrong. My love affair with food is still going strong, I'm just less amorous than I thought I would be. I am still eager for surgery, eager to be healthy, no longer looking forward to wearing jeans so tight they need to be unbuttoned when I sit down. Oh yeah, you all know what I'm talking about.

I saw my 7 year old neice today, first time since Christmas, and she said, "wow, nene, you are looking skinny." Hey, who knew.....me slim, no friggin way. I still have the food baby,aka belly pouch, don't get me wrong. My love affair with food is still going strong, I'm just less amorous than I thought I would be. I am still eager for surgery, eager to be healthy, no longer looking forward to wearing jeans so tight they need to be unbuttoned when I sit down. Oh yeah, you all know what I'm talking about.

I am a very positive person and try not to let people get me down. I thank all of you who keep me going on here. My BFF is the best, always supportive and never a negative nelly. But some, no names involved, aren't always the best. I need to do this for myself....I know, I know, I can lose weight, but keep it off without help. NO WAY. I could never make myself stop at just 1 slice of pizza. well, maybe if it were a personal pan size. 27 pounds off, 10 more to go before surgery. I am short, I am fat and can't wait till the day that I am lookin and feeling my best. 21 days till surgery, that means only 105 more shakes. I CAN DO IT, I WILL DO IT perseverance is my middle name, success is my last.

I am a very positive person and try not to let people get me down. I thank all of you who keep me going on here. My BFF is the best, always supportive and never a negative nelly. But some, no names involved, aren't always the best. I need to do this for myself....I know, I know, I can lose weight, but keep it off without help. NO WAY. I could never make myself stop at just 1 slice of pizza. well, maybe if it were a personal pan size. 27 pounds off, 10 more to go before surgery. I am short, I am fat and can't wait till the day that I am lookin and feeling my best. 21 days till surgery, that means only 105 more shakes. I CAN DO IT, I WILL DO IT perseverance is my middle name, success is my last.

I'm still hungry.....ready for real food. I have been drinking TONS of water. I feel water logged, I could probably float. I wish this liquid diet was for only 1 week, but 4 weeks, c'mon. I am ready for a slimmer me. I just think to myself, Nothing tastes so good as being thin feels. It felt pretty awesome today when i slipped into a pair of large scrub pants at work today. looking forward toward that next chocolate medi shake.mmmmmmmmmmm

I'm still hungry.....ready for real food. I have been drinking TONS of water. I feel water logged, I could probably float. I wish this liquid diet was for only 1 week, but 4 weeks, c'mon. I am ready for a slimmer me. I just think to myself, Nothing tastes so good as being thin feels. It felt pretty awesome today when i slipped into a pair of large scrub pants at work today. looking forward toward that next chocolate medi shake.mmmmmmmmmmm

I know that everyone says that this is worth it, but I have to tell ya.....I am HUNGRY. Fish, chicken, McDonalds, anything will do. These 5 shakes a day-" diet hell"; is just that HELL. I WANT FOOD! Someone, anyone......FEED ME!

ok, so here goes. I have been on my medifast diet a week now, 5 shakes a day, Yahoooooo, and have lost 10 pounds. Only 12 more to go. Surgery is scheduled for 8am 1/20/2010. I am so freakin excited I can barely stand myself. :present: I have been heavy so long and can't wait to just be able to wear a size less than xl. The nurse was amazed that, yes, I am still cooking meals for everyone other than myself. I so want just a taste. Everything smells sooooooooooo good. My stomach growled so loudly at the doctor's office my son thought I'd farted. I was so embarassed.:Dancing_wub: And now I go and have my last shake of my day.

ok, so here goes. I have been on my medifast diet a week now, 5 shakes a day, Yahoooooo, and have lost 10 pounds. Only 12 more to go. Surgery is scheduled for 8am 1/20/2010. I am so freakin excited I can barely stand myself. I have been heavy so long and can't wait to just be able to wear a size less than xl. The nurse was amazed that, yes, I am still cooking meals for everyone other than myself. I so want just a taste. Everything smells sooooooooooo good. My stomach growled so loudly at the doctor's office my son thought I'd farted. I was so embarassed.:tt2: And now I go and have my last shake of my day.

My date is January 20th if all goes well with the "medi hell" diet. I have to lose atleast 12 more pounds in the next 3 weeks. On the medifast for 1 week now and doing well. Still cooking full meals for the family and enjoying my low sodium broth while they eat. :smile: