MePinkie

40 years old and healthy... just short and overweight... being over weight hurts. I am tired of the sore ankles, grunting to bend over and function comfortably. I also want to avoid the issues that arise with being over weight.... high blood pressure, diabetes, etc. LOL I don't want to be a pole dancer or even wear a bikini, I would like to shop in the 'NORMAL' section and take advantage of the great sales presented there. I hope to look good in a man's white undershirt tucked in with a thick belt and a great pair of faded blue jeans. other than that i would like to be able to wear my rings again.... ya, that would be a big deal for me.Ultimately... I saw my Mother die from Pancreatic cancer April 6, 2007. She was a short and over weight woman with many health issues. It was so hard me to watch her fade, deflate, and pass on. I don't want any of my family to have to experience this if i can avoid it. I quit smoking after 23 years and March 20, 2010 i will celebrate my 4th year as a non-smoker. I also made alcohol a treat of maybe 3 times a year and have changed my diet to exclude fast foods for almost 6 years now. I have tried other means to lose weight, either I would gain it back or just not be successful.... my weakness.... I love food. I can eat it until I hurt and everyone around me (in my mind) are master chefs.... LOL. Well... the fact that I am a woman who is entering THAT fun age group and that I 'JACKED' up my metabolism with smoking all those years don't help... so I look for this help... the lap band.A little about myself.... I was a single Mother for 16 years. I have an awesome teenage daughter who will graduate from high school June 2010 and i wouldn't mind looking less bulky at the party i am throwing :) I met a guy playin' an online game (don't get scared folks... I would never let my friends do that... lol) and he moved across the US to live here with me. February will be two years of the best relationship I have ever been in. So... I am a happy person with a new job that pays well and life is good.... why not make it a 'smiggen' close to perfect? (perfect would be boring)Yes.... I am scared. I have been in a lap surgery only once to remove my gall bladder... otherwise i am one who has anxieties over the hospital environment. LOL I even asked the nurse to put in a request that they let me go the same day .... :) I'll just try to be a big girl (w8, I am) and focus on the good. Also I am a bit scared with what may happen after the lap band... many have said they can't eat certain foods... like Asparagus, lettuce, and 'nom noms' I like that are good for you. Nothing like grilled Asparagus in the summer. Again i need to focus on the good.... though i would rather be able to eat what I want (generally healthy foods) I ultimately want to be healthy and not be 'Morbidly Obese' according to BMI.