Yea the whole boyfriend thing is quite hard. My first (and only) relationship was when I was 13 and it was with my best friend. We'd known each other since 5th grade and I fell in love with him. I thought he was perfect and i thought i was lucky that he even wanted to talk to me (bad self confidence) And we talked for 8 hours every day on the phone and talked about sex and such but in school he would only talk to me when we were alone, and would never tell his friends about me. Maybe he was embarrassed? idk but it was riddiculous since it wasn't like i was unpopular (and he was quite unpopular) and i don't think people would have made fun of him. People actually made fun of me for liking him. anyways, one day i went to school and he was with some girl by his locker (she was thin and small but a total bitch) and when i asked him what was going on he was like " i have a girlfriend now, i don't need you" and he hasn't talked to me since. So yea. i've just spent this time looking after myself and loving myself. and gaining self confidence of course :biggrin: like, i'm a musician and i play guitar and sing and i was always afraid to go on stage cause i thought people wouldn't like me cause i was fat. Now, i'm performing and i'm loving me :angel_smile: all about perspective. You don't need a bf/gf to feel good about youself. And, if they don't want you, it's their loss and your gain :tongue: