Mommy1558

Boy Oh Boy! Can I do a number on myself or what? I saw my Dr a couple months ago, he thought my band was in a good place. I said oh no Dr. I need a fill because I am eating way too much and my weight loss has stopped and my cravings are taking over. Well he reluctantly gave me a small fill.. Now I am paying the price. I have reflux reallllllly bad.
 
The problem didn't occur over night but gradually over a month or so. My work shedule has delayed my abilty to see the Dr. I have an appointment to have the fill removed hopefully this will fix my reflux problem. Meanwhile, I am doing liquids to get by until my appoinment, eating Zantac, trying not to eat tooo late, and sleeping on a STACK of pillows. ugh. I didn't go to medical school...so I have no idea why I would pretend to be a Dr!

My Band-a-versary has come and gone...305 before I started 209 the week BEFORE Thanksgiving....now it is New Year's Eve and I am out of control........Again...sigh...up to 219. I am afraid that I won't be able to get myself undercontrol. That thought is always nagging in the back of my mind, you know the one that the weight loss is just a dream that it isn't real. I am still having a hard time seeing myself as a thinner person. I see people sometimes that I haven't seen in over a year.... They truly don't recognize me....I really like that :-) So, it is back to the gym, in for a fill, and back in the saddle for me.....I really want to lose another 70 pounds.. this year... GOTTA have a goal right? Maybe the girl in the mirror next New Year's Eve will be getting dressed for a party in a cute little black dress