Hi Tired... I'm new, so you don't know me, so take this with a grain of salt.
Whenever I've been "blocked" from something I really, really thought I wanted or needed, I've often been surprised to find a better result was waiting ... just out of sight.
Perhaps being blocked from "what is available" will lead to you discovering another talent or area of your life that needs attention. I hope so.
Your posts on this forum are very helpful to me, especially in light of complications you've encountered. I appreciate your patient, measured approach to living with the band. Thank you.