Amour

So the holidays really caught me by surprise and even though I was down in the dumps:crying: a bit about the whole 'not being w/ the one you love' kind of holiday season I still had my family. I mean I'm quite aware that my immediate family are still the ones I love but it's been a long time since I've had that :wub:special kind of someone in my life and it's made me really emotional (:unsure:thank God i'm not an emotional eater or i'd be in big trouble). I've been :thumbup:praying though and God is getting me through it day by day. I just have to learn that when it's time He'll direct my in the direction of he and he in the direction of me. (sigh....exhales) Aside from all the hum glum of the holidays there was some cheer in there and I love my family. :rolleyes:The food,fun and laughs were flowing. My grandmother was surely missed but I miss her every day especially when I want to tell her the good news about my weight. I know she's proud of me though. :w00t:Speaking of good news!!! Well of course you're well aware that I go every six (6) weeks to my LAP-BAND®® Dr. so that he can weigh me. We're still not sure (or at least i'm not) when i'm going to have the initial surgery but I'm pretty sure it will happen when it happens. Still being on this semi-liquid diet even through the holidays I was successful at losing an additional 11lbs. Yes folks 11 more lbs. I was amazed myself and if you add it all up that's 51 total lbs in 12wks tops. I'm so proud of myself because I didn't think I would lose any and actually thought I had gained some. But to my surprise I lost. (exhale) So i'm sticking to this thing like glue and I've even been trying to convert some friends of mine who aren't even dieting. It's not working too well but you just weight they'll see the results and change their minds instantly. A really good friend of mines mother passed away just recently and it hit hard for me. Although I'm pretty sure he was prepared I don't think anything prepares you to lose your parents. He's so sweet though and I love him dearly. I continue to pray for him and I'm going to send him a sympathy card and a thinking of you card too. Oh my new years? well it was pretty good i mean I toasted myself and one of my besties was going to come over but I had fallen asleep and refused to answer the phone. so yeah I brought the new year in on a pillow cloud lol. Oh and my other best-friend got married . I'm so happy for her and my new cousin-in-law. They have been together for so long I was wondering when the wedding would take place. I was a little unhappy that it wasn't a wedding wedding and that they went off and did a quiet little thing () lol but i'm glad they are married. Well that's about it right now. Nope no resolutions I have enough on my plate as it. Talk to you soon and blessings. :smile2:

So the holidays really caught me by surprise and even though I was down in the dumps:crying: a bit about the whole 'not being w/ the one you love' kind of holiday season I still had my family. I mean I'm quite aware that my immediate family are still the ones I love but it's been a long time since I've had that :wub:special kind of someone in my life and it's made me really emotional (:unsure:thank God i'm not an emotional eater or i'd be in big trouble). I've been :thumbup:praying though and God is getting me through it day by day. I just have to learn that when it's time He'll direct my in the direction of he and he in the direction of me. (sigh....exhales) Aside from all the hum glum of the holidays there was some cheer in there and I love my family. :rolleyes:The food,fun and laughs were flowing. My grandmother was surely missed but I miss her every day especially when I want to tell her the good news about my weight. I know she's proud of me though. :w00t:Speaking of good news!!! Well of course you're well aware that I go every six (6) weeks to my LAP-BAND®® Dr. so that he can weigh me. We're still not sure (or at least i'm not) when i'm going to have the initial surgery but I'm pretty sure it will happen when it happens. Still being on this semi-liquid diet even through the holidays I was successful at losing an additional 11lbs. Yes folks 11 more lbs. I was amazed myself and if you add it all up that's 51 total lbs in 12wks tops. :w00t: I'm so proud of myself because I didn't think I would lose any and actually thought I had gained some. But to my surprise I lost. (exhale) So i'm sticking to this thing like glue and I've even been trying to convert some friends of mine who aren't even dieting. It's not working too well but you just weight they'll see the results and change their minds instantly. A really good friend of mines mother passed away just recently and it hit hard for me. Although I'm pretty sure he was prepared I don't think anything prepares you to lose your parents. He's so sweet though and I love him dearly. I continue to pray for him and I'm going to send him a sympathy card and a thinking of you card too. Oh my new years? well it was pretty good i mean I toasted myself and one of my besties was going to come over but I had fallen asleep and refused to answer the phone. so yeah I brought the new year in on a pillow cloud lol. Oh and my other best-friend got married . I'm so happy for her and my new cousin-in-law. They have been together for so long I was wondering when the wedding would take place. I was a little unhappy that it wasn't a wedding wedding and that they went off and did a quiet little thing (:mad:) lol but i'm glad they are married. Well that's about it right now. Nope no resolutions I have enough on my plate as it. Talk to you soon and blessings. :thumbup:

Well as you can probably tell from the title i am currently at a stand still:sad:. I went to a specialist the other day (I have a pulmonologist....long story) and they of course weighed me in being i only go every 6mos or so,it seems i'm still @ the weight I last was when i had my 2nd BIG WEIGH-IN:confused:. Don't get me wrong I'm pleased to have lost this first 40lbs but I don't want to stop here:unsure:. I have a lot more to go before they will place the band because my BMI is still too high. :thumbup:Good news though is i'm not discouraged and this will just make me work even harder. I was speaking w/ my father & brother about it and they suggested a regular exercise regimen. I think i'll start back on the "shimmy'ing" because that was always so much fun. Plus i never get bored with shaking my tush lol:lol:. I suggested shopping (there's walking in shopping lol) but of course that's the shop-a-holic talking in me and not the "fitness fanatic" that should be talking. Oh wait i think i mentioned in my "uh oh" blog that i ate a piece of cheese cake. HA! Turns out I actually had :tongue2: 3 pieces through the entire month so i'm grateful my weight didn't go up. I'm still beating myself up for that mishap though. Christmas is upon us and i'm excited about it. I just like the idea of spending time w/ my family , listening to my parents old Temptations Christmas album and reminiscing on old times w/ my brother. Yeah those are what good times are made of. I keep running out of my protein "food" but i suppose it's because i've been getting the travel/office size instead of the big container. :thumbup:So I finally ordered the big container seeing as i'm going to be doing this for a while now. :w00t:I'm psyched though and excited about losing more weight, looking my best (can i look any better lol) and feeling much healthier. (Exhales) More to come later nothing else to report.

Well as you can probably tell from the title i am currently at a stand still:sad:. I went to a specialist the other day (I have a pulmonologist....long story) and they of course weighed me in being i only go every 6mos or so,it seems i'm still @ the weight I last was when i had my 2nd BIG WEIGH-IN:confused:. Don't get me wrong I'm pleased to have lost this first 40lbs but I don't want to stop here:unsure:. I have a lot more to go before they will place the band because my BMI is still too high. :thumbup:Good news though is i'm not discouraged and this will just make me work even harder. I was speaking w/ my father & brother about it and they suggested a regular exercise regimen. I think i'll start back on the "shimmy'ing" because that was always so much fun. Plus i never get bored with shaking my tush lol:lol:. I suggested shopping (there's walking in shopping lol) but of course that's the shop-a-holic talking in me and not the "fitness fanatic" that should be talking. Oh wait i think i mentioned in my "uh oh" blog that i ate a piece of cheese cake. HA! Turns out I actually had 3 pieces through the entire month so i'm grateful my weight didn't go up. I'm still beating myself up for that mishap though. Christmas is upon us and i'm excited about it. I just like the idea of spending time w/ my family , listening to my parents old Temptations Christmas album and reminiscing on old times w/ my brother. Yeah those are what good times are made of. I keep running out of my protein "food" but i suppose it's because i've been getting the travel/office size instead of the big container. :thumbup:So I finally ordered the big container seeing as i'm going to be doing this for a while now. :w00t:I'm psyched though and excited about losing more weight, looking my best (can i look any better lol) and feeling much healthier. (Exhales) More to come later nothing else to report.

Well I slipped up:sad:. I actually got so tempted I had a slice of cheese cake:drool: that was sitting in my back refrigerator.:sleep2: I beat myself up for it vowing the next morning I would skip the suggested oatmeal breakfast (which I did) and would only be allowed the chicken flavored protein broth that evening (which I had):thumbup:. This was so unhealthy for me and it caused me to be even more hungry:thumbdown:. I told myself If I'm going to do this I can't beat myself up just for indulging as long as i don't go overboard. I just don't want the added calories nor do I want to gain back that 40lbs that I have lost thus far. Not to mention the band has not been placed yet and there is no telling how ill I could have made myself by eating something I know I should not have:crying:. Still i'm doing well and i'm just waiting on my shipment of protein supplemental mixes to arrive. I found out through a good friend GNC has the mixes available so I think I'm going to pick those up instead of waiting for them to be shipped to me. It's about 4 more weeks until the next weigh in and i'm really trying to do another 40lbs. I am quite aware that the loss may not be as significant this go around but i'm :smile2:prayerful and extremely hopeful that it's at least that close. My mobility has gotten a lot better and i'm doing a lot more walking. I love to shop so this holiday season i will be doing a lot of going out and purchasing instead of online shopping (even though it just seems so much cheaper online and you don't have to worry about things not being available either). Til next time....:sleep:

Well I slipped up:sad:. I actually got so tempted I had a slice of cheese cake:drool: that was sitting in my back refrigerator.:biggrin: I beat myself up for it vowing the next morning I would skip the suggested oatmeal breakfast (which I did) and would only be allowed the chicken flavored protein broth that evening (which I had):wink2:. This was so unhealthy for me and it caused me to be even more hungry:thumbdown:. I told myself If I'm going to do this I can't beat myself up just for indulging as long as i don't go overboard. I just don't want the added calories nor do I want to gain back that 40lbs that I have lost thus far. Not to mention the band has not been placed yet and there is no telling how ill I could have made myself by eating something I know I should not have:crying:. Still i'm doing well and i'm just waiting on my shipment of protein supplemental mixes to arrive. I found out through a good friend GNC has the mixes available so I think I'm going to pick those up instead of waiting for them to be shipped to me. It's about 4 more weeks until the next weigh in and i'm really trying to do another 40lbs. I am quite aware that the loss may not be as significant this go around but i'm :smile2:prayerful and extremely hopeful that it's at least that close. My mobility has gotten a lot better and i'm doing a lot more walking. I love to shop so this holiday season i will be doing a lot of going out and purchasing instead of online shopping (even though it just seems so much cheaper online and you don't have to worry about things not being available either). Til next time....:drool: