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hey everyone. at the end of may, i'm having my band removed. becuz i heard there are lots of complications about it and i don't want to have any. plus i can eat just fine with it. and the doctor suggested gastric bypass as the next logical step. however, after reading the nutrition after gastric bypass, i am just horrified. i can't imagine a life without sweets or milk. i love food and i love cooking, and i am not morbidly obese, and i never was. so i want to be able to eat, only less. and i'm really scared of gaining weight again after removing it. what is the deal with the gastric sleeve? is it similar to lap band? or gastric bypass, does it really mean no sweets forever and no milk? please help! thanks..

hi everyone, sorry to bother you.. see, i've had my band with no problems for some time now, but yesterday i ate a bowl of muesli in the morning. i was kind of in a hurry, so i think i might have rushed a bit. from that moment on, i had this kind of feeling i usually get when i've overeaten; but not enough to throw up or anything. that feeling did not leave me all day. i tried to eat something, but i threw up. whatever i ate, i threw up and in the evening, i had some Soup and only a bit of crackers. i didn't throw them up. so, this morning, i drank some Water and my stomach had these noises like i ate too much again. then i had some eggs, and i have the exact same feeling like i've overeaten, with no break since yesterday.. i tried to call my doctor, but couldn't reach him.. please, someone make me feel better i'm not ready for surgery again! i know, i should probably stop trying to eat, but hey, i might've stapled my stomach but i'm stll the same up there :thumbup:

thanks guys .( i reached my doctor, he said it's gonna be fine..

Hi everybody... I am 21 years old, and I had lap band surgery last june. It was the decision of my parents, and I was kind of forced into it, and I really had a hard time during the surgery, since it was my first surgery ever.. My weight loss was really slow at first, and there was a lot of fights in my home, though I don't really have a bad family life, there was a lot of shouting and throwing stuff around because of the stress the surgery caused... Plus, I didn't tell anyone, not even my closest friends or family, which made it harder to share. In february, I was forced into another surgery, liposuction, though it seemed too early for me, it was enough for my parents. I had to start school within a week, and I was in a lot of pain and I didn't tell anyone about it either, and the pressure was so bad. However, now it's been more than a year, and my days throwing up are less and less. I began to understand the band better, and though I don't think I've made my peace with it totally, I lost about 30 kg, and the change has been incredible. It did not bring me love or success or immedeate popularity, and it didn't make any magic, I didn't become fit or fall in love with sports, but I picked up tennis again this summer and my instructor can't believe the difference. My self confidence is much higher, and my taste habits have changed completely. There are days I hate the band, and get really jealous of meat eaters, since for some reason, I can't tolerate it, and my band is right between my breasts, which is not the tradition, and I can sometimes feel it with my fingers, like when I sleep facedown, and it really disturbs me. Plus, my scars haven't healed at all. And not being able to share it, but having to explain my throwing up has been really hard, but still, with a lot of tales about stomach sensitivity etc, things have been going smoothly. And the reaction old friends show has been incredible. But the best part has been the difference of my shopping. I can show almost anywhere I want now, and it has been a wonderful experience after spending my teenage years doing plus size shopping.. I did want to post a pic,but I'm not sure how. I just wanted to share my experience, in case it is inspiration in anyway, though I never believed I could inspire anyone to do anything;)

thank you

well, then I wouldn't say 'forced', but 'very heavily encouraged':) I wasn't really given a choice, and I never said 'I want to have surgery'. But I guess that was their last resort, and I knew they only wanted good things for me, so I didn't really resist it.

Hi everyone! I got banded in June, and my progress haven't been what I've hoped for... :faint: However, I've got no one to blame but myself, since I don't exercise, plus, i can just eat fine, probably b/c I had only 1 filling. I wanted to share my progress with someone along the same lines as me. I'm 20, so I'd prefer someone around that area but I guess it doesn't really matter. Thank you in advance :clap2:

I know my discouraging threads are becoming a habit around here, but it's just that I have no one to talk to. You know how your stomach is operated by your brain is not? It's just that my hand always reaches for the most fattening snack there is, and my nose keeps smelling the damn pizza place downstairs. And I know I can't eat any of that. My second fill was very successful, I hate that. I can barely eat. I lost like 4 kg, and I know I should be happy, and all my clothes fit better and stuff, but I'm felling like crap. (am I allowed to say that?) I hate not being able to eat. My sugar level is so bad that I am trembling all over the place, I hate the bloody protein shake, and I haven't had a dinner for the last 9 days. Throwing up is my nightly activity, even if all I have is a tomato or a bite of salmon. I hate anything that I am free to eat, like the yogurt that decreases my cholestrol levels (or it will, or so we hope) and I know I'm beginning to go towards the road to destruction once again. I just stacked a bag of mini bounties in my school locker, and I've been sneaking it all day at school. I began to eat the puding instead of the yogurt, and I choose the chocolate biscuits instead of the regular ones. The things I am allowed to like, I can't eat, like tomatoes and cheese or salmon or rice. I think I am going nuts this time. Still, I eat like a bird, and I try to eat even if I'm full and feel disgusted at the end. All this would be OK if I only had a few pounds to go, but I don't. My mother is another story, and her goals are always for me to lose just a little more weight than I intend. My father gives me all this 'poor kid' looks, but whenever I decide to eat, he looks just so sad. I even threw up at school the other day, and it so was not nice. I can't believe my problems about this just don't end!!

Isopure is whey, and it has no carbs so it's really good.

ONE day post op??? I was lying on the bed almost dead that day!! I couldn't even watch tv or hold a book let alone type on the computer! Don't worry, I lost 18 kg and I still curse myslelf for doing this to myself.

Yes, I started this thread, so I know how it feels not restricted when you're supposed to be. But get another fill, it does wonders. I also hear you're supposed to wait 24 hours without eating solid foods, so watch out for that, and that it takes a week for it to settle. I know eat less. I even lost weight. But you throw up more, so watch out.

I drink protein shakes- 2 scoops of isopure vanilla, 1 banana, 1 packet of splenda, 1/2 cup of milk and 1 cup of ice. You can also add cocoa, or vanilla. Yum.

You guys are right about my mother.. She and I fight all the time, and she thinks my weight issues are her own. She's not obese, she's actually a very beuatiful woman, though I don't think she thinks so. Just yesterday she cried and yelled at me when I tried to bake a light puding. It was partly my fault, but she goes from topic to topic and makes my life miserable..

Hi. I just got my second fill. I also asked my doctor about how many ccs and the size etc. And he said that now I have 5cc of liquid, first he had given me a 3 cc and now 2 cc. Though I don't think it's exactly 5cc becuz some of it might have leaked out. Also my band size is 09. Is is the correct measurement? He said that now I'll be losing weight more rapidly, and I won't be able to eat as much. And my mother went on and on about how I could still eat more than her. :angry Sometimes I just hate her. Then I drank that disgusting liquid and I was hungry about half an hour later. Since there was nothing to eat at home, we went to this restaurant and I had fettucini (or spaghetti, I'm so not big on Italian). My mom kept staring at me while I ate, so I stopped eating before I was full. A large portion of the food was still on the plate, but I wasn't really full so I guess I don't know where exactly I stand now.

I've been feeling kind of sad today. Especially becuz I am going to Istanbul, since school starts monday. I really didn't have that good a summer since I had my surgery in june, and since my parents were ashamed my me (they did use that word) they didn't want me going around in our hometown. :tired So we kind of traveled, to London, to Paris, Austria and etc. I guess it turned out well, but still.. :confused: I really don't want to start school. Though I'm thinner than I was, and I'm almost positive people will notice and comment on this positive change (:nervous ) I still don't feel ready. My mother is coming with me, and I don't know how I feel about that. I'm just nervous, I guess...

I've been feeling kind of sad today. Especially becuz I am going to Istanbul, since school starts monday. I really didn't have that good a summer since I had my surgery in june, and since my parents were ashamed my me (they did use that word) they didn't want me going around in our hometown. :tired So we kind of traveled, to London, to Paris, Austria and etc. I guess it turned out well, but still.. :cool: I really don't want to start school. Though I'm thinner than I was, and I'm almost positive people will notice and comment on this positive change (:nervous ) I still don't feel ready. My mother is coming with me, and I don't know how I feel about that. I'm just nervous, I guess...

my school starts on monday, and i am moving back to my single quarters (with my mother) tomorrow. and i can't even find my keys! my hands actually tremble with stress. plus, other than the fact that i am trying to cut back on sweets and trying to exercise more (and am tired like hell) for the last 3 days, i have to get my second filling on friday. i feel so nervous. needles scare me, and the injection itself makes me even nervous thinking about it. whenever i lie on my back, it's fine, but the other way around, i can actually feel the bloody thing between my breasts. and what if now i get a second filling, i begin throwing up and i do it in school??? what if everyone realizes i had a weight loss surgery, and did not actually have my gallbladder removed? i have enough problems with school anyway, without the added stress of the band. plus, i had a goal set for 18th of september, to be 90 kg, and i couldn't meet it. i am so stressed out, and all of it started an hour ago. yesterday, it was summer, and now it's the stress of fall.:think

I just had my blood tested today!! My hemoglobin A1C has always been high, and that's actually one of the main reasons I got the operation- so I wouldn't get diabetes. (:sick big, big fear) I don't actually know how high it was, but I picked up my results and it says: The normal values are between 4.4 and 6.5, and mine is 5.6!!! Which is pretty good don't you think? I had a slice of devil's cake at Gloria Jeans today, so I've been feeling a litte angry at myself, but I also walked for an hour to go the movies. Which is something. I guess..

I just had my blood tested today!! My hemoglobin A1C has always been high, and that's actually one of the main reasons I got the operation- so I wouldn't get diabetes. (:sick big, big fear) I don't actually know how high it was, but I picked up my results and it says: The normal values are between 4.4 and 6.5, and mine is 5.6!!! Which is pretty good don't you think?:cool: I had a slice of devil's cake at Gloria Jeans today, so I've been feeling a litte angry at myself, but I also walked for an hour to go the movies. Which is something. I guess..

I ate a huge lunch. The total of 4 plates of food. I'm not kidding. 4!!!!! OK, they were small plates. And the food was, well, it's called dolma.. it's rice tucked in some leaves. I had like 20 finger sized dolmas. And two meat balls, which are not exactly meatballs since they are fried. I hate myself. And I had actual surgery. My stomach is supposed to have been smaller. Not bigger!! Plus, even right now, I'm not that full!!!! Is this normal?? Do you think my band is broken???:speechles

Hi!! This is my firstest every entry, and I'm not even sure I can or will want to write further.. It's just that I think I really need motivation, because things have been only so-so since my surgery 12th of June. :think I just thought along with people who have been going thru the same thing, it might be easier... Anyway, just wanted to say hey before I get more serious. Hey:clap2:

I was just about to say the same thing. Aussie Chick, It's some improvement you have made!!! You should write a book

It's not actually smaller before you get a fill. I hate the fill. I'm scared of it. Do you guys know how not to receive email each time someone posts? And one more thing. My scars are still visible, very, very visible. Normal, right?

I had 1 fill.

Yes, my total is 38 kg. I have 24 to go.. I'm really in need of losing, but my scale is all floozy and I just can't motivate myself to walk!! Plus, I just ate 3 plates of something, which should be impossible, but i was fine. just fine. Sometimes I hate my life so muchh