well, you're banded, you're on your way! congratulations!!! I can only imagine what all is going on with losing your husband, but just think of how great losing all your weight will be! Those first few days I found myself thinking... what have I done?... now, I just had my first fill and it is the very best decision I have ever made! I am so thankful and happy... there are hard days and great days, so... take your time, rest, walk, walk, walk... and you will be on your way!:clap2: Jana